My name is Haruta Yashimuro, I have had schizophrenia since childhood and I have never had friends, I did not want to inadvertently hurt other people because of my temporary visions and I spent all my time at home playing games and watching various TV series. 

 As you may have guessed, I have my imaginary friends with whom I talk all day and it's very easy when you have schizophrenia) 

But one day I changed everything and I was reborn in another world, but what the hell do I have this schizophrenia again ...

Andrew loves Azul but it's an unreal / toxic / sick love




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Journal entries from one who has schizoaffective disorder, paranoid schizophrenia, PTSD, and manic-depressive bipolar.

Like a drowned man breaking through the surface of water; like a burning man having the fire doused; like a strangled man tasting fresh air again. 
"Ah…" Gu Jun took in a deep breath and started to gasp. His vision changed from blinding light to taking on clearer shape. He blinked with difficulty before his eyes focused again. Everything was still white. It was white walls, he was inside a small white room. 'Where am I… What happened?'
Gu Jun's head pulsed. He shook his head. He was physically present. He laid in a simple bed, he was still alive. His last memory was the blinding light that consumed him. The altar was disintegrating and then… His memory blurred. It was as if his consciousness was given a firm yank. He woke up from a seeming nightmare and here he was. After the dizziness passed and he felt better, Gu Jun studied his surroundings. It was a room about 10 cubic metres. Other than the bed, there was a sink with a mirror and a toilet. There was a camera at the corner. The door was made from stainless steel and it had a small window. 
'This place looks like a quarantine room…' The thought shocked Gu Jun. Was it possible that humanity survived the apocalypse? He survived and he was now treated at Phecda or Mysterium's quarantine sickroom? After all that would be the standard protocol considering no one knew about his mental state and whether he was contagious or not. 'Did the prayer work? A different source of power came to disturb Nyarlathotep… an unknown source of power…'
Gu Jun forced himself to sit up. He saw that he was wearing a robe with blue and white stripes. This was not the colors common to Phecda. 'Where is Dirty-minded Yu, Yu Chi and everyone else? What about Mo Bei?'
"Is anyone there?" Gu Jun called at the camera and then waved. "I'm up, is anyone there?" At that moment, he noticed there was a bell beside his bed. He pressed it and waited for service. He shook his head again. He was sure his brain was hemorrhaging back then. But somehow he survived and not in a surgery… Gu Jun then worried about Dirty-minded Yu and their baby, as well as Cai Zixuan and the rest. 
'Why are these people so slow?' Gu Jun pressed the bell again. Then he stood up and slowly moved to the sink. His reflection inside the mirror was still himself but his hair had been shaved. Was it because they had to conduct a cranial surgery? Gu Jun was confused to realize that some of the original wounds on his head had disappeared. Due to his craniotomy, there were supposed to be several long wounds on his right scalp but they were gone now… As he extended his hands to touch his head, Gu Jun noticed new discrepancies. "Wait, my fingers…" Gu Jun frowned as he studied his left pinkie. He turned it back and forth. He confirmed the pinkie was perfect, without missing any segment. That was strange because in the Nightmare House, he knew he had to chop off the last segment of his left pinkie to stay conscious. Gu Jun squeezed on his left pinkie and it felt real. Then he touched his right forehead and tapped at it. It felt… different. 
PEEK polymer was ultimately not made from bones so it would feel a little different from a normal human skull. But now that feeling has disappeared. These discrepancies caused his heart to boil with anxiety, the surroundings turned dangerous with unfamiliarity. The quarantine room now looked more like a prison cell.
Tat tat tat. Footsteps came from outside. Soon the door opened and a woman in white came in. She was Caucasian, blond and looked about 30. She had light grey hair and she spoke through her mask. She asked in English, "Mr. Gu, how do you feel?"
"Hello." Gu Jun answered in English, "Where am I? Who are you?" 'Am I at FBM's base?' But he could only see helplessness on the female nurse's half-revealed face and not a bit of excitement from his recovery. Even if he was at FBM, there should be more than a nurse to come check on him when he woke up… It was not that Gu Jun was being proud but with his name, he assumed he'd be considered a person of importance even at FBM. 
"Mr. Gu, did you forget your medication again?" The blond nurse walked to the toilet and saw several pills floating on the surface. She sighed. "Next time, I'll have to stay to ensure that you have swallowed all your pills. These medicines are good for you, you have to cooperate with our treatment to get better."
"What medicine?" Gu Jun was confused. He glanced over and did spot several pills inside the toilet. "What kind of illness do I suffer from?"
"Schizophrenia." The nurse answered in a gentle voice, "You have an acute form of schizophrenia and you need medication to control it."
"Wait a minute…" Gu Jun's head pounded. 'Schizophrenia?' His eyes widened. In that case, the pills in the toilet should be medication like actargil, Haldol and so on… 'Is it possible that my mental strain has accumulated to cause psychological trauma… but the nurse said I am suffering from acute schizophrenia… Furthermore, no matter how long it has passed, it's impossible for a finger to grow back, right… Or Phecda has mastered that kind of reconstruction technology?' Thoughts bounced about in his mind. He took a deep breath and then asked evenly. "I wish to ask you some questions, please answer them honestly."
"Okay, shoot." The nurse played along. Patients with schizophrenia needed to be handled carefully and they shouldn't be given too much pressure. 
"What time is it?" Gu Jun asked, "The year, month and date."
"2022, April 5th, 4 days after April's Fool." 
'Then not long has passed since the apocalypse…' Gu Jun frowned, 'That was less than half a month ago…' 
"Where am I?" He asked again, "The planet, country and location."
"You're on Earth." The nurse complied. She was not surprised by these questions due to her experience working in the mental ward. "You're in America, Massachusetts State, Arkham City, Arkham Sanitarium."
Gu Jun was stunned. He was not at the Phecda World, Mysterium World, Wasteland World but the Massachusetts World?!
"How long have I been admitted?"
"4 days." The nurse replied softly, "Mr. Gu, your schizophrenia acted up on April's Fool… It was your family who checked you in." 
Well that was not an answer Gu Jun was expecting. Family?! Now who's crazy?
He looked around and thought, 'Is this a dream or an illusion or a trap…'
"Where is Wu Siyu?" He asked tentatively, "Yu Chi? Keziah Mason?"
"Mr. Gu," The nurse shrugged. "I've answered that question many times already, they don't exist."
"Oh." Gu Jun was unfazed. This answer was better than 'they're dead'. They might not exist in this world but they might in another.
"When who am I?" He asked again, "My name, age, identity. Please tell me everything you know about me." 


The once-bustling and noisy streets were now filled with an eerie blanket of silence.
Hoarse and frenzied whispers lingered high above the heavens, and an indescribable ancient giant lurked in the shadows of the bottomless ocean.
A mysterious plague had outbroken, and natural disasters wrought the Earth. Global pandemic and catastrophes had the panicked masses seeking illusory shelters from the devastation, day and night.
A bloody shower poured over the land as the streaks of lightning tore across the sky, illuminating the ill-intentioned gathering of ravens above. Nevermore, nevermore, quoth the ravens.
"We can see that this malformed creature has twelve pairs of ribs like humans, but also has a "transverse bone" that humans do not possess..."
In the medical school, Gu Jun continued bringing down his scalpel, illustrating the abnormal thoracic structure of the malformed cadaver on the dissection table to the surrounding students.
Ominous and treacherous times had descended! Truth and logic had crumbled, order warped into a frenzy. Humanity can only forge ahead through the power of intelligence and wisdom.
Dive into this Lovecraftian horror and witness madness come to life. 



Nothing of Jonathan's attempts worked, her state didn't change even the slightest, but there is no giving up in their minds. After a long struggle of Griselda's sickness it became her weakness, she doesn't meet her friends anymore, she doesn't participate in any of her activities she used to do, and more importantly, she doesn't talk about what in her inside anymore. She keeps her thoughts and her feelings for her, or as the doctor claimed, she's transforming those thoughts into conversations in her head. 

As Dr. Brice told her parents, the character that her brain created became beyond her, which is more dangerous because she likes it. As a consequence, she doesn't feel like she needs to talk to people, because she already talks to someone, a person that doesn't judge her. Meanwhile, her beloved is trying the best to bring her back again to life, because she's wrapped up in a dark world that already swallowing her and it's getting worse. 

However, Angelica paid a visit to Griselda's therapist to talk more about the situation, and investigate more about the reason why she became like that. Even though she wasn't okay with Dr. Brice being her doctor, they say she's the best. 

· Dr. BRICE: Good morning, Ms. Gibson, any news you want to discuss? 

· ANGELICA:I will enter the subject matter. I know that something is wrong with Grise, it's so suspicious that you came to us instead of her parents or asking her personally. 

· Dr. BRICE: Well, true, I did ask her parents and they didn't know, because she was away from home living with you specifically. 

· ANGELICA (with a provoking tone): I've been thinking, it doesn't have to be from her university life. What stopping her could be anytime from the past. 

· Dr. BRICE (with a mischievous look): You are not wrong, but you've been there her whole life. Which means you'll know more than her parents. You remember any girls talk? Harassment or anything that abused her? 

· ANGELICA (nervous, remembering their childhood incident but cannot talk about it): No ... I .. guess not, I don't remember any bad thing. 

· Dr. BRICE: you need to think carefully, Angelica, it is important for me to know so I can solve this mysterious reason of schizophre... [with a quizzical look] 

· ANGELICA (wide-eyes): you were just going to say schizophrenia, right? WHAT! Are you serious? Is she a schizophrenic now? 

· Dr. BRICE: Freaking out is not the answer right now. Look, I need you to calm down and don't raise your voice, someone could hear you. 

· ANGELICA (nearly whispering): she doesn't even know about that, does she? 

· Dr. BRICE: No, and it's for her safety. She won't accept it, and as far as I recognized she realizes, but not so sure. 

· ANGELICA: what do you mean? 

· Dr. BRICE: Look, your friend has created a character to protect her from the outside world and that character is violent, she could hurt herself. Whenever she feels that she's in danger, her mood swings very fast. And this is so dangerous not only for her but for her encounters as well including you. And this is not new. 

· ANGELICA: Griselda would never hurt me or anyone. 

· Dr. BRICE: Are you sure about that? 

.ANGELICA: what are you implying? 

 . Dr. BRICE: Anyways, I don't talk about Griselda here, I talk about her other personality. So I need you to help me help her, otherwise, we'll lose her one way or another. 

· ANGELICA (worried): She ... has always loved music. Music is her escape, so I guess that's how we're going to bring her memories back first and then deal with the schizophrenia thing. 

· Dr. BRICE: Music? Yes, that's a good option. Any favorite song? 

· ANGELICA: well, as I said music is her escape so don't expect one song. There are so many of them, and each one has a story or a memory related to the song. 

· Dr. BRICE (nervous): PERFECT! I need you to write them down. And now I can begin my job. 

· ANGELICA: every song will take her back into the memory of that age, and that way... 

· Dr. BRICE: her memories will be back one by one, or even at once, depends on her. 

Angelica started trying to remember all of the songs they used to know, but she couldn't write down one song that was a nightmare for both of them. The song that brings the most savage memory that happened to them as kids. The one that she didn't even try to remember because it is everywhere in her brain cells, so as for Griselda. 

 However, after so much researches made by Angelica, she can assume that the horrifying thing which putting her memories on hold is that old incident. Every two girl best friends have a childhood story that can never be forgotten, but this one was different, not literally children, but the beginning of teenage life. The hardest period in life for every person to jump from a child to a teenager. They were only thirteen years old when one of the outcasts tried to shake all of her fears and face it all. She ended up dragging everyone with her, which lead to misfortune. 

While Angelica was talking with Dr. Brice and writing her the songs, Jonathan suddenly came in with the same exact idea they both talked about. 

· JONATHAN (knocked and entered the room): Good morning, Dr. Brice... Ange! What are you doing here? 

· ANGELICA [surprised]: uh! I ...was ... What are you doing here? 

.JONATHAN: I work here, remember? 

· Dr. BRICE (saved the situation): I called her for a little chit-chat. 

· JONATHAN: about what? And without me? 

· Dr. BRICE: we needed some girls' talk, Mr. Melton? And what can we talk about other than Griselda? 

.JONATHAN: It's Dr. Melton. 

. Dr. BRICE: right! Dr. Melton. 

· JONATHAN: but why you didn't call me to join the "chit-chat" I'm her best friend too, moreover, her boyfriend. 

· Dr. BRICE: because she's a girl, Griselda is a girl, and of course they weren't telling everything because you were a boy. You weren't there when they were having girls' nights, you don't know lots of details as she may know. 

· JONATHAN (Rolling his eyes, speechless). 

· ANGELICA: Jonathan, sit down. We just figured out a way that we can help her and it may help. 

· JONATHAN: me too, I didn't sleep the past four days I made so much researches and I asked some seniors that are in the psychological department. They said that the best thing to do for a temporal Amnesiac is to give them the best thing they most enjoyed, and I think ... 

· ANGELICA & JONATHAN (at once): MUSIC. 

· ANGELICA: Yes, that's what we've been thinking of too. And I'm writing the songs that we used to listen to, especially the ones that are pinned to a specific memory, which could help her remember the moment and maybe after it too. 

· Dr. BRICE: as she said, yes that could sixty percent help. Now I need you both to gather them up and bring them to me before my next session with her. Now if you excuse me, I have an appointment. 

As they left the doctor's office, Angelica tried to tell Jonathan about the incident, but she was afraid because that was a huge secret that non-of them want to reveal especially Griselda. However, she thought that it is right to tell him so they can find a solution together since music is the only way out. She wanted to tell him, but she felt that she's not in a position where she should tell him, it's not her story to tell. 

· ANGELICA: Jona! I am going to see Griselda, you coming? 

· JONATHAN: yes of course. But, is it just me, or you are hiding something. Is everything okay, you have a problem or something? You seem so concerned and I guess not only about Griselda. 

· ANGELICA: what? Me? No, I'm good. I just keep thinking of how life leads us to this, so unfair. 

· JONATHAN: I know! So I've been thinking of what the doctor said earlier, about having girls talk and hiding things from me. 

· ANGELICA (scared to talk): no! I mean... that's normal, we don't tell you everything. There are some privacies that only girls know. 

· JONATHAN: Angy, you know what I mean. I'm not talking about your periods or your crushes or any of that girly things. I'm talking about serious things that may have happened in the past, which can be the reason why she's like that. 

· ANGELICA (struggling in words): if there is something that serious it would show up earlier not now. And we always talk about that girly stuff you mentioned in front of you, no offense. 

· JONATHAN: Okay, I'm not commenting on that. And don't play dumb, there was no motive back then. The accident injured her brain and affected the Hippocampus which lead to the memory loss if the accident didn't happen she want to be dealing with it now. 

· ANGELICA: English, please. 

· JONATHAN: Hippocampus is a part of the brain that controls the aspect of memory and navigation, so, forgetfulness and getting lost usually some of the symptoms. And the dangerous thing that can happen is the behavioral changes, and that may lead to schizophrenia. But usually, it only has the same symptoms and doctors think that it is schizophrenia. 

· ANGELICA: schizophrenia! (Surprised) How do you know all of this? 

· JONATHAN: I'm a Doctor Angelica, I don't know why I keep reminding you about that. 

· ANGELICA: Cool off doctor boy, are you offended? well, seriously you don't look like a doctor... 

.JONATHAN: Angelica, back to the topic. 

.ANGELCIA: Oh! right. So, how much time exactly it can take her to might be schizophrenic. 

· JONATHAN: this can't be known, mental illnesses don't have an exact timepiece. Schizophrenia is a severe mental disorder that affects how a person thinks, behaves, and feels. So this must end before her brain would be torn to pieces. As I noticed her behaviors have changed a lot. 

· ANGELICA: it's only one month since the accident, so I guess it can't be schizophrenia. 

· JONATHAN: Maybe, maybe not. Hopefully not, that would be a genuine problem. 

· ANGELICA: Look, when Dr. Brice called me, she accidentally told me that Griselda is schizophrenic, and the worse is that she was schizophrenic for a long time and it's not new. But now, I guess she's hiding so many things from us, I need to go back to her and talk to her, otherwise, we will be doing our work individually. We must know the details so we can know how to help. 

Angelica stopped for a second and added, hoping to convince him to make Griselda change the doctor, "concerning Dr. Brice, she seems weird, I don't know, but I feel like I can't trust her." 

· JONATHAN: Define weird. 

· GRISELDA: What are you talking about? 

Griselda emerges out of the blue, hearing their conversation is going to be a problem for them, she shouldn't know, yet. When she appeared from behind, Angelica gasped and Jonathan flinched, they exchanged looks trying to figure out whether she heard something or not.

This story tackled various genres, it started as a romantic story and deviated its path into a dilemma of psychopaths, crime, and untrusted people. A mistake from the past never stays in the past, like an unsolved murder case where the killer is living an unexpected life. 

In life, some paths can't be discovered if the person doesn't improvise. Life is so stubborn, when it wants you to know some certain things, it may even hurt you just in order to put everything where it belongs. In fact, you may be related to that everything, or you are the key to everything. In Pervelli people hid the truth and lived normally. They have used to the role of innocence. However, life doesn't admire lies and evil, it does punish the villains no matter how long it takes.

I stayed there for half an hour. After that I went to police station. There I was asking some constables for the case details but no one are responding. Then I wrote a letter and applied for the case details according to RTI(Right To Information Act). After that I got the case details and I took those documents related to case. I started reading the details, it was shocking to know that police didn't find any clues regarding this murder.
The dead body was found in a open place where no one lives. The dead body was came to light by some local workers around morning 5:30 Am. The body was unidentified because head was not found. The head was totally separated from body. When local workers noticed dead body then whole dogs of that area were eating that dead body. There was no belongings found in crime scene related to dead body because dead was found nude and also no clues about murderer's was not found. The murderer brilliantly planned the crime.That dead body was a boy aged around 17 years old. Only 2 missing cases are filed in previous couple of days and the parents as to see and claiming dead body is balanced. Postmortem was balanced,after postmortem full details will be known regarding the death.
The above was the details I found in the documents. 
I went back to my room. I had a disorder named schizophrenia. I was affected by schizophrenia when I was 9 years old. A person with schizophrenia experience different feelings. I murdered a small boy due to my disorder. When I was 9 years old due to a major Injury to my head I was affected to schizophrenia. This disorder doesn't have a particular treatment and medicine to cure. A person with schizophrenia experiences hallucinations, Paranoia, depression and disorganised behaviour. I don't know some times I feel that someone was talking with me and commanding me to do a particular work. I can't feel anything emotional. My parents noticed these changes in me and took me to hospital then we came to know this shocking news about me. From that time onwards I went into different feelings. I feel sometimes like I was died and I can see my own dead body. sometimes I feel that someone was forcing me to do something. Sometimes I can a unknown voice coming from my head saying me to jump from top of the building. I can't express my emotions with my parents and also with my fellow friends. All started seeing me in a different way like I am a bad guy. I doesn't like those things which I went to experience with my age friends. In this mental condition once I was with small boy at top of the building. Till then my sister was with me but for something she went from there. Then suddenly the voice I hear started commanding me to kill that small boy by pushing him from building. I was trying to stay far from that boy but he was roaming around me. I said him to go away from me but he didn't understand me. Then I started going down stairs. But he was also following me. I again went went terrace. The command was started more and more. I can't bear any more that voice and I feel to jump from the terrace. I suddenly jumped from terrace and the that boy too jumped from terrace. My head was injured and my left broken. But that boy was fallen on a rock and we both were shifted to hospital immediately. But that boy was died before reaching hospital and his parents kept a case on me stating that I killed their son. Police taken me to custody. They did a formal inquiry and they decided that I killed that boy. They wrote that I was not a normal boy. I was suffering from some psychologycal problem. The neighbor's started complaints on me to police that I behave very dangerous with other children. Some of the neighbor's claimed that I am not fit to live in society instead of that I should sent to mental hospital. After listening to all these statements police concluded that I killed that boy intentionally. I was submitted to court after police inquiry finished. The court had taken all neighbor's statments and police inquiry. Then court had sentenced me 12 years jail punishment with mental treatment. This incident came in all papers stated as "A 9 years old mental boy killed a small boy". This news became very popular among people in town. My parents did came to see me. My father was mentally pressured and got lost his all pride in society due to me.
First I was sent to mental hospital for treatment. There went into different mental tortures.


Childhood and teenage are the stages where a boy learns a lot of emotions like friendship,love,caring,angry,family etc. Most of the boys under goes these all situations. But there are some children/adults whose childhood or teenage was totally filled with misery and troubles. This is the story of one of that boy whose teenage is filled with full of  problems.
This is the story of veeranjith. Veeranjith was a mentally disabled boy from his birth. He got a rare disorder named schizophrenia. A person with schizophrenia under goes many mental problems. The effected person cant mingle with the society even he cant mingle with his fellow friends. His mental development is very less than a normal boy. He will always stay far from the society. He cant speak normally. He always feels hallucination and paranoia.   This disorder doesn’t had the perfect treatment and also even the known treatment cant help a person for total recovery.  Due to his disorder veeranjith killed two people unconsiusly, when he was just 9 years old. Then he got arrested and produced to the court.
Considering his mental condition the court has sentenced him 12 years imprisonment with mental treatment. Due to this crime his family was marked has a psyco family in his neighborhood. After the verdict came, his father refused the whole family to do not see or take him again to home. Now veeranjith was a orphan. As per the court order he was sent to mental treatment first. After the completion of treatment he was sent to a juvenile home. His total teenage was completed in mental hospital and also in juvenile. 
Veeranjith faces a lot of mental and physical troubles, humiliation in his teenage. But veeranjith completes his sentence period. He releases from jail when he was 21 years old. After he was released simantaneously a serial murders are  happend. Due to his past, the police arrests him to close the case fastly  and proving veeranjith as a accused. So that people all trust police statements and starts calling veeranjith as a PSYCO. And the remaining is the story did veeranjith finds the killer or not? How veeranjith is going to come out from the serial killings case? Who are the actual killers and why they are killing the innocent people? The all answers to the questions are in story. Please do give your valuable reviews so that I can write with more intrest. Hope you will feel very thrill in the book…..

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