Mystery of love

It had already been two years since Jun saw Chris in Vietnam, two years in which they were

unknowingly lovers.

Chris frequently visited South Korea and visited Jun, on those occasions the passion was

never lacking and the erotic nights were present, but once the remorse dawned, it touched deep in

the hearts of each boy.

Jun and Chris were crying separately, suffering the mystery of unhealthy love.

Jun still remembers when he promised himself never to cry for Chris in Hanói, now it just

seems like an empty pain that he suffered with now, that of being the other lover.

Mentally telling

himself that Chris didn't love that blonde girl, didn't make his heart feel less hurting, because even

though it was true, Chris always came back to her and he was left behind with pain throughout his

being.

So, What use is this mysterious love? Will Jun always have to be a miserable lover? If you

look at this handsome men from the outside, you wouldn't think that every night he spends with

Chris, he gives himself up with devotion and becomes weak before that man.

He feels like one of Zeus's lovers, he feels that tragedy always accompanies him, because he has

already suffered the loneliness of loving and being loved, so if love is so sweet, Why does his have

to be sour? Doesn't he deserve to be loved fairly? Will it always be a secret?

Sitting in front of the bed that he has shared countless nights with Chris, he watches the other man

sleep while he suffers.

Is the mystery of love always so painful?

Both men are so broken and bruised that the only way to stay sane is when their mouths are

together and there is caressing, dangerous because there is so much at stake and so little chance of

winning.

So will Zeus's lover always be a lover? The answer is obvious but painful, because Zeus already

has a home, although false and brittle, this is a home. Jun is a lodge he turn to when home

drowns his out, and this lodge could be a home, but it's just an imaginary possibility that will never

happen.

It was a rainy day, so Jun stepped out onto his balcony and let the rainwater wash off a dirty

body, full of sweat and bodily substances; when he felt the water run through his body, he closed

his eyes and cried.

He thought of all the chances of being happy and noted that there were none, and if there were,

they would be very far from being with Chris.

So he thought of all the wasted kisses in the mystery of love, the moon was a witness to how much

they were needed and how much love there was, but the moon was also a witness to the pregnant

woman who was waiting for her husband at home.

Chris would have his family, so he didn't fit into that plan and he knew that at some point he had to cut this, it wasn't fair that Chris always had two empty beds waiting for him.

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Already at the airport, Chris and Jun were saying goodbye, suspending the mystery of love

and returning to the routine, Christopher's hand gently touched Jun's cheek when he saw his

watery eyes, his fingers traced lines on each other's cheeks and he kiss him, secretly.

Jun was especially sad at this farewell because he knew it was the final one, he knew that

Chris wouldn't return to South Korea for a few years and he knew that at that time he was already

supposed to have his marriage to his fiancée, so he knew that this was the last time the mystery of

love would touch him.

With a gentle touch, he bare Chris soul and discovered that the mystery of love was nothing more

than hidden feelings, so he decided to save this for later.

He kissed Christopher's lips briefly and left.

The mystery of love was discovered in the pain of loss.