Hi, you know, you must learn how to love yourself.

Ayla is 16 years old, lives in a small town in Australia, has everything a perfect life can offer: friends, family and fun. But her world falls apart when she receives the news that she will need to separate from her friends and live on the other side of the world. Not that her friends were the best people, but with them she felt important and special, and she didn't want to lose the feeling of being on top. It was difficult to adapt to the new country, with new people and a new culture.
Benjamin is a shy and cheerful boy, the personality that Ayla hates in a person.
She can't stand it but together they will discover the true meaning of the word "love".



Everything has been nice and quiet lately, I've been working and going home to the mansion, something I'm getting used to. I've been being followed lately by the paparazzi, I learned to ignore them. They fire questions at me and I don't respond, when I'm out with Gerald he tells them to back off and give me space. I'm pregnant and they are trying to get in my face, they are lucky I don't punch them out. We started painting the nursery yesterday, Fallon and I have been busy with decorating again, today we needed to finish hanging stuff and painting the finishing touches on the room. I headed into the nursery and stepped on the ladder with the paint brush, I dipped it into the paint and carefully traced it onto the wall, I smile as I pull it away, not noticing James and Gerald in the doorway watching me, Fallon went to grab us a bottle of water. It takes me a few moments to realize they are there, when I do, Gerald and I lock eyes, 

"Hey guys." 

"Hey Jilly!" James says, letting Fallon into the room. 

"Hey baby." Gerald says smiling. 

"How long have you been standing there?" I ask going back to painting. 

"A few minutes, you seemed very busy," Gerald says. 

"I am, making our little peanuts room look perfect!" I say smiling. 

"Well you ladies keep at it, we're going to order food, we'll come get you when it's here," Gerald says. 

"Okay babe!" I say and go back to painting again. 

Fallon puts the iPod on, 

"You, you love it how I move you 

You love it how I touch you 

My one, when all is said and done 

You'll believe God is a woman 

And I, I feel it after midnight 

A feelin' that you can't fight 

My one, it lingers when we're done 

You'll believe God is a woman 

I don't wanna waste no time, yuh 

You ain't got a one-track mind, yuh 

Have it any way you like, yuh 

And I can tell that you know I know how I want it 

Ain't nobody else can relate 

Boy, I like that you ain't afraid 

Baby, lay me down and let's pray 

I'm tellin' you the way I like it, how I want it 

And I can be all the things you told me not to be 

(Yuh) 

When you try to come for me, I keep on flourishing 

(Yuh) 

And he see the universe when I'm the company 

It's all in me 

You, you love it how I move you 

You love it how I touch you 

My one, when all is said and done 

You'll believe God is a woman 

And I, I feel it after midnight 

A feelin' that you can't fight 

My one, it lingers when we're done 

You'll believe God is a woman 

I'll tell you all the things you should know 

So, baby, take my hand, save your soul 

We can make it last, take it slow, hmm 

And I can tell that you know I know how I want it, yuh 

But you different from the rest 

And boy, if you confess, you might get blessed 

See if you deserve what comes next 

I'm tellin' you the way I like it, how I want it 

And I can be all the things you told me not to be 

(Yuh) 

When you try to come for me, I keep on flourishing 

(Yuh) 

And he see the universe when I'm the company 

It's all in me 

You, you love it how I move you 

You love it how I touch you 

My one, when all is said and done 

You'll believe God is a woman 

And I, I feel it after midnight 

A feelin' that you can't fight 

My one, it lingers when we're done 

You'll believe God is a woman, yeah, yeah 

Yeah, yeah 

(God is a woman, yeah) 

My one 

(One) 

When all is said and done 

You'll believe God is a woman 

You'll believe God 

(God is a woman) 

Oh, yeah 

(God is a woman, yeah) 

(One) 

It lingers when we're done 

You'll believe God is a woman." 

The next song comes on, 

 
 

 
 

Then , 

 
 

 
 

Then it was, 

"My momma use to say 

"Baby make me proud 

You've got such a pretty face 

But such a dirty mouth" 

But how come when I tell you 

What's on my mind like men do 

I'm called crazy? 

Crazy 

This is not a love song 

This is not a sing along 

But ladies, are you with me? 

I know that you're with me 

Add a little sugar, they say 

Be a little sweeter, they say 

Gotta give and take, but I say 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

Be a little proper, they say 

Speak a little softer, they say 

Gotta be a lady, but I say 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

(My way, my way, my way) 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

(My way, my way, my way) 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

I'll do me 

You do you 

I don't need nobody's permission 

I won't back down 

Win or lose 

Oh yeah, one and only limited edition (yeah) 

This is not a love song 

This is not a sing along 

But ladies, are you with me? 

I know that you're with me 

Add a little sugar, they say 

Be a little sweeter, they say 

Gotta give and take, but I say 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

Be a little proper, they say 

Speak a little softer, they say 

Gotta be a lady, but I say 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

This time it's my way, ah, my way 

This time it's my way, ah, my way." 

"For all the times that you rain on my parade 

And all the clubs you get in using my name 

You think you broke my heart, oh girl for goodness sake 

You think I'm crying, on my own well I ain't 

And I didn't wanna write a song 'cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care 

I don't but, you still hit my phone up 

And baby I be movin' on and I think you should be somethin' 

I don't wanna hold back, maybe you should know that 

My mama don't like you and she likes everyone 

And I never like to admit that I was wrong 

And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on 

And now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own 

'Cause if you like the way you look that much 

Oh baby you should go and love yourself 

And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin' 

You should go and love yourself 

But when you told me that you hated my friends 

The only problem was with you and not them 

And every time you told me my opinion was wrong 

And tried to make me forget where I came from 

And I didn't wanna write a song cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care 

I don't but, you still hit my phone up 

And baby I be movin' on and I think you should be somethin' 

I don't wanna hold back, maybe you should know that 

My mama don't like you and she likes everyone 

And I never like to admit that I was wrong 

And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on 

And now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own 

'Cause if you like the way you look that much 

Oh baby you should go and love yourself 

And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin' 

You should go and love yourself 

For all the times you made me feel small 

I fell in love, now I feel nothin' at all 

I never felt so low when I was vulnerable 

Was I a fool to let you break down my walls? 

'Cause if you like the way you look that much 

Oh baby you should go and love yourself 

And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin' 

You should go and love yourself 

'Cause if you like the way you look that much 

Oh baby you should go and love yourself 

And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin' 

You should go and love yourself." 

As I finished singing and was about to dip the brush into the paint Gerald enters the room, 

"Dinners here ladies." 

I smile and put the brush down, Fallon does too and we head downstairs to eat. We eat and watch some Z Nation, after that we go back to finishing the nursery up. After we were done things looked amazing. I was 24 weeks along and it was flying by like a plane in the sky. I was getting more nervous as the days go on.

Jillian Fox is a 26 year old, single and finds a roommate online to rent a house with, when she meets Gerald Gillum she finds him attractive but she isn't looking for a relationship with anyone, the f 
"I'm at work Daryl."

"I know, I just wanted to check on you! Harry said you're covered in bruises!" My brother says through the phone.

I sigh, "I got into it with a junkie in the ER that attacked me last night and I fell at home, I'm fine, the new house just needs some getting used to I'll be fine, I have a roommate I'm not alone," I say into my phone as I walk into the ER.

"Okay sis! Call if you need me! Don't be a stranger!" He says, "I love you!"

"I love you too and I will Dar!" I say smiling.

"Bye sis," he says.

"Bye bro," I say as I hang up and put my phone into my pocket and pull my pager out, turning it on.

I go grab my tablet for my patients, I clock in at the desk, then login into my tablet and access my patient files for the night, I head for Trauma Bay 1 to check vitals on a patient waiting for Ortho,

"Hello I'm Jill your nurse, I'm just here to check your vitals before Ortho gets here to check out that leg," I say sweetly smiling at the girl in front Of me.

"It hurts so much!" She cries out, I check out her leg and it's bruised badly.

"I understand, Ortho is on their way," I say trying to reassure her as I begin to check her vitals then type them into my tablet.

As I go to leave she grabs my arm, causing me to make a face since it was on the bad bruise that was covered with my long sleeve, I push it away as I ask,

"What's wrong Alex?" 

"I'm scared! My parents are going to kill me!" She cries out, then begins to cry.

I sit on the chair near her bed, "I'm sure they will only care that you're alive, can you tell me how this happened?"

"I was goofing off with my friends doing flips and I screwed one up and ended up on the ground, landing wrong on my leg, and hence why it's probably broken, it hurts so badly," She cries more.

I hit the page butt

"Will Mommy allow me to do the IVF process? Based on how much Mommy hates and dislikes me, I'm sure you will be furious and insult me ​​even harder. Never mind doing IVF, I'm sure when you hear me say that, you will immediately ask. Brian to divorce me. "
Rena was silent unable to say a word, and Elise continued her words.
"In your eyes whatever I do is always wrong. Even if I have done right, you will still blame me. So, how can I not give up and think of such crazy ideas." After saying that the knot that always tied Elise's heart slowly opened. The boulder that was always pressing on her finally disappeared. She has conveyed all of her heart. Even if she could, Elise wanted to scream in front of Rena at this time. But she had to endure it so that their serious conversation would run smoothly.
Rena was silent and thought back to her attitude towards Elise. Yes, she was too much and always said sharp words and sarcasm to Elise. Everything Elise does and says always hurt her eyes and make Rena always angry and say harsh words.
"Yes, I was wrong and shouldn't treat you like that. But Elise, have you ever clearly thought about your feelings for Brian? You believe it's love and not dependence. Because someone who loves sincerely won't be willing to see the man, she loves having a relationship with a woman. other, whatever the reason. Even if I was in your position, I would rather bow down and ask my mother-in-law's approval than encourage my husband to make love and have children with another woman."
Elise was speechless.
"You just made Brian where you leaned on and held him by your side. You were so afraid that if Brian left you, it would leave you with no place to hang on. That's not Elise's love."
"No, I love Brian." Elise still denies Rena's opinion about her feelings for Brian.
"True love is you are willing to sacrifice everything for his sake and will not be willing to see him with the others. But what you do is very different. You are very selfish. You encourage Brian to be with Elena. And you never thought the seeds of love would grow between them, right? "
"I'm sure you've noticed, that now Brian's heart has turned to another heart. Or maybe Brian never loved you in the first place."
"No Mom. Brian just wavered for a moment. Because Elena has the same face as me. And I'm sure, I can make Brian love me again."
"Until when you will continue to run from the reality of Elise. Brian has fallen in love with Elena. And how could he forget Elena if among them there is Dean as a sign of their love."
"No, Mom. I'm sure ...." Elise's words stopped when Rena's hand held hers tightly again.
"You have to accept the reality of Elise. Brian has fallen in love with Elena. And it all happened because of yourself. You pushed and asked Brian to do all that. So, you have to accept all the consequences yourself, that Brian doesn't love you anymore. "
"With all that happened, are you still going to force yourself to hang on and tie Brian to your side? Do you still want to make everything suffer for your own selfishness? Brian doesn't love you anymore, and Dean needs his biological mother's love. And you will get hurt, if you keep pushing yourself to defend your household. Nobody will be happy, Elise. You will be hurt and sad, every time you realize that Brian doesn't love you anymore. Or you want Brian to look at you as Elena not yourself. I think it hurts a lot more compared to separating from Brian. How could you possibly want to be Elena's shadow in Brian's eyes? So Elise, the only way is for you guys to get divorced. Not just for Brian and Dean, but for yourself as well. "
Elise fell silent. Previously she had kept on suggesting to herself that Brian was just a little complacent about Elena's presence. And Elise believes she can make Brian love her like before. But Rena's words seemed to provide a very painful slap for Elise. The fact is Brian doesn't love her anymore. And his heart is already filled with Elena. And what Rena said is true. How could Brian forget Elena, if there was Dean among them. Brian would remember Elena over and over every time he saw Dean. And the thing that really hurts and cuts Elise's heart is Rena's sentence that says that maybe Brian sees Elise as Elena. Making Elise as Brian's outlet for his longing for Elena.
Thinking about it made Elise wonder, could it be that when she kissed Brian earlier, that man was imagining Elena, not her. Elise's heart was tightly squeezed.
"Elise, I beg for the sake of your happiness, divorce Brian. As you know, Brian didn't want to divorce you first because he kept his promise to you. But things are different if you ask for a divorce first." Seeing Elise who was just silent, neither angry nor against her advice made Rena speak again.
"Elise, you have to give up Brian for your own happiness."
"For the sake of my happiness? Brian is the only happiness I have Mommy. If I let go, how can I be happy?"
"You can seek your new happiness. No, I can give you happiness."
"Mommy mean?"
"Elise, Brian will not leave you even though you are divorced. And I will also give you the care and love of a mother. Because I want to raise you to be my adopted daughter."
"Make me an adopted daughter?" Elise asked with a deep frown. She never imagined that she would hear that from Rena's mouth.
"Elise, with what has happened to you in the past, you depend on and can't let go of Brian. You seek love and attention. You also need support and encouragement from other people, so you can move on. And it's not all love. "


"Will you sleep with my husband until you are pregnant and give birth to his child?"

Elena Wasley was reunited with her twin, Elise. She asked Elena to help conceive a child from her husband, Brian Fernandez. Of course, Elena refused because soon she would marry her lover, Diego Orlando.

But all changed because of one unexpected incident. Elena wants to conceive the baby by asking for expensive fees. Make Brian and Elise make a written agreement for an agreement with Elena.

On the other hand, Tiara Jackson, Brian's ex-fiance, still expects the man to be her. She was determined to get rid of Elise and the baby in various ways to get Brian.

What was the reason Elise asked Elena to have Brian's child? Why did Elena agree to the crazy agreement? How would Diego react if he knew everything? What would Tiara do to get rid of Elise and her baby? Can the baby be born into the world safely? How does this end when love shakes things up?





....sorry, if my English is bad. because I'm not very good at translating into English. but I hope you can still enjoy reading this story. thank you....

That was one chilly night...

"You belong to me", He said.

"Yeah, I do belong to you, and this child too", She said.

"Anu, I want you but not this child. Try to understand", He mumbled.

"But why? You love me right? And this baby is the sign of our divine love. So why not?", She let out a sigh.

"You remember? We always dreamt of having babies and we even thought of what would be their names when they are born. What happened Jeet?"

"Because, I can't marry you", He announced.

"What?", 'What did you just say?', She wanted to ask but her words are choked inside. She fell silent. After some time she gathered some courage to ask, 

"Why? Have I done anything wrong?"

"No!", He said.

" Am I not good enough?", She inquired.

"It's not like that!", He replied.

" I am not that pretty?", She asked.

"No!, He exclaimed. You are very pretty. You are thinking too much."

"Then? What is it? Just tell me", She pleaded.


"No.Umm. It's, It's just that", He stuttered. 

"Say it", She has a bad feeling about it. It felt like her whole world is going to destroy in the very next moment.

"It's just that, I think I don't love you anymore", He announced.

The plate in her hands fell on the ground to break into pieces. She felt her heart breaking into millions of pieces. It's like somebody is squeezing her heart and she is drenched in her blood. It's such a suffocating feeling. She struggled to make a sentence but failed.

Silence.

She bent down to gather the broken pieces of glass plate and in her miserable state, she accidentally cut her forefinger. The blood drops started falling on the floor.

"What are you doing? You'll hurt yourself!", He rushed forward but she gestured him to stop.

Just a hand gesture but it broke something inside him. 

She went to the basin and hold her finger under the tap water. Her blood is oozing out of the wound. Then she pressed on the wound to prevent the blood from coming out.

"Say something. Please.", He pleaded.

"Get out", she muttered.

"What?", He whispered.

"I need some time alone. Go away, please", She sobbed. 

He frowned. But said nothing. He took his keys, turned around to take one last look at her, She is still there in her place looking pale as a sheet of paper and the grief all over her face. 

Don't know why but his heart ached at the sight. With heavy heart, he went to the door and as the door slammed shut, she collapsed on the floor. She cried and cried hard.


She cried her heart out. She cried until midnight. 

'I loved him so much. He also loved me. So, where things went wrong? Or the thing is he never really cared? Am I not good enough? I am not that pretty? I am not that smart? I loved him from my core. I only wanted one thing from life- his Love. Am I not worthy? Don't I deserve to be loved? I am loving him for the past 8 years and I am madly in love with him. So what happened to us?', she thought.


She reminisced everything from their first date to the first kiss. From their silly arguments to their loving cuddles. She remembered everything. When they become childhood friends to best friends, when they started liking each other, when he first proposed to her when they were in college and when she said yes. 

She is having a hard time believing that he wanted to end everything. She just can't digest the thing that he doesn't love her anymore.

 'How could that be? I love him with all my heart. I can't let him go. My heart is aching so bad just by the thought of losing him. Doesn't he feel anything about me?', 

Her thoughts started to run wild. 


'Did he love me? Maybe he doesn't love me at all. Maybe I am not that beautiful. Maybe I am not good enough. Or it's just that he wants someone better? What is it? Why this is happening?', She wanted the answers. 


Her mind is a mess. She needed to clear her thoughts. She went upstairs, opened the closet and took out a lovely notebook. That's her diary. The thing that always helped her to clear her vision. That's her best friend - her diary. 

She opened it and started writing everything that came to her mind.


'Dear Anu, Let's be honest with yourself my love. You gave your all to this relationship. You loved him with all your might. Every day you woke up with his thought. Every night when you slept he was always on your mind. You are always daydreaming about him, about your future together. No matter how hard you try to balance things, in the end they all shattered. And now that he is gone it seems he squeezed every drop of blood from your body and now there you are. Your heart is drenched in your blood. No, he didn't do this to you. You did this to yourself. From the very beginning, you always knew he doesn't love you the way you love him. You still chose him over and over again. It's not his fault that he has disrespected you. It's your fault you allowed that to happen. Let's be honest. You always knew that things are not like what they seemed to be. He is not the one who kept hurting you. The worst part is you kept hurting yourself. Let's be an honest girl. In the process of loving him so madly, For Your so-called 'first love', you destroyed yourself. He never destroyed you but you destroyed yourself. He is such a nice guy. He is the one who taught you self-love is important. And here you are. If you are unable to love yourself properly how could you love anybody else? It's not his fault. It's yours. It's not him, it's you. Maybe for being a girl he would like, you became somebody else than yourself. Any guy would always love the girl who is herself, who loves herself, who is independent, who doesn't need anyone's assurance in anything. The free-spirited girl, the girl who lives her life to the fullest. Maybe that's why he doesn't like you anymore. What quality do you have that he will love you forever? No. Nothing. You have nothing, my girl. You are so naive. Be worthy of yourself. Be the best version of yourself. When you become happy with yourself, you won't need anybody. When you will become confident, you don't need anybody's assurance. When you are happy with yourself then you can keep everyone around you happy. So tell me one thing Anu, Are you happy with yourself? And if the answer is 'No', then how could you claim that you can keep Jeet happy? Maybe that's why he left you. You are not happy with yourself that's why you are incapable of keeping him happy either. Jeet is such a nice guy. He always supported you. But maybe he eventually realised that this is not the relationship that he wants. Now, be the girl you would be proud of. Be the best version of yourself. Change yourself. Don't be a crybaby. Now, grab those shattered pieces of your heart and mend them. You don't need anybody else to do that. You and only you can keep yourself safe and happy. I know it's going to be extremely difficult. You loved him so much. Jeet is part of your soul. But, life has to go on. With or without him. You are a fighter, my love. And now there is also someone who needs your care and attention.'

She closed the diary and put her pen down.


 The thought of their baby snatched her back to reality. Her eyes filled with tears. She didn't eat anything for the whole day. And her baby needs her care. She grabbed herself and went to the kitchen.



Mine Forever


"Hey! When we get married, we'll build a house as big as a mansion," She said.

"Of course, I'll build that for you my love", He replied.

"I love you so much", She said.

Anuja Sharma, A simple girl in her twenties who loves to dream. Her wheatish complexion, those dreamy brown eyes and a dazzling smile can attract anyone's attention. 

He held her hand as she rested her head on his shoulder. 

"I love you too", He whispered looking at her endearingly. 

Jeet Chahal, A Cool boy in his twenties who wants to conquer the world. His smooth fair skin, masculine body and perfect facial features can drive any girl crazy.

These two are madly in love with each other. And like any love birds they are happy in their own little world.

Until one day, they wake up to realise their World is flipping upside down.

When we accept Jesus Christ as our Savior, the Bible says we receive supernatural help from the Holy Spirit. Because of that help, we can become more like Jesus, showing nine key characteristics—the fruits of the Spirit—in our daily lives.

1. Love
It's no coincidence that love is the first fruit listed in Galatians chapter 5. Jesus said the greatest commandment is to love God and love one another (Mark 12:30-31). When we love God with all our heart, soul, mind and strength, and love our neighbors as ourselves, we show the world we belong to Jesus.

Until you know God loves you, it will be difficult to love God and love others. Whether you've never heard that God loves you or you just need a reminder, watch this short, powerful video about God's amazing love for you.
Our culture uses the word "love" so casually ("I love your dress!" "I love cheeseburgers!"), it can be hard to identify the kind of love Jesus spoke about in the Bible. What does it look like to love God with all we have? Like any relationship, love means setting aside time. Take time to talk with God and get to know Him through the Bible.
Once we love God, we can love others. But love isn't just something to talk about; Jesus taught us to show our love through actions. Find ways to love people through acts of service. Even a simple phone call can make a difference. Then share God's love with others. Know someone who's hard to love? This Answer from Billy Graham may help.
2. Joy
"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice" (Philippians 4:4). It's easy to rejoice when things are going our way. It's a different story when life is hard. But followers of Jesus are called to have joy all the time—not just when life is good.

One of the keys to being joyful is knowing why we rejoice. We don't rejoice in our money, jobs, vacations or even our relationships. We must rejoice in the Lord. Billy Graham's audio message, The Secret of Joy in Tribulation, addresses how to have joy even in the toughest times.
Billy Graham said, "Only the forward-looking Christian remains sincerely optimistic and joyful, knowing that Christ will win in the end." Is your focus on the problems of this world, or the eternal joy that is to come? If you find yourself focusing on negatives, redirect your thoughts to Jesus and the promise of heaven. Watch the video, Heaven.
If Christ followers are called to be joyful, why are some Christians so grumpy? Billy Graham's Answer.
3. Peace
Like the word "love," "peace" is a word that has become casual and hard to define. But true peace comes from God, and there's nothing like it.

"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world" (John 16:33). Jesus spoke those words thousands of years ago, but they're still meant for us today. Check yourself. Does your peace come from trusting Jesus, or does it come from your circumstances?
It seems more people than ever suffer from anxiety. But you can have peace when you train yourself to focus on God instead of yourself or the world around you. Start with reading and memorizing Philippians 4:6-9, which explains how to replace anxiety with the peace of God.
Jesus said, "Blessed are the peacemakers" (Matthew 5:9). In this Answer, Billy Graham talks about whether world peace is possible. We should pray for peace throughout the world, but we also can't forget about our own backyard. Is there strife within your own family or workplace? Be a peacemaker there.
4. Patience
Living in this fast-paced world can give you a short fuse. Still, impatience isn't something you want to brush off as a minor personality flaw. If you find yourself getting annoyed, worried or intolerant while waiting on people, imagine how much more those negative emotions can escalate while you're waiting on the Lord.

Don't think you have what it takes to be a patient person? All the more reason to submit this tough area to God. See what the Bible says about patience and why you can't develop this trait on your own.
In some translations, the word "long-suffering" is used in place of "peace" in Galatians 5:22. Both patience and long-suffering deal with endurance—a necessary companion for your faith walk. In this Ruth Bell Graham writing, she uses the example of windsurfing to show the importance of patience, endurance and divine guidance.
God exercises more patience than we ever could. No matter how many times you mess up, God won't run out of patience with you. This answer from Billy Graham is a great reminder of God's unfailing love.
5. Kindness
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Philippians 2:3-4 says, "count others more significant than yourselves" and "look to the interests of others." Kindness is about more than being cordial. It's an intentional act that requires effort and genuine concern. These reminders can help you become a kinder person.

Make room to be kind to others. Give compliments. Talk to strangers beyond saying, "Hello." Make extra effort this week to recognize opportunities to demonstrate kindness, and then follow through. Take note of how it impacts you and others.
"People take my kindness for weakness." Sound familiar? There's nothing weak about being kind to others. In fact, it takes a great degree of humility to consistently live this way. Read Billy Graham's devotion on the strength of having compassion for others.
When you totally give your life to Christ, your old ways no longer matter. With the help of God, you can embody the attributes of a kind person. Listen to this 1-minute audio message from Billy Graham that explains the new life you can live.
6. Goodness
To practice goodness, you must first know what God considers "good."

God calls us to have true, right and pure thoughts (Philippians 4:8). Billy Graham once gave this answer on controlling bad thoughts.
God calls us to love everyone, including our enemies. "The Bible declares that we who follow Jesus Christ should be just as much in love with each other as God was in love with us when He sent His Son to die on the cross." —Billy Graham in a sermon on love
God calls us to do the right thing for the right reasons. This battle starts with the heart. Listen to the Hour of Decision Online radio program, "Heart Disease."
7. Faithfulness
Do you have someone to turn to with the most important things in life? Someone who sticks close by through the ups and downs? A loyal friend isn't to be taken for granted. You can be that kind of person, too.

God is faithful. Are you faithful back? He wants us to be good stewards with what He's given us—time, talents, money, relationships. Can He trust you to treat or use these things wisely?
Being faithful to God also means not putting other things above Him. The Bible calls these idols—anything you worship or give "god-like" status to. An idol isn't necessarily a bad thing in and of itself—it could be work, social position, entertainment, looks—but can be a distraction when God doesn't come first. Is He at the center of all you do? Read more about idols.
Our relationships are important to God. Are you loyal to those around you? Can people trust that you'll do what you say you'll do? James 5:12 says, "Let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No,' lest you fall into judgment."
8. Gentleness
Harsh. Abrasive. Overly critical. Angry. That doesn't exactly describe the kind of person you want to be around, does it? Here are some ways to approach your own relationships with gentleness.

Ephesians 4:29 says, "Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." Build others up, don't tear them down. Believe the best, don't assume the worst. Distance yourself from harmful gossip.
Anger may be justified, but how you deal with it can make or break relationships. It can also lead to bitterness, which gets you nowhere. Read short Q&As on coping with anger.
Constructive criticism can be helpful, but be wary of criticizing others to the point of belittling them. Balance your feedback with compliments. Be mindful of your tone of voice and who's around when you offer input. Have a hard time accepting criticism? Read more.
9. Self-control
With so many day-to-day temptations and frustrations, it can be hard to maintain self-control. Whether you're at home, at work or on the road, here are a few things to keep in mind.

We're all tempted, but we don't have to give in. Sometimes we need to distance ourselves from whatever is tempting us. Here's how to stay strong when faced with temptation. As 1 Corinthians 10:13 says, "…(God) will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it."
Maybe you lack self-control when it comes to food. Maybe it's hard to keep your cool when the kids are crying. Or maybe the issue is lust. Whatever it is, try taking a break. Count to 10 and refocus. Call a friend for encouragement. Read a Psalm to calm your heart and focus on God. Take a walk. Find tips on overcoming addiction.
Willpower alone might not be enough. Ask God for His power to maintain discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7 says, "For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control."

"The Andrews do not have a daughter like you. How dare you try to kill your own sister are you not ashamed." My father yelled pointing a finger at me. With fury in his eye, filled with anger, just so much of anger directed towards no one other than his own daughter. 

"Why do you not believe me? Why do you not trust me? Why do you not ask me? Am i not your daughter? Am i not your flesh and blood? Am i not the same daughter you once doted upon?" I couldn't control my anger anymore. 
On my 10 birthday My dad brought back a pair of beautiful aunt and a cute 8 year old girl and introduce them as my new mother and step sister. At first i was happy to have a little sister and a new mother but as years passed by things started to change.
After my 15th Birthday i realized that My father didn't love me anymore, My step mother looked at me with disgust, My friends started to maintain their distance from me and my cute and obedient sister was the reason for it all.
I didn't hate her just because other people liked her more, at that time i thought my sister is cute and innocent just like and angel who wouldn't love her but when the boy that i love dropped her to school i started to hate.
He was my only light, my only solace, my only hope. When the whole world abandoned me he was the only one to comfort me, even if he may not remember me i won't be able to forget him.
"Even if the whole world turned their back on you and abandoned you as long as you don't abandon yourself and love yourself there will always be a day when you can live without caring if anyone else would abandon you." 
This is what he said to me on my 17th birthday ever since then, we would greet each other if we meet in school. I could count with my hands just how many time he talked to me but still i felt special because he never talked to anyone else unless they initiate. 
Walking home one day i saw my sister Alice getting off an expensive car, curious i got closed to look but what i didn't know was that just because of this one look i would try to destroy my own life. 
The first time i saw him smile, such a beautiful smile it would have made me fall in love even more but this time it splashed cold water on me waking me up from my fantasies because this smile was not for me. It was for my sweet, sweet little sister.
He smiled at her, a smile i never saw. 
He talked to her with that smile, a conversation he would never start with me.
He let her close enough, a distance i would never be able to cross.
This moment suffocated me, I couldn't breath, I couldn't think, I couldn't feel.
Ever since that day i couldn't stop hating her, I refuse to believe that my oh so sweet sister is really only sweet and innocent. I was right Alice was not only wearing a mask but so was her mother. 
All the things that happened to me were their planning, making me loss my friends, my reputation, my father, my love.
They wanted for me to suffer because Alice hated me fro living a life she deserved and my step mother Zara hated my mother for marrying my father Edward.
Even when I lost everything they were not satisfied on my 20th birthday they drugged me and planned to have me raped so that my father would disown me, but thing didn't go as planned because he saved me again.
We spend a night together, under the influence of the aphrodisiac neither did notice his stiff movement nor the anger and disappointment. All i could think was the night we spend together.
In a good mood i returned home only to be slapped by my father. Looking around i saw a victory smirk on Zara's face who was sitting on the sofa holding an injured Alice. Alice head was covered in bandages, slightly bleeding.
"Fa-Father Wh-What did i do wrong?" I was truly confused.
"Y-You have the nerve to ask me what wrong did you commit. Do you not see Alice sitting over there injured due to your crime." My father raised his hand as if to hit me again.
I did not understand what my father was asking until that sweet voice was heard. Her face was so beautiful and innocent, her voice was so mesmerizing and naive but under her facade was a heart vicious than anyone else's.
"Dad, sister did not hit me intentional, she was drunk and it was nothing but a small accident." It may seem that Alice was standing up for me but the moisture in her eyes, sobbing tone in her voice and the weakness in her moves were all done deliberately to fuel my father's anger. Just like she wanted her actions angered my father even more.
This was not the first, every time my father scold me for my so called wrongs Alice would always step in and fuel his anger even more. I don't know how i didn't realize it before maybe it had become a habit for me to be hated by my own father.
"The Andrews do not have a daughter like you. How dare you try to kill your own sister are you not ashamed." My father yelled pointing a finger at me. With fury in his eye, filled with anger, just so much of anger directed towards no one other than his own daughter.
"I did no such thing, Alice excused herself early saying her head hurt and i did not see her later that night." This might just be the first time for me to explain.
"You even dare to lie. From today onward i do not recognize you as my daughter. The Andrew family will only have one daughter, Leave this place pack your thing and never come back." My father didn't want to listen to me. 
He would never believe.
"Why do you not believe me? Why do you not trust me? Why do you not ask me? Am i not your daughter? Am i not your flesh and blood? Am i not the same daughter you once doted upon?" I couldn't control my anger anymore. All my grievances flowed out like a broken dam. 
"For the last decade Father you have not only ignored me but every time you want to talk to me was to scold me for thing i have never done yet i did not oppose because it was the only time you would speak to me. You did not notice how i received top score for every year but because i knew you would scold me for failing, I did not write exams just for you to pay attention to me. You never praised me ever since i turned 10, You didn't kiss me good night anymore, you didn't let me sleep with you during stormy night, or you never asked if i liked my birthday gifts. Now you don't even listen to what i have to say. If me leaving this house is what you want then i will listen to father this one last time." I did not want to see the anger and disappointment in my father's eyes so i ran to my room packed all of my things and left through back gate not wanting to see the victory in the eyes of the mother daughter  duo.
I do not know how i spend the last 2 months, i didn't take one step out of my apartment. Ever since i left my family house i stayed at the apartment i bought when i turned 18. I wanted to go to him, i wanted to apologize to him, i wanted to explain that i was drugged but for the last 2 months he was no where to be seen.
As i switched my phone on after whole 2 months i only received one message from my sister. What was i expecting?  who would really care if i disappear for good.
Ignoring my sister's message i got up to head out after 2 months of self pitying and drowning in my misery. I have not been feeling well and was going to visit a doctor for health check up.
For the last 2 months i had thought a countless times to just end my pathetic and miserable life but every time i would recall what he said to me. 
"Even if the whole world turned their back on you and abandoned you as long as you don't abandon yourself and love yourself there will always be a day when you can live without caring if anyone else would abandon you." 

....
After my normal check up and drawing my blood the let me go informing that the staff would email me my report.
On my way to my apartment I saw him getting off his car. Without thinking i called his name.
"Enzo" 
I noticed how his body stiffened at my call and the anger in his eyes as he looked at me. He did not let me explain me as he dragged me in front of his car so that know one else could hear our conversation.
"I am sorry for what happen, I-" he did not let me finish just like my father.
"Listen carefully to what i have to say. You disgust me, I had no intentions of getting involved with you. There are hundreds of girls like you chasing me so don't show your face to me ever again. Get out of my sight and don't ever let me see just looking at you sickens me." He did not wait for my reaction or reply as he let go of me and walked away.
He abandoned me, just just like my father.
I dragged my self home only by chanting the same thing in my head again and again.
"Even if the whole world turned their back on you and abandoned you as long as you don't abandon yourself and love yourself there will always be a day when you can live without caring if anyone else would abandon you." 

"Even if the whole world turned their back on you and abandoned you as long as you don't abandon yourself and love yourself there will always be a day when you can live without caring if anyone else would abandon you." 

"Even if the whole world turned their back on you and abandoned you as long as you don't abandon yourself and love yourself there will always be a day when you can live without caring if anyone else would abandon you." 

I was going crazy i did not know what to do i chanted what he said not a hundred times but a thousand times. 
Pain so much Pain.
If i was never loved in the first place then it wouldn't hurt but i was loved before the age of 10 my father loved me, pampered me like a princess, giving into my demands and my friends loved me.
I was loved, cherished and pampered yet it was all snatched away.
After that i was alone.
I was ignored, bullied, afraid and hated
My blood father hated me.
He did not love me anymore.
He ignored me.
The boy that i loved hated me  
He said i disgust him.
He said i sicken him.
He did not want to see me again.
The kind of pain that i felt was no less than having my soul being ripped out.
I felt my world crumbling, My heart slowing down, My body getting cold, My eyes closing on its own, My brain shutting down and i slept, i slept for 3 days in the same place in the same posture.
Waking up i didn't feel anything, My world was now black and white, I did not feel pain as i walked on the broken glass, I did not feel the cold when I got out of my apartment in light clothes and i did not feel the glass digging deeper in my feet drawing out more blood the more i walked.
He wanted me to disappear.
He wanted me to disappear.

He wanted me to disappear.

He wanted me to disappear. 

Is all i thought.
If you abandon me, then even after loving myself won't save me,
As i cannot love myself more than i love you.
Standing on the roof of my 20 floored apartment building ready to take a step forward ending my pathetic life, yet at this movement my phone rang not wanting to die such a lonely death i checked my phone.
My doctor emailed me the result of my health check up, reading the result i cried and cried and cried.
I did not know if i cried of sorrow or happiness but i couldn't stop my self. I had never cried like this, wailing, howling, bawling. 
Gathering myself i couldn't help but caress my stomach, my tears didn't stop even when i was smiling.
If loving my self won't be enough then all the love that my family didn't want, that he didn't want i will give it to my baby.
I will love my baby and never leave my baby because i finally have a reason to live.
A reason to love.
A reason to wish for a future.
Now i can finally wouldn't care even if the whole world abandons me because i know my baby won't ever abandon me.

I, Samara Andrews gave not only my youth but my love, my life, my soul, my everything but in return all i got was a single word "scram". Now 20 years old abandoned by not only my family, friends, but also the world and him.

If you abandon me, then even after loving myself won't save me,
As i cannot love myself more than i love you.

I stood on the roof of a 20 floored building ready to take a step forward ending my pathetic life but the world loves to play a joke with my life. My doctor emailed me the result of my health inspections, reading the result i cried and cried and cried.
"I am pregnant why, why now? why when i was ready to end it all? why when i gave up all hope?"

If loving my self won't be enough then all the love that my family didn't want, that he didn't want i will give it to my baby.

Even if i am a 20 year old abandoned girl, i will continue to live on because i finally have a reason.

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