Chapter Hundred and Twenty two
I smiled. "You should learn how to keep things safe then". I winked at him. " Guess, you have to show me" he moved his hand back and pulled out the gun at the back of his jeans. "Says the lady who dropped it in the ground" I pretended to gasp and threw my palm over my mouth "I think we both lose" he laughed and pushed the gun back at its previous position. "When I'm I getting out of here? I asked getting over the playing mood. " As long as it takes" I looked up at John. "I don't think I'll be sty here as long as you wanted, I have a lot of things to plan and I'm not going to just lie here and do nothing.
" You have to get well first then... "I'm not staying here, John... Immediately I felt the headache return and all I had to do was take a deep breath before I continued. " I can't stay here, I gave to be there at my daughter's birthday, I can't just excuse myself from such an important day in getting life just because she's sick, I need to be there for her," I said calmly but very determined, I wouldn't spend my daughters, birthday in a hospital since I would be leaving and this was probably the last time I would celebrate it with her in a while. "I have to be there"
"Becca, I looked up to see Emily at the door with her baby in her arms and aunt by her side. " I think we have to go now" John bend down and kissed my forehead. "Get well soon" he whispered before leaving with Scott who gave me a slight nod, I never wish to book this weak in front of them all. "How are you doing? Aunt came over and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheeks. " You look so skinny, have you been eating lately? "Aunt, I'm originally perfectly fine, you don't have to worry about me". " Of course, I have to, you've been starving that's why" "I've been eating very much"
"Mum lets her get well first, then you can stuff her up with food, for now, let her rest first" Aunt sniffed in tears and sat beside me. "How are you doing? Emily asked coming to stand by my side. " Yeah, I'm fine now, I don't know why aunt is worrying that much, It going to be fine" I said and turned to meet my aunt stare "I'm going to be fine, theirs no need to worry, all I want is to get out from here" I muttered laying down on the bed, I couldn't tell when I dozed off. I opened my eyes later to the quiet room, no one was around and I was quit happy about that because it face me few moment of privacy and time to think.
I have to be home before weekend and won't I won't endure staying here without going to spend my time with my daughter, she was the only one I think of, she gave me a reason to wake and smile knowing that I'll soon get my daughter back from that monster. I soon up and walked over to the window and watch the dark street. "I just have to overcome this trauma and if that happens I will be fine". " You're always worried" I turned to see Emily surfing on the arm chair beside the bed.
"When dud you come in? I asked walking over to the bed. " When you were worrying yourself to death" She answered smoothing the bed with her palm. "Becca, she called raising her eyes to meet my gaze. " I know you're going to miss Sunbt so badly but you can't stay here, you won't survive the pressure and pain, you need to go out to start a new and fresh start stating here only reminds you of the pain you pass through and as I promise I'll always check on Sunnt for you when tou're away till you're back I want to see you move on with you life, I can't bear see in my sister thys hurt and in much pain without helping her".
I looked at Emily not knowing what really to say, I reached out and took her palm in mine. "You're doing more than you could ever realize and you don't have to do more I'm okay and thank you" I smiled at her ignoring the piercing pain in my head and without saying any more words I lay on my bed and dozed off, I think the nurse were doing a good work on injecting me with sleeping medicine. I just feel so light headed and empty, it was as if my brain was wiped out if all memories I can't seem to gab in think about anything.
It took away a lot of my pain and stress and I love it that way without trying to think about something that would just me, it felt so blissful and peaceful. I saw myself with a newborn baby in my arms, so happy with tears of not running down my cheeks, then the baby turn to one years old Sunny, the day she walked fit the first-time the happiness and not I felt and now the playing Sunny, when I hugged and kissed her. Her laughter the way it ranged out so high and joyful in my head. Then there was Andrew, his smile, the way he made sweet love to me and the way I had begged and carved for more of him.
His laughter and now my memories played them together, Andrew and Sunny together building a castle with Sunny toy blocks. This was the family I wanted, tge happy family I had cared for but now. I saw the drifting away, No, no, I have to do something but what...
I saw my daughter taken away from me, no... I tried as much to reach out to her but she was already gone and then Andrew I watched as the image disappear completely and now I couldn't care or feel any pain, I couldn't do anything but watch. I turned away from them all and jolted up from my sleep. It was painful and painless dream, I looked around and found Emily by my side. "It okay, it just a dream" I nodded and tried to make my racing heart and leaned my back to the wall. I didn't feel any more pain or push my brain to worry it was as if everything was slipping away.
"Good news Becca, Emily finally said to call out " You'll be leaving today and have as much time to prepare your daughters birthday which tomorrow, you have nothing to worry about now, you see" Emily said working toward me to hold me. "I would help you in arranging ca lot if things". "You don't need to, you just have to take care of your child". " My mum is doing a great job in babysitting him I'm all yours now" She hugged me on the bed.
"Are you sure, you'll be okay with it, I said moving the blanket away from my body. " Sure and I'm going to be there to help you out so you won't fall off again". I nodded and looked around the room to make sure I won't forget anything when I'll be leaving. "Your boss came to see you" Emily said mixing to the arm chair. "When? I asked standing off from the bed and raking a clean outfit she had placed on chair to changed over. " He came over in the morning" I raised my eyebrows at him. "Morning? Emily nodded and stare into her phone. " I thought it was still early morning I walked over and pulled the cotton open.
"You slept all through the morning". " And you didn't bother waking me up? "Why would I" she shrugged and went back to staring at he phone. I really need to get out from this hospital, it just brought memories I wanted so much.
Emily drove me back home in my car, I kept silent all along the drive home while Emily filled me in on different things, I just sat and watch her speak all I would think I was seeing my daughter the next day, I just wanted to make her happy that's was all to see that smile on her face. "Becca, are you listening? I turned to see that the car don't was now wide open. " we're back and you need to climb out from the car" I nodded and climbed down. "You drive so fast". " Not that fast, you were lost in thought as usual, you can't keep up with this" she says stepping to the side to watch me.
"I'm totally fine, You don't have to worry about me". " That's what you always say but I know your not okay and I just want you to be that's why I'm in support dir you to go out from this city that's the inky at for you" She walked toward the youse as she speaks. That's always the Emily that I know, making her commands and talking quit a lot but that's why she's Emily, I smiled and followed her into the house. It was already filled with dust just this past two days. "I'm going to clean up against tomorrow because this would be the first day I'm bringing her back to the hose after a long time," I said smiling at the memory of bringing my daughter back, I wasn't going to stick with the outing method again this time I was going to bring her home.
The memories of having her over excites me the more. "You don't have I do any of that now, you should just go upstairs and rest while I take care of it". " But, you need a helping hand". "When I need one I'm going to let you know for now, you need to freshen up and rest and also take your medication. " Okay, I'll do just that and come down stairs, I want to help I told her before walking upstairs to take my bath and freshen up when I was done, I took my medication and the only thing I remember was sleeping off on the bed.
What was this again, I had the same dream, painful and at the same time painless, I couldn't explain why the medicine was this strong but it help take all the pain away, making me not to worry about anything, just to sleep long enough to calm my aching brain. I woke up this time and which that I was in Andrew arms but why did it keep reminding me of the past that I wanted do badly to forget, it was making it painless for me but it wasn't working I still felt ache when the past was revealed. Can I ever be happy again, can I ever be happy without my daughter by my side or there when I needed her so much.
I sat up from the bed this time determine not to let my mind wonder in the past, I know I had slept long but I didn't expect it to wake at the middle of the night. Where was Emily as she gone it did she sleep over, I remembered saying that I would help her clean the house. I stood and walked over to where the medicine was on the top of the drawer, it make it painless and at the same time painful pulling me back to the memories I didn't want again. I stare at it ifr a while before picking it and disposing at the waste bin, I was better off without medicine. I wanted to forget not to remember, I sigh and went downstairs...
So sad and painfulI I wonder if her life would change If she travels😔😔