Meeting them

When people ask about who is the latest, most popular and biggest boy band in the world. Obviously, the answer will be BTS or they are known as Bangtan Sonyeondan or Beyond the scene. These boys had been an inspiration to many people around the world as their message that had been told through their songs. Many people are healed by their songs as their songs touch their heart and soul. They had also once been hurt and bashed because of their songs but know they are known as legends by their fan club the ARMYs. These ARMYs had been with them along their journey of 6 years. They were the one who fought for the boys so that they could go beyond the scene like their name. These boys had always been thankful to their fan club as how their fan club are to them. The relationship between them is just the most beautiful thing to see.

My name is Lilac Ye. Yes, the lilac colour. That's how people actually tease me but I don't mind. I love the name that my parents had given me. What was stated above was just a part of my diary. I just like BTS so much that people actually think that I'm literally obsessed with them. I don't mind if people say I'm crazy because I laugh alone when I watch their videos. For them I am more than willing to be labelled as crazy. In school, I would always be eager to go home just to watch their MVs, videos in BangtanTV and videos in VLIVE. Although most of the time what they do is really cray but I always find what they do entertaining. It was like they had given me some colours in my life.

In my school, I have a group of friends who are as crazy as me for BTS. They are Ji An, Tiffany, Nuna and Hazel. When we are seated together, we could talk about BTS the whole day without stopping. We share information, gossips and talk about all sorts of funny things they do in the videos. Our dream is only one which is to meet them one day. Although it's really a hard thing to do because we are still studying and our parents don't like the fact that we are spending money on them. They would always say this "They are just some pretty boys and you're supporting them when you're not even able to support yourself yet." This makes us feels so desperate to meet them. Each one of us have a story behind liking BTS. My story is simple and maybe typical to most people.

To say the truth, I didn't like them when they first debuted but I start liking them during their Boy in Luv era. I just find their songs catchy and it's really nice. My first bias was V and the reason why I like him was because he had the same blood type as me. At that time, the innocent me who don't know anything about them hates Jung Kook because I like EXO at that time. I hate the fact that Sehun is always being compared to Jung Kook. It's like everything that Jung Kook does is better than our Sehunie. I got so annoyed and I started to hate the whole group.

Who would have thought that during my Form 1, I would fall for them? At that time, I was emotionally unstable and I didn't tell my parents about it because I don't want to go to the doctor. I just don't like taking medicine and I don't want people to say that I'm crazy. At that time, their album 'The Most Beautiful Moment of Life Pt.1' came out and the song I Need U touched my heart. When I heard that song, my tears start to fall and I couldn't stop crying. I was just so sad. I didn't know why. It feels like that song just relates to me so much. I had no close friends at that time and everyone bullies me in class just because the teachers like me. I was an outcast in my own class. I had to pretend to be strong in front of everyone else and cannot show my weakness to anyone. At that time BTS became my medicine. I had fell into depression before I heard their songs. I always have thought of ending my life because no one was there for me.

In my eyes, no one wanted me to be alive. My parents and siblings hate me. I'm just being the outcast everywhere I go. Every day I would try to hurt myself but I couldn't do it. There's this one time when I turned on the radio and the song, I Need U came on. Although I don't understand the lyrics but I don't know how the song just touched deep into my heart. It just feels like a part of my burden was lifted after hearing that song. When I look up for the song, I found out it was those boys that I hated. From that day onwards, I forgot about EXO and my heart starts beating for BTS. At that moment, I realize that there are still people who love me. It was BTS. They were the angels send by God to be my cure. I didn't realize that at that time. As time passed, I became their hard-core fan. Knowing every single of their songs and reading their profiles over and over again so that I could memorize them. There wasn't a day that I will miss any news about them. They had become a part of my life just like that.