Day 6 "Some tea"

Took me awhile....to update. And by awhile, it's been hours since last update.

Some things happened.

Our puppy went to heaven and my coping mechanism isn't the best but at least it's something.

Couldn't decide what to title this chapter and just went with tea.

So, decided to watch some videos. And maybe played some games to not overthink things. Based from experience it'll get better over time...we just don't dwell on it so much....well, we try.

Thinking of keef right now.

About how he's afraid that once people get close to him, he'll lose them some way, one way or another. And that's sad. Very. Sad. Our keef deserves a hug. Tons of hugs.

Anyway, that part. Is sort of relatable.

And it sucks.

Because obviously you want people in your life and you do make the effort but you can't help but...

Yeah I'm being rushed to go to sleep. After a fucking roller coaster of emotio—calm.

Okay so this is why the word 'tea' is there for the chapter title.

People have different coping mechanisms and mine is sort of me distracting myself with my phone and just try to relax and not overthink things for the umpteenth time.

And we get it. We need rest and all.

Okay forgot what to say.

Right.

Obviously we need rest.

Just currently trying to calm down since we've been nagged and it's not. helping.

Sigh.

Like we're fucking upset from the shit we went—

And the nagging isn't helping.

Why don't you say that instead?

You think I didn't Try?

Sorry. Next chapter maybe it'll be longer.

Just.

There's a lot of emotions.

And the whole "It's for your own good" thing isn't helping right now when we're trying to calm the fuck down.

Calm.

Okay.

We've been pretending not to hear what we hear through this walls.

Okay chill.

Chill.

And relax.

It's just this whole "it's for your own good" could've gone way better. Waaaayyyyy better.

Maybe asking like "Why can't you sleep?" in a not accusing tone kind of way. Please. I'm sick of hearing that tone...inhale.....exhale.....

Don't overthink.

Overthinking can lead to dark places hoho.

So, what now?

Calming ourselves. Sort of almost there.

Obviously the goal is to sleep while not holding a fucking grudg—woah. Chill.

Chillax. And not overthink.

Let's just.....

We know she's gonna tell people about it ugh.....

Then add some parts that never happened.....a thing or two there.....

Anyway, let's just try to cheer up....and feel better.

Cause why the fuck not, right?

Was relaxed now we're pissed.

And starting to get anxious fuck.

What a nice night to get nagged.

Well, until next chapter!

Bye~