Before the new chapter to my life

*Beep Beep Beep* the same sound everyday resounds through the room in the hospital that I stay at. This is what I have been listening to for as long as I remember with the same white room. The same scenery out of the window and the same door that only ever opens two or three times a day.

I guess I should introduce myself shouldn't I? *Ahem* hello there my name's Anna and I am a very sickly young girl at 15 years of age. Ever since I was born I've been in the hospital and have never actually see the outside world. I can't really leave my bed and at first I was depressed about this but it doesn't matter to me anymore. I at least can be safe here.

My parents used to visit me quite regularly but slowly that stopped. When my brother was born around 7 years ago they slowed down the number of visits to me. It slowed down from everyday to twice a week to once a month to eventually... never. At first I was upset that they didn't visit like any child would, I would cry and ask for them to the nurses but I was just told that they would visit soon.

Being a naive child at the time I would believe them until I had one day overheard the nurses saying that they felt pity for me that my parents would abandon me just because I was a nuisance to their lives. Ever since that day I didn't care about anyone and my heart grew cold.

One day I was just laying there in my bed when the door to the room suddenly opened and a middle aged man walked in who obviously didn't have something right with him. When his gaze landed on me he smiled maliciously and approached me. I was terrified at the time, I mean who wouldn't?

As he approached he started to undo his belt and trapped my leg and arm. Feeling disgusted I kicked him with all the remaining strength I could muster. I managed to hit him right in his chin causing him to stumble back a bit. However I was only a weak child so he soon got up.

Once he had got up though he screamed "You bitch! How dare you kick me, it looks like I'll definitely have to give you a punishment now kukuku". I was scared nearly to the point of pissing myself but I didn't do that, mainly because I think I may have excited him more but let's move on.

Due to him shouting at me, the only person who still tried to maintain contact with me and the only person in my heart was the nurse called Tia who was in her mid twenties. Hearing another voice from inside my room she came in and throughly beat the shit out of the man. Turns out she new martial arts, who'd a guessed?

Well I think it was this incident that helped me establish my sexuality and my disdain for men. Also my first and last love on Tia no less. But anyways after this incident my life continued on like 'normal' and nothing of particular interested happened. That was until I discovered the Godzilla 2014 film and I instantly fell in love with it. Now if you assume that girls should like pretty pink things and princesses you are wrong my friend.

Godzilla in a huge lizard like creature that is a total badass and I assume unless you've been living under a rock or have only watched the 1998 Zilla you should know who Godzilla is. Anyways ever since I had found my love in the Godzilla franchise I would watch all Kaiju related films but I would always return to Godzilla.

I would even dream about being a Godzilla myself and fight either humans or monsters. When I closed my eyes to enter this world inside my head is when I would truly be at peace. Roaming the world and battling armies of man or roaring monsters to end it off as a total victory for me.

These happy days passed until I reached the age of 15, in fact I passed on my birthday. I woke up on the day of my birthday feeling even more shit that usual and I knew what this meant. I knew my time had come but there were still two things I wanted to do.

The first was to finish my book on a fanfic of Godzilla, it was interesting at first but the male character turned into a huge pervert and ended up making a harem, fucking typical. Anyways the second was to leave with no regrets regarding Tia.

On the day I knew I would pass Tia was the only one to visit other than the unwilling doctor who came to see my condition. Just like what I had already guessed the doctor just gave a sigh which in all honesty was probably relief and left the room. Right now it was just I and Tia.

"Hey Tia?"

"*Hic* ye.. yes Anna?" *Sniff*

"I.. I have something... I need to tell... you.." I could feel my energy draining and it was becoming even more difficult to talk.

"Wh.. *sob* what is it?"

"Ever... since that time... you saved me from that... 'thing' I had... something change in me... and I want you to know what..."

"What is it? I.. I will listen to what you have to say Anna and I will *hic* always keep it with me for the rest of my life"

I looked at Tia whose face was now covered in tears and smiled the best I could. I didn't usually show any emotion on my face ever since that incident. It seems my smile took her of guard as she seem to freeze and tried her best to stop her tears from escaping. Her face slightly scrunched up trying to stop the waterworks from continuing was cute.

"Ever since... that day I have discovered... that I was defenceless and weak... I had thought that I would have... been raped that day... by you, my so called knight in... shining armour saved me... thank you for that... and that was when..."

"When what?" *Sniff*

"I knew... I.. I loved you" at this point I cried. It was the first time in a long time I had cried but I had cried. Maybe it was from happiness that I was able to express my feelings or sadness that I wouldn't be able to see her again.

When I had said these words and cried she looked slightly shaken and then cried.

"I... I had always cared for you, and over time I got closer and closer with you. I discovered cute little things about you, like how you would have your eyes sparkle when eating sweets or how you would always set your hair in a particular way when you heard I was coming just because you knew it was my favourite hairstyle. All these cute little things you did made me feel 'what cute creature is this?!' And over time I too developed feelings for you. However I was already an adult and you were still too young so I decided to leave it be."

At these words I was shocked 'She likes me too!?' I was so happy and also extremely embarrassed because of the things she saw. I was happy but... it wouldn't last long. I... would die today and leave behind the girl I love who also surprisingly loved me.

"I have always wanted to confess but by the time you were 14 I was 26. I was going to confess when you turned 18 just to get it off my chest... but it seems I won't be able to do so now. But there is one thing I can do..."

Tia slowly stood up and looked out the door to make sure no one was coming in. Then when she was sure no one else came by she approached my bed. When she arrived at my bed side she bent down and looked into my eyes. Her wet emerald green eyes looking into mine.

"Happy birthday Anna *Chuu*"

She had pressed her lips up to mine and kept them there for about 5 seconds then raised her face slowly that was still releasing her tears.

"I love you Anna, I hope that I'll meet you up in the sky where we'll spend all of eternity together hehehe" through her tears she made a smiling face and laughed the most beautiful laugh I've ever heard. She then lowered her head again to kiss my lips. This was the happiest I've ever been but all good things come to an end.

As her warm lips were pressed against mine the dark slowly covered my eyes. The dark continued to swallow me and the last thing I could make out was the warmth of Tia's lips on mine and the flatline beep of the machine connected to me.