Damage

Dana stood in the doorway with her arms folded while Kai packed a suitcase full of clothes and other things.

"So you really are going to leave? Where will you go, to a hotel? You don't have to do that; it'll be like I'm not even here." Said Dana.

"It's no problem, I'll be staying with a friend." Said Kai as he continued to pack.

Dana furrowed her brows, "what friend? Is it Saya?"

"No, you know Saya is always on the move." Kai responded, as he put a few more things in his suitcase before closing it and exiting the room.

Dana followed behind him, "Is it one of your coworkers? Do I know this friend?" Dana continued to pester Kai.

Kai put his suitcase down in the living room and turned around to Dana, "does it matter who it is? You have a place to stay, that's all that matters."

Dana lowered her head, feeling a bit uneasy. "What?" said Kai as he noticed her mood, something was definitely bugging her.

"You have someone new in your life, don't you?" Dana blurted out.

Kai lowered his head, unsure why he felt ashamed to answer her question, without thinking any longer he finally spoke, "Something like that."

"It is a yes or no question Kai." said Dana glaring at Kai.

Kai furrowed his brows, "It's not really any of your concern now is it?"

"So, you've moved on, yet you haven't signed the divorce papers." Said Dana raising her voice.

Kai let out a heavy exhale, "I don't understand why you're upset, you ended us, you walked out on me, am I not allowed to move on?" Kai yelled.

"Why do you keep putting this on me? I left because you didn't want me Kai, you never wanted me." Dana yelled.

"I'm not gonna stand here and argue with you about the past.", said Kai yanking up his suitcase and turning toward the door.

"It's not the past, you are still my Husband!" Dana yelled.

Kai turned around, "Did you think you were going to move back in, and we were going to play house all over again? The moment you left; we were over!" Kai yelled.

"We were over long before that! You didn't want to go to couple's therapy or anything to fix us, everything is not my fault! Why did you even marry me? Why did you even waste my time? Allowing me to fall in love with you only to drop me for some dick!" Dana yelled.

Kai suddenly dropped his suitcase, punching the glass picture of he and Dana on the wall. The glass picture burst into a million pieces and Dana flinched.

"Kai…your…your hand is bleeding let me help you..." Dana said in a calmer voice reaching for Kai's hand as tears streamed down her face.

"Don't fucking touch me!" Kai yelled, pulling his bleeding hand away. Reaching down for his suitcase, Kai roughly opened the door and stormed out of his apartment.

"Fuck!" Kai yelled as he roughly punched the wall of the apartment on the way down the steps with the same bleeding hand. Opening his car door, Kai got in, cursing to the top of his lungs once more. Grabbing his wrist Kai examined his hand, it was shaking, throbbing and bleeding all at the same time. Not caring that his hand was stiff and bleeding he drove to Jinn's apartment.

A knock on the door sounded and Jinn went to open the door happily with a smile on his face, dimples present. As Jinn opened the door, the defeated look on Kai's face nearly broke his heart. "My God what…Jesus Kai, what the fuck happened to your hand?" said Jinn pulling Kai into his apartment. Jinn took the suitcase out of his hand, dropping it on the floor and escorted Kai into the kitchen, running his hand under cool water, "ugh!" Kai groaned.

"Keep it there, I'm gonna go get the med kit, said Jinn running out of the kitchen. When Jinn got back he poured peroxide over Kai's hand and patted it with a clean towel.

"Can you move it?" Jinn asked. Tears began to stream down Kai's face as he stared at his lap, shaking his head no. Jinn let out a heavy exhale, wrapping his arms around Kai, careful not to touch his hand. "Kai talk to me, what happened?" said Jinn, but Kai said nothing. Jinn let out another heavy sigh as tears swelled in his eyes, "We need to go to the hospital, it might be broken."

"Okay.." Kai finally spoke above a whisper. With tears in his eyes, Jinn bandaged Kai's hand and the two made their way to the E.R.

The two had been sitting in an E.R waiting room for over a half hour for the result of the x-rays and all Jinn could do was worry about Kai. He hadn't said anything on the way to the hospital, nor had he spoke in the waiting room, Kai just seemed broken, and Jinn had no idea what to do.

"Dammit Kai…I wish you would tell me what the hell happened. Did you fight with Dana again?" Jinn blurted out, unable to remain silent any longer.

"...."

"Please tell me something?" Jinn pleaded.

"...."

"Fine, if you won't tell me, I'll ask her myself." Said Jinn getting up to exit the waiting room, but Kai stopped him.

"Stop!", he finally spoke.

Jinn turned around and leaned down in front of Kai, "Look at you, please tell me something, anything?" Jinn pleaded as tears streamed down his face.

Without looking up, Kai spoke, "I did it to myself. We argued and I got angry. It's not her fault."

"It's not her fault? It's not her fault?" Jinn said in disbelief. "Is there a reason that you're always defending her even though you're the one suffering?" Jinn shouted.

Kai finally looked up at Jinn, the two glaring at each other, "Just don't, I'm fucked up enough as it is, don't make this harder."

"Hi there, I'm doctor Craig, Mr. Pak, your results are back.", said the doctor finally coming into the room.

Jinn bit his bottom lip as it quivered, quickly backing away from Kai and wiping the tears running down his face.

"Unfortunately, Mr. Pak, you have a boxer's fracture and three broken knuckles." Said the doctor showing Kai and Jinn the broken bones on the x-ray. "We're gonna give you a tetanus shot because you've never had one and cast you up. You'll need to wear that and keep it dry for the next six weeks and follow up with your doctor in about four."

As Jinn heard the news, all he could do was shake his head over and over. As he had said, whenever it came to Dana, Kai couldn't think straight, something had to be done. The doctor, patted Kai gently on the shoulder and smiled, leaving the room and Jinn nodded.

After Kai got his tetanus shot and cast on, the two were on there way home. Although Jinn wanted to, neither of them spoke. Jinn stopped at the pharmacy to fill Kai's prescription and continued home.

A few days had passed and Jinn hurried out of work everyday to get home to Kai. With his dominate hand broken and unable to draw Kai wasn't needed much at work, so he was advised to take advantage of some of his unused sick days. Jinn unlocked his door and walked into a dark apartment. As he flicked on a light, there lay Kai passed out on the couch, with two bottles of wine, one empty and the other one more than half gone. Jinn sighed heavily, clearing out the bottles of wine first, and pouring the rest down the drain, then coming back to put Kai in bed. All he had been doing for the last few days was drinking and staring off into space, and honestly Jinn was beyond worried, he had, had enough.

"Ugh.." Kai groaned as Jinn lifted him up off the couch.

"Come on Kai." Said Jinn as he wrapped his arm around Kai, helping him walk as he stumbled.

"Jinn...oh..you're…you're home...where are we going?" Kai slurred over his words.

"To bed." Jinn responded.

"Oh...come...lay...lay with me." Kai hiccupped as he spoke.

"Alright, alright." Said Jinn as he opened his door with his foot.

"My stom..stomach…ugh." Kai gagged and suddenly he rushed past Jinn to the bathroom.

Jinn followed behind him, lifting up the toilet seat just in time as Kai spilled his guts into the toilet. Jinn sighed, rubbing Kai's back, holding his messy hair as he puked. "I wish you'd stop punishing yourself." said Jinn.

When Kai was finished, he slowly allowed himself to fall onto the floor. He hunched over, clenching his gut and looked at Jinn with his brows furrowed as tears streamed down his face.

"I'm…sorry." Said Kai, his voice shaky.

Jinn sighed pulling Kai close to him, "You don't have to be sorry, just tell me how I can help."

With his good hand Kai squeezed Jinn and began wailing uncontrollably. "I just…I just wanted to do the right thing, am I a bad person?" Kai cried.

Jinn squeezed Kai tighter, "No, no you're not a bad person. Why do you say that?"

"...." Kai continued to cry, saying nothing and all Jinn could do was console him, trying not to cry himself. After a while Kai calmed down and Jinn managed to get him in bed, holding him until he fell asleep. When he was sure that Kai was passed out for the night Jinn got up to go in the kitchen. Any bottle of alcohol that he had in the house, Jinn opened, pouring it down the drain. He had, had enough of Kai numbing his pain this way, tonight was the last straw.

After Jinn cleared all the booze from his apartment, he texted his boss that he needed the day off of work tomorrow, feeling it'd be best not to leave Kai home alone by himself again. Not being able to sleep, Jinn stayed in the living room to watch tv hoping it would ease his mind, but it didn't. Unable to stand it anymore, Jinn got up, slipping on his slides, grabbing his car keys and went for a drive. He had no intention of going anywhere specifically, but for some reason he had driven himself to Kai's apartment. Jinn got out of his car and stared up at the apartment, where the lights were still on, "What the hell am I doing?" he said aloud.