Chapter 10:- Despair

"Despair is the denial of hope. It is the belief that there is no future and that nothing can change." - Unknown

(Location:- Rooftop Where Izuku Lost Consciousness)

When Izuku woke up probably after a few hours as he could see the sun setting down as an orange hue filled the sky.

Initially, Izuku was confused as to why was he there and what was he doing.

As he tried remembering, everything came back like a flood, everything that happened to him since the beginning of the day.

From Kazuki and Bakugo's bullying to meeting All Might in real life, to finding out his dad was All Might and how he sees Izuku as worthless.

Tears well up in his eyes as for the first time in his life Izuku started having pure unadulterated rage.

And it was directed at none other than the symbol of peace aka All Might aka his dad.

Izuku couldn't tolerate the lie All Might told.

"How he so casually said anybody can be a hero with a smile, a line that was sort of my mantra and the driving force, the source of my hope to endure everything I did till now, and yet he didn't mean it at all," said Izuku as he clenched his hands.

"Hypocrite," said Izuku in anger as that was the word that best described All Might currently.

"And if that wasn't all, he knew how much of an All Might fan I was, he knew it very well, and yet he neglected me just because I was quirkless to the point that I was totally forgotten, he didn't even trust me enough to think I could wield his quirk and why? because I was quirkless and had nothing to offer to the quirk," said Izuku in anger as he gnashed his teeth grinding them.

All these thoughts gave birth to the rage Izuku never thought he would direct towards All Might and yet here he was.

Izuku continued gnashing my teeth in anger but after some point, he stopped as he sat mindlessly watching the sun.

What could he do, take revenge?

Many people tried doing so, people who were far more stronger than him, and what was he a 14 year old quirkless kid, how was he going to do what others failed at?

Yes, now Izuku knows about All Might's weakness but before he can even act, All Might will easily dodge it. What would even the point be, other than being beaten by him and his brother before getting kicked out of the house or used as a punching bag or servant?

As he realised all this Izuku even started questioning all the sufferings he endured to be a hero.

"Did I even want to be a hero now? Knowing the no.1 hero symbol of peace was nothing but a hypocrite fake. Was there even a point in living such a miserable life?" Said Izuku

'That too as the son of such a hypocritic fake, son of a mother who never looked at me since my diagnosis of being quirkless, not even once cared for my well-being, and what's the point of having a brother if all he can see in me is a punching bag whom he uses however he likes as if I'm not a human but an endurance toy built for him, totally forgetting everything we planned together when we were going to be adults.

Now that he has that hypocrite's quirk, his hits will get even more painful. Rather than dying being bullied by him and Bakugo, I would choose to die of my own accord.

What about Fuyumi? What will she think?' thought Izuku

All these thoughts came into Izuku's mind but vanished as quickly as they appeared.

Afterall after the meeting with All Might his dream and reason for living died, all the endurance he had to survive died as well, and living with such disgusting people being related to them was getting on his nerves.

And even if he gets into UA, what's the point when the dream has died?

All Izuku will be, is an emotional burden on her, and as a man who wanted to be a hero, there is no way he can accept such a thing.

"And most of all, I can't go in front of her with these dead eyes, if Emi wasn't scared by my bandages, seeing me now she definitely would, and how can I show such a small kid such a face?

As I no longer have what it takes to smile even if small kids surround me all I can do is show a fake smile.

And that's something I don't want to show any of the kids there." said Izuku as he tried smiling but he failed miserably.

With all those thoughts in his mind, one thing was clear, Izuku didn't want to live any longer at least among these people whom he used to call friends and family.

And that's when Bakugo's quotes from today morning came into his mind, "Take a swan dive from the roof and pray for a quirk in my next life." he said just before Izuku lost consciousness.

And for the first time in my life, Izuku thought about listening to him.

Afterall even if Izuku didn't get a quirk at least he didn't want to grow up around such people who just disgust him and nothing else.

But just jumping wouldn't be enough, at least he needed to leave a note behind for Fuyumi so that she wouldn't blame herself for anything that happened to him.

And so Izuku wrote a note and tore it from his book, folded it, and placed it in the open zipper of his bag with only a small part of it coming out.

With everything done and ready Izuku looked at the sun one last time as it was about to set.

He thought about jumping just as the sun set, signifying the end of the day and also the end of his story, and his life as well.

And so by the time the sun set he cleared out all of his thoughts as he steeled his resolve, cried one last time, and removed his shoes and socks as he stood at the edge of the rooftop.

And just as the sun set Izuku closed my eyes and without wasting a second he spread his hands as he jumped and let gravity do its work as he was falling down very fast.

Just as he was about to hit the iron spikes on the gate and get himself impaled to the next life.

Something weird happened.