ch.25: demons

So i finished and i had a good idea so the next one i sang was by twisted sister, and it was i wanna rock. And i love twisted sister. And i just felt super happy. And just me doing this once in a while reminds me of roots and where i came from. But i was super happy and i was dancing around. But i finished and a lot of people were standing and they were clapping and cheering once again. But i said thanks and this one guy came up to me and said, " you are really good. What's your name?" i replied," haley ward." he put his hand out and i shook it he said, "dee snider." i looked at him shocked and said, " are you real. It is good to meet you sir." he laughed and said, " no need to be formal call me dee." i nodded and i felt like i was living a dream.

But he said, " are you from around here?" i shook my head no, " no but i used to live in indiana then moved to la and right now i am traveling." he looked at me confused, " on tour." he smiled and said, " i take it is a off day then." i laughed and nodded, " yeah. But i think i should start heading back. It was good to meet you dee." he smiled and i put my guitar back in the case and he said, " it was good to meet you haley. And if you ever get stuck text me on twitter. And also tell andy i said hi." i smiled and nodded then i had to call lex. And this was the conversation.

Conversation: lex and haley

H: hey lex are you still at the theatre?

L: yeah why?

H: okay, get andy and give him the phone.

L: okay one moment

I then heard running footsteps.

A: hello

H: hi andy. So i have a message for you.

A: oh, hey haley what's the message?

H: dee said hi. And that was it but try not to get into trouble much too

A: okay, thanks. Do you want me to give the phone to alexis?

H: please.

L:hey what was andy laughing about

H: nothing i just had to give him a message from dee

L: okay what is the name?

H: we went to see a play he wrote.

L: what?

H: do you not remember the play a rock n roll christmas

L: no shit. How?

H: i will explain it when i get back.

L: okay and also you might want to hurry. I think violet and remington have to ask you something. Because violet looks upset and pissed.

H: okay. I am on my way back now. So don't worry. Awkward friend to the rescue. And if it is because of the cupcakes she can have mine.

L: okay see you soon.

I hung up the phone and i was fucking freezing so i called an uber to come pick me up and i knew that it would be cheaper. But it wa pretty silent and i got there in fifteen minutes so that was a plus. But i got out and i walked inside. And all i saw where andy, ash,cc, violet,sebastian,emerson,remington,violet and alexis. I whispered under my breath, "i'm fucked."

So i walked closer and said, " so am i in trouble. Because i didn't do anything....yet." i laughed at the end and i heard violet say, " haley can i talk to you for a moment." i rolled my eye and said, " plan my funeral. I will probably be a dead chick soon." i heard the others laugh and me and violet went to the grand hall area. And she said," halye show me the arms." i sighed and looked down and i took off my jacket and showed her both. I said," these were previous scars. But i won't break a promise. I promised i wouldn't. I promised her. And my family."

i looked down and i felt a tear escape. And i just wanted her back. What the fucking hell did i do to deserve this. I never did anything to them. Just i want my mom back. And i just broke down, and me thinking about my past. It kills me and makes my demons grow stronger.

I sighed and I felt this pain I haven't felt in years. And I had my demons in so many ways I just ignored them and well I forgot about them for two long and now they have broke my internal cage and are straying to build a wall from the outside in.

I got up and I knew we had to start heading over to the next venue so I told violet, " I am going to head to the car. And I will drive so you can relax." I walked away and to the car. I have been fighting them for so long me I just need to fight I need to keep a promise. And I tried to forget. But I have been put through hell and I don't know the way out. I need an escape. And nothing that will harm me. I won't do it again.