Chapter 70: Bad thoughts

I felt completely out of it but I smacked my face as we walked towards Scarlet's little house. Fuck I need to get my head out of the gutter. Luke started laughing like a maniac at what he has done to me. I just can't believe him at times. Men. I love this man. But goddamn I want to be able to control my horniness not have it sky rocket to another level. We were nearing the house and there standing against the door slightly talking loud. Not loud enough for me to hear but enough for every wolf in the pack to hear him talk.

I felt completely confused. Why is he doing here? Why is he being like this? Why is he even close to Scarlet's home? Knowing how everything went down does he really think Scarlet would want to speak to him. Or even see him. I sighed out. I glanced at Luke who had his hand on his face as I knew very well he must be a bit embarrassed with how Jey is looking and acting. Sometimes the men of the other world act so different from how human males act. I know human males betray and lie and a lot of them do that but in the end. They still love. But males from this realm or this side of the real life are kind of weird.

They are trying so hard to be the perfect male for their counterpart. You can see it in Jey's actions. He is trying so hard to protect her and be the perfect male but in the end it only broke her more to the gender. Luke is the same. He did so much that look how things are ending. I sighed out and I just looked at Luke.

"Can you pry him off of the door?" I asked him as I pointed towards Jey

"Gladly..." Luke says as he walks towards Jey

Jey looks at Luke with big eyes and it only made Luke huff a bit. He picked Jey as if he was nothing and just walked away from the door. I sighed out and walked towards Scarlet's door. I needed some time with her. Maybe even feed the squirrels at the park. Today is a beautiful day I haven't seen much rain in this area. It is between cloudy and sunny. I tried opening the door almost forgetting to knock the door. I sighed out.

I stood there for a few seconds and I looked behind me. There speaking was Luke. While Jey was looking at a distance. Pouting like a child. I sighed out and so I just turned to the door and I just wanted to go feed the squirrels with Scarlet. Her by my side while we feed this small furry animals sounds like so much fun.

I slowly knocked the door as I spoke gently "Scarlet... Are you ok?"

"Is-Is... Is that you Kira?" I hear Scarlet's voice behind the door

"Of course it is you idiot... Now come out... Let's go to the plaza" I tell her as she slowly opens the door

"N-..."

I groaned out as I pushed the door open to reveal her messy hair "No buts... Come..."

She looks at me and I noticed how tired she is seems like she hasn't slept in days "I... I don't want to go out..."

I walked into her home and I closed the door with my leg as I crossed my arms while saying "You can't stay cooped up in this house forever..."

"B-But... H-He's out there?" she stutters a bit

I slammed my hands against her back as I say "That idiot is completely useless at times... Luke will be with us he'll keep him in line"

"But isn't Luke inhuman as well?" she asked in a panic

"Well... Yeah... But he wo.."

She grabs me by the shoulders and almost yells in my face "How can you stay by his side? His a monster!"

I stared at her with wide eyes as I whispered "Scarlet..."

Is this a normal reaction to Luke tried to explain to me last time? Is this really how others react to this world? I expected Scarlet to act stronger than that. After the waterfall I thought she would be more calmer. I know it may not be something easily to overcome. But maybe Amelia and Oliver's forms barging in when she needed time to think. It may have not been something good for her. Maybe she has been having nightmares from what has happened. I sighed out and just wanted to keep a distance from everything.

I just stared at her as she was pacing back and forth ranting about something. I just didn't understand it all but she did not look happy or nerves. All I could see is fear in her eyes and I just wanted everything to go back to normal. Would it be better if she got her memory erased? Will it be better for her? Would she be safe? Will everything be ok? Will it all return to normal? Will she be the same person? Is it even a good idea for her to return to normal? I sighed out.

So many questions but I just can't do anything I can't answer them all. She looks at me expectantly as she wanted me to tell her something. Tell her something I have nothing to speak of. I don't have answers to the random angry questions she keeps blurting out. I can't tell her she is crazy. I can't tell her this is all a dream. Or a drug or anything revolving mental problems. I can't tell her a lie. This is all real. Everything. The werewolves. The vampires. Transformation. Magic even. I can't lie to her.

She needs to know this world is true but I just can't let her keep doing what she is doing. She might just hurt herself and or do something stupid. I sighed out and just let my arms fall to my side. I just didn't know what to do. I just can't understand any of this either but I am more calmer than how she seems.

"Girl... Everything will be ok but you need to calm down... Take things gently" I try to tell her gently

She looks at me angrily this time "How can you talk like that?"

"Girl... I've been here for more than six months..." I told her gently as I looked at her eyes

"And you've known all this time..." she looks at me with weird saddened eyes

"Of course... I did almost find out the same way you did... Them revealing by accident" I tell her while shrugging

"Why didn't you tell me?" she asked me as she takes a step back

I looked away staring straight to the forest as I say "I didn't want to judge a book by it's characters"

Silence. It is all it felt. Pure and heavy silence. It is suffocating in it's own way. I just did not understand any of this. I just wanted this to be over. The door slightly opened with Luke peeking his face through the cracked door. He looked worried Scarlet on the other hand looked completely weary about him. I could see Jey behind him trying to peek in as well. Scarlet is a person that needs time to learn and take things in. Maybe it is a good idea for a memory wipe. If she does well when we are out then I won't do anything stupid. I do not want to betray her and or make her forget.

But if it's a better choice so she can be happy and herself again. I would risk all the pain and consequences. I know how life will give you choices and each choice has a consequence. No matter if it's a good choice or a bad choice. Life is cruel like that. I sighed out and turn to Luke as he just had his head slightly pocked. This dummy at times will drive me crazy. Scarlet is a scaredy cat right now. Jey is an obsessed puppy trying to get love and attention.

Luke is trying to be a guardian to me but wants me to experience life in his pack. But seeing how the hunters are ruining his dreams of me getting to know about this world it has been very difficult for anyone to be able to have some fun or any kind of tranquility that can last more than a year. I know life can bring obstacles to challenge your mental health and decisions but this type of obstacles almost got a few killed. Innocent people. People and beings who deserve nothing more than to control their own life and choices. Those who want to have peace and tranquility. Have fun. Argue like normal. Arguments are part of life. Death can be part of life if it revolves around sickness and age.

Elderly people die everyday because of declining of health while others die of cancer or something more dangerous when it revolves around sickness. That is part of life. But murder is not. Rape is not. Life is to be cherished not abused and destroyed. Right now I was even thinking about seeing if I can find a way for Scarlet's memory to be erased for the better of her health and safety.

I sighed out as I looked to Luke once again "Love... Can you get the car ready? I want to go to the park and feed the squirrels... Do we have mixed nuts?"

"I'll get everything ready love... You galls talk for a bit more" Luke says with glee in his tone

Scarlet looks at him confused as she did not understand anything so I tell her gently "Come girl... Get ready..."

"B-B... What about me?" Jey had spoken gently

I looked at him as I answered gently "Help Luke for missing items... Make sure he doesn't over do it as well... We don't want to get the squirrels fat"

He looks at Scarlet "What she said..."

Jey's eyes lit up at her response and he just ran off so I looked at her and say "You have him wrapped around your finger tip"

Her face turns red as she tried moving her fluffy entangled hair to the side "M-M-Maybe..."

I walked to her and say "Now while the men get everything let's get you ready"

She looks at me confused but showing her pieces of her tangled hair got her even more flustered so we walked to her bathroom. She kept her eyes looking down as she felt completely confused still but seeing as she is more calm with me around I will be able to help her more.

I just hope I don't have more bad thoughts.