Chapter 9: Surviving

My training has been going good, I also got a lot more information from the memories of the titans, more importantly, I got a lot more information about the curse of Ymir.

In the last stages of Eren's memories, I got an idea about how to go against the curse of Ymir, and that was by eating other people, Eren kept himself alive by eating other shifters, but for me, that won't be possible, because there aren't any other shifters.

So I theorized that by eating a human I could survive it, but I wouldn't want to take another person's life to extend my own, that would be extremely egotistical.

Although I got used to death and killing from the memories I still wouldn't want to do it, but if it was absolutely needed then I wouldn't hesitate.

But I wasn't very worried by the curse of Ymir, because it was said that the curse of Ymir only worked where her spirit was present, and that was the world of titans and not my own.

But there was still a small chance that she was present because she got her powers from the devil that ruled all land, so the land in my world could be ruled by the same devil, so in theory, Ymir's spirit could still be hanging around.

Luckily I still had a year left to 'live' so I still had quite some time to figure out how to cancel out the cure of Ymir.

And I did just that, I stopped training as much as I used to, I focused more on finding out stuff about the curse of Ymir, unfortunately, there weren't any books, post, or blogs about it, neither online nor in a library, there weren't even any quirks that could go against a curse.

So I relied on the thing that gave me the information I had until now. The memories, I figured they could help me in any kind of way, and surprisingly I unlocked more of Eren's memories.

I unlocked the memories of him looking at the memories of Ymir, this is when I found out that in reality Ymir never died, she lived on in the 8 other Titans, they all had some sort of power from her, she made them by giving up her physical body, but a part of her lived on in the other titans.

When I first saw this it blew my mind, and it wasn't a curse that was killing them, it was just that Ymir could only stay inside a body for 13 years.

But this was only a single body, so if you did 13 times the 8 titans then you could live for a total of a hundred and four years in total, and right now I had 3 titans that were unlocked, so I could live up to a total of 39 years and only 12 of them were used up.

So I was relieved when I heard this, I was happy that I didn't have to kill anyone to live on, and most of all I didn't have to research this shit anymore so I could go back to training.

But I would wait until I'm officially 13, and that would be in another week so I waited.

The next week was very suspenseful, I totally skipped all training, I didn't even go out of my room, that was until it was midnight before the day I was born on, October 10th the Faithfull day, today was the day where I would either live or die.

So I waited there was only an hour left until my birth hour, precisely 1 AM, I wrote multiple letters telling goodbye to my family, and friends.

There was only one minute left and an unbearable amount of pain hit me, I felt it from all over my body, I felt cold, yet hot at the same time, I felt aches all over my body, my bones broke, my muscles tore, blood came out of my mouth, and I was suffocating, this was just a small part of the pain I was feeling.

My whole body was contorting, shaking, and yet my eyes didn't lose the hope within them.

I clenched my fist and screamed inside my own mind, 'I WON'T DIE! I WON'T LEAVE EVERYONE BEHIND, I DON'T WANT TO DIE!'

I felt sweet relief come over my body and as if it never happened all the pain was gone, but there were bloodstains all over the floor and my clothes were stained too, my body started emitting steam as I started healing automatically, I continued healing faster and faster until I was completely healed.

After lying still for around ten minutes I got up and started cleaning my room, this took me around an hour of scrubbing the floor and walls, and putting on some clean clothes I headed out to clear my mind.

'The 'curse' hit very differently than I thought it would', I was quite shaken up by what happened, normal people would have gone quite literally insane by the amount of pain I went through.

But I was anything but normal, my endurance played a big part in surviving this whole 'curse' thing, but I never expected it to be in this way, and I never expected to feel this much pain.

Yet I was feeling relieved and happy that I could continue to live and become who I want to be.