The real her

Hazel's POV

Urghh having a sister like this really piss me off. She's a good for nothing sister. Other than leeching on dad's wealth and love, she did nothing for the family. I had to listen to dad and study something that I don't want to just because he doesn't want her to suffer in the business world. How is this fair for me? I don't even mind if she wants to take the company share because I really don't want it. She can continue to pursue her dream but me I couldn't. I must do what my dad wants. If my mom was still around, she would force dad to let me be and wouldn't even mention about me taking over business. But ever since mom left, he had not been himself anymore and he put all his attention on his second family. Sometimes it felt like I don't even exist in the family. The only way to let my anger out is torturing her. I don't know why by torturing her I get a sense of satisfaction. It felt like the world is in my hand as people need to bow down to me. I know that I can love someone but I know he wouldn't even realize me. I don't mind loving him in secret because he don't deserve someone like me. The only thing I know that it's my responsibility to protect him. But he doesn't need to know about it. Maybe in her eyes my way of torturing her is too much but little did she know what I had to suffer before. When I was younger, I was kidnapped and no one could imagine what did those kidnappers did to me. That's the reason why whenever I throw tantrum my mother would side me immediately because she knows what's the best for me. Now she's no longer around.

Who can I turn to rely on? Who can give me the comfort that I've been finding for? I couldn't turn to my father because most of the time he's not even at home. I couldn't turn to Lilac because she's busy with Yoon Gi. I've got no one to turn to until I've met him. V of BTS that one person who I could turn to when I'm sad. I look at his pictures, his videos and anything about him just makes me happy. When he's sad, I will feel sad too and when he's happy, I'm happy. I know that a lot of people think that I'm obsessed with him. Yes I am but why do I need to care how people look at me. No one can judge me just because I've felt that he's my life. I had no one. Who can do anything about it? I just like the way I'm living now. I don't want to go back to that hellhole that my father had thrown me in when my mother had just passed away. I really don't want to return again. Everyday doctors and nurses would come in and tell me I need to take my medicine. I'm a healthy person why would I need to take medicine. No one told me what was wrong with me and yet my dad thrown me in there. Suddenly I heard the noise of a car. When I look out of the window, I saw that my dad is back. I need to let her out again. Never mind I'll just tell him that she went to sleepover at her friend's house. I'll let her out tomorrow morning.

"Hey Hazel. How are you?" My dad said.

"Hey. I'm fine as you can see." I said.

"Hazel don't you miss me?" My dad asked.

"Should I?" I asked back.

"I haven't been home for days and you didn't miss me at all?" My dad asked.

"I will tell you the truth. I don't miss you at all. Not even a bit." I said acidly.

I know that this way would make me push him away. I know that deep down I don't want this to happen but I knew that I couldn't afford to hurt myself anymore. I don't want to hear him comparing me and her.

"It's ok. I know you're trying to forgive me for what I've done to your mother. By the way, where's Hanuel?" My dad asked.

"Well you can find out yourself. Probably she ran off with another guy like her mother did." I said mockingly.

"Hazel please tolerate your sister. She's innocent. The one in the wrong is here mother and I. Please don't hurt her." My dad said.

I just walked out of the living room and went upstairs. I don't want him to beg for her. I never wanted that to happen. Why can't he just stay faithful to mommy? Why must he betray her?