Only two people know my shame

Rena Maybell Jones loved her family with her whole heart and anyone who dared to harm them would feel pain beyond their graves. But she also had a secret that only Teta's and Axel knew about. It was not because she did not trust them it was because she knew they would grow over protective and worry about her. She would live with her shame forever because for all she was worth. She was also scared.

The family never knew the real reason..well reasons why she had been traveling for eight years. And if she got her way they would never know. She prided herself in never killing anyone no matter how tempting it is just to off certain people. She was not a murder but she knew people who would not think twice about killing someone. They would not think twice about murder if they knew the truth and she would not be the reason her family was behind bars for the rest of their lives.

What no one knew was that her ex the Italian Mafia asshole. Had had her taken two months before she actually left to travel. She had been out with Teta and Axel a week after the vegas incident. They were celebrating and that just meant bar hopping. So they were taking all their shortcuts through alleys and dried up washes.

In one of their shortcuts they got jumped. Ten guys against three was not a fair fight and they went down despite their efforts. Teta and Axel had been drugged and left in an old abandoned trailer in the middle of no where and handcuffed to cinder blocks. She had woken up chained to a filthy mattress and a furious ex boyfriend.

It was two days later she was let go and dropped off at the trailer where her best friends had been kept. They were released and although it was not the first time either of them had walked through the desert. It was the most painful time.

She was broken and they were terrified. None of them talked about what happened while they had been separated for two whole days. It was a week later she started getting sick and it concerned all three of them. Her two best friends dragged her kicking and screaming to the hospital. The news resulted in horror filled heartbreak for all three.

She was pregnant with that monsters child and she had options but she couldn't think. Axel couldn't breath torn between pure rage and worry. Temika shut down completely at what this meant and she threw up for the next twenty minutes.

None of them spoke for three days straight but stayed holed up in a hotel room just the three of them. It was on the fourth day the silence broke and Rena cracked from her stupor to sob her wrenched out heart. Her tears were the what broke the dam and they all cried. It was gross and ugly and there was nothing but raw emotions on display.

It was a month of staying in the hotel room just the three of them. Axel and Temika took unspeakable jobs that were never talked about to gather money. Rena went to the doctors regularly and discussed her options while taking the right medications. She hated what had happened to her; they all did but she could never take away someone elses chance at life.

They talked about it until it was ran into the ground. Axel grew angry and Temika grew silent. Neither could argue her sound logic but that didn't mean they had to like it. Two weeks into the second month and they planned. They planned the whole thing; to Temika using every connection she ever made and Axel took jobs that made quick money and they were not legal at all.

It ended up that Temika found a long lost cousin in Detroit and she was to go there. Axel worked himself to the bone and when he wasn't he had Rena wrapped in his arms. When they told their family Rena was going to travel and see the world. They told them two days before she was to leave and all so they had no time to argue but just accept it.

Over the next nine months while she was gone Temika and Axel were the only people she would video chat. Everyone else got a phone call. The two of them worked and sent her money and no one knew the real reason they both started working impossible hours and longer shifts. Everyone assumed it was because they were upset their best friend had left. They would only be a third of the way right.

It was the end of March when Temika's cousin called and said something was wrong. Rena had been in horrible pain and he took her to the emergency room. They gave her an emergency C-section and something had gone horribly wrong. It was fifteen hours later Axel got a call as Rena's POA and legal husband about what was going on.

The baby was still born and the mother loss a lot of blood during the complications of the birth. Also the doctors found a tumor that wasn't visible before in her uterus and she was sent under the knife. Rena Maybell Jones had had cancer in her uterus and because it wasn't detected during the pregnancy it resulted in complications and the babies death.

They both flew out to see her on a red eye and when she woke she smiled and told them to go the fuck away. They of course fought her but she admitted she did not want the family to know. The kids were too young and needed to focus on school. The club was doing just find with the watching over the other kids and didn't need to worry.

So for eight years Axel and Teta's sent money for chemo and her last day of chemo and being declared cancer free. She left with some meds and drove all the way home without stopping once. The afternoon she saw her husband for the first time in person since he flew out to see her...it was the best day of her life. He had poked fun at her and fought her like old times just like she asked him too.

If his blows were softer than they use to be and his eyes followed her everywhere she went. She didn't mention it and the fact that he suddenly became a clinger was not lost on her but Temika was the same way. She loved them both dearly (Axel just a little more) and they held her secret. So when people asked why they were so close they would all shrug and laugh but look at one another with affection and understanding. Family through thick and thin. They were each others ride and die since the day they became friends at the age of two and half.