"Trash," I muttered, drenched in water.
"Trash! Trash! TRASH!!" I yelled and kneeled in the dirt, my gaze focused on my palm, where a single leaf rested innocently.
The rain was neither heavy nor light, but it was loud nonetheless. I didn't care about it, however, my eyes only saw the leaf as I tilted my hand and it fell to the ground slowly.
I chuckled, "Nothing works... 3 years in the academy, countless hours of training, and yet I can't even feel my chakra, pathetic..." I said and collapsed on the wet ground, looking at the gloomy sky above.
Talentless didn't even begin to describe it, my body had a severe case of chakra imbalance as the other shinobi called it. My Yin chakra was too much, not in balance with my Yang chakra thus it made me a cripple of sorts.
I knew where the problem was too, I had the soul of a grown adult, but the body of a 9-year-old, how could there be no imbalance? Reincarnation with memories was not kind to me in this regard.
I was too naive when I was 5 and decided to become a ninja and research the wonderful things in this world. 4 years later, I was not a step closer.
My Taijutsu and Shuriken were passable and I was the top student in regards to anything that necessitated study, if not for those, I would have been kicked out of the academy long ago.
'At this rate, I might die soon...' I thought.
The 3rd shinobi war that had begun years ago had gotten very fierce recently, It was close to its climax. And since there was not enough manpower on the front line, they might just forcefully graduate us and then deploy to the front. Many others talked about it, and I was worried.
I would die without a doubt if I was deployed. I could not use ninjutsu, did not have any cheat like the 8 gates to become a Taijutsu god, nor some amazing bloodline.
I was just below average. My body could do some amazing things, things that made me a superhuman back on Earth, but in this world it was nothing.
My strongest trump card after all this time was my dexterity and agility, due to training a lot, I had a very fast reaction speed, great balance, and overall high physical speed. Nothing that a simple chunin couldn't instantly crush, however.
I was a genin, through and through.
'How come people in stories get cheat-like powers and abilities, but I get nothing? Why is everything so hard? Reality is truly harsh...' I thought bitterly.
Sighing in frustration, I stood up as the rain slowly stopped, "I am dead." I concluded for the 596th time and headed to the crappy one-bedroom apartment I was given as an orphan student.
It had become a habit to come to this clearing to think for a few minutes every day, trying to find a way, but there was none. So I always concluded the same thing. Depression and despair were familiar feelings I had gotten used to, especially since I knew what was to come in the future of this world; The war didn't help either.
Sometimes I was tempted to write everything I remembered about this world from Earth and just write in an anonymous letter to the Hokage, but I was not foolish enough to do that. Who knew if he got greedy for the power of the 6th path or decided to use it to make Konoha crush the other villages. Or worse, world domination. I didn't even want to think about Danzo getting his hand on such things.
If one thing could be trusted and treated as an absolute, it was human greed. You could always count on it.
Despite everything, life wasn't that bad, and I was not going to give up so soon. A man of science was not so easily defeated.
I took a bath changed my clothes and headed straight for the library. It was my second home. I had read through all the books about chakra to find a solution, I had yet to find one, but there had to be.
No problem is unsolvable.
The library accessible to academy students was big, containing a lot of books, unfortunately, there were no jutsu or secret techniques, just information. I found things ranging from history to stuff pertaining to other villages, descriptions of bloodlines and chakra beasts, medical knowledge, survival tactics, battle strategies, and many more.
My focus had been on Chakra, so I had studied many theory books on that the most, with no real improvement.
At least I understood Chakra more than any other genin.
I nodded at the receptionist, who was used to seeing me there, she simply acknowledged me as I passed by her.
Chakra was a form of energy that was created by the merging of mental power and physical life force. Mental power was the amount of force the mind could generate, it was directly related to willpower, experience, wisdom, and other mental things. Mental power was Yin Chakra.
Life force on the other hand was weird, no book knew what it exactly was, they just contributed it to life. Why did the heart begin beating for the 1st time when a baby took form in the womb? Life force. Why did the complex body structure grow and adapt? Life force. Why did wounds heal? Life force. Why did people age? Life force.
I naturally knew the medical science behind it, so I knew these theories were wrong. But there was some truth to it as well. I decided to call life force the energy produced by the act of living. Its power depending on the cells, DNA, physical state, strength, the heart, what one ate, etc. Known as Yang Chakra.
At least that was my understanding.
What was accurate in the books were the Chakra coils in the body, I had memorized it all. The pathways, and everything else. 'If I ever learned the Hyuga gentle fist, I would be decent at it.' I thought and shook my head with a smile as I looked at the books on the shelf.
"Let's try something random, there is no more Chakra stuff to read," I whispered to myself and began walking beside the shelf.
"I have read most of the books that relate to useful things, only history remains I think..." I muttered and took a book randomly.
Sitting down without much care, I opened the book and began reading.
I froze when I saw the 1st page.
'Seals?! How stupid have I been?! Why didn't I even think of it!' I quickly focused on the book.
'Fuinjutsu was the most broken power in Naruto! How could I have almost forgotten! I am sure there is a way it can help me.' I wanted to hit my head on a wall.
Instead of wasting my time on the general path of becoming a shinobi like the countless stories I had read, I should have found another way since my chakra was problematic. Not all problems could be fixed with hard training and traditional ways.
'Work smarter, not harder!' I berated myself.
I had found my way.