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I wonder why her heart is racing like this? Hmmm, am I her bias by any chance? Haha. That would be cool if I was. Though I doubt that, I can clearly see how her eyes sparkle when she talks to Joon. Choonhee, that girl I'm sure, biases me. She was here the other day and she still got quite petrified when I came to charge. She's cute but she doesn't have the same warmth Eunjung has. Not the same brightness, definitely far from the shine that Eunjung carries with her. It's just good that I'm quite drunk right now or my heart would be racing like hers. I wasn't in my head when I decided to lie down her lap like this. Still, I'm thankful I did.

Now, how do I get out of here? I'm already quite sober and I don't wanna keep her feeling this distressed. Her heart might burst any minute with the way it's booming right now. But, she thinks I'm sleeping. Besides, this feels so good too. It's like the more touch points we have the better charging happens.

"Eunjung-ah, are you in? It's me, Namjoon-ssi." She got quite startled at that and her heart started beating faster than it was earlier. Yep, Joon's definitely her bias. She might even like him more than as an idol.

She slowly unwrapped her hand from mine. Peeping up, I saw that she was typing on her phone. A beep. Wow, Namjoon surely responds fast when it comes to her.

*******

I wonder what could she be doing that we can't charge in her pad. It's much comfortable there but I didn't really want to intrude in her privacy. Yes, we're mates but I don't wanna rush into her life. I want to get to know her little by little.

Sunbae, I'm quite busy right now. Can we charge later? Maybe in an hour? I'll just go straight to your studio if that's okay.

All I could do was say, okay. I'm sure if it was Yoongi hyung he would've asked why but I just can't find courage to ask that, yet. I'm not that blunt. But I'm itching to know too.

Just like what she said, she arrived a few minutes before an hour hit on my watch.

"I'm so sorry Sunbae. I'll try not to change schedules like that in the future." She looked so apologetic that I can't find it in myself to feel bad.

"It's okay. I wasn't busy anyway. I just partied a little on my own while waiting for you." There it was, the smile that I longed to see.

"I was wondering when I would see that live. It was cute watching you have fun on your VLives." Oh, I guess she has watched all our Vlives since she's ARMY. "Have you watched all of them?"

"I'm not updated on all of them but I've watched all of yours..." I think she didn't mean to slip like that but too late, I already heard it and we both blushed. She was about to say something but I stopped her.

"Oops! You can't take it back."

"But I..." She sure got pretty flustered.

"Don't worry. I won't tease you outside. But no one's stopping me when it's just us."

"Sunbae! That's not fair!" So she has this childish side to her. Well, she's still quite young so I think it's natural. Besides, she looks too cute.

"Then you shouldn't have spilled that secret." She just sighed in defeat. She knew she had it coming.

"Well, yeah."

"Enough of that. Ready to charge? You look quite tired. Training hard, I see." To that she smiled wide.

"Oh no. I was actually at the pad. I was just moving things and was in the middle of it when you arrived. I didn't wanna bother you too much so I decided to finish it on my own before going here." Eunjung looked quite proud of herself. I guess she always had her members help her out when she used to live at the dorms. It was like that for us.

"So did you get it all done?" I asked as I sat beside her on the couch.

She had her hand ready like charging was already becoming second nature to her. "Well, there are still little things to organize but I can do them some other time."

"How's your coaching sessions going?" She suddenly felt quite stiff. Oh, I think she might've done something bad.

"Thing is. Haha. I missed it today."

"So you also missed charging with Yoongi hyung. That must be why you look tired."

"Oh no. We were able to charge. Though I lost track of time while organizing my stuff so he came over instead." Why did that feel like a prick in my heart?

"I see. Were you charging when I rang your door?" Yup. He was there earlier. The expression Eunjung is wearing now says it all.

"Uhm... well... the thing is..."

"It's okay. You don't need to explain. It was needed. You guys need your privacy too." I know I shouldn't feel this way but I'm jealous.

She started rubbing her thumb over my hand and I instantly felt better. Is this really how it is? It seems like she has full control over me. Just with a simple touch, a small smile makes me weak and I just readily give into her. I'm scared of this feeling. It's like I will always be ready to go to war, all she needs to do is command and I'll happily face death for her. Does Yoongi hyung feel the same towards her? Or have I really fallen hard for Eunjung?

"Uhm sunbae.. are you sleeping?" Oh I guess she might've thought I dozed off.

"Nope." I answered but I kept my eyes closed. "Why?"

"Since I missed my coaching session with Yoongi sunbae. Can I do it with you instead?" I almost choked in my own spit. Eunjung, asking me to teach her. I've been wanting to do that since we bonded but she's hyung's student.

"Are you sure about that? Me and Yoongi hyung have different styles in production." Her face scrunched in thought. I'm aware that she knows what I meant.

"I... I know that. It's just that I missed a lesson and I don't want to fall behind." She really looked quite distraught. How can I say no to that?

"Okay." I simply said.

"Really?!" Her eyes started to sparkle. Like a kid who saw a big, wonderful toy.

"Why? Did you think I'd say no to you?" I booped her nose. She was so cute when she got surprised. She just blinked back at me, I had to chuckle a little. "One condition though."

"Condition?"

"Yeah. I can't just give my lessons for free you know." Her eyebrows almost became one the way she scrunched them.

"But... I don't have the money to pay you sunbae." This girl really can be quite naive sometimes though my playful mind had an idea. I hope she doesn't storm off with this.

"I'm not talking about money Eunjung-ah." And I looked her over slowly from head to toe and gave her my most sexy smirk.

"S-sunbae. What... you... that's..." I can feel all her hesitations and the sudden gallop her heart came to. I even held her knee for the maximum effect and she turned into a complete tomato. "Sunbae, I..."

I just can't keep it up anymore. And I burst out complete cackling. I think I need to run out of here now. Her eyes were screaming murder when she realized what just happened. Well if she kills me now, it's fine. The world already knows who Kim Namjoon is.

"SUNBAE!!! You!!! Yah!!!" She started hitting me again and again.

"Aw! Eunjung-ah haha. I'm sorry. Haha." I know I should stop laughing now if I still want to live but I just can't.

"I cant believe you did that?! You're more mischievous than Agust D!!! Yah, you...!" She's really fuming, redder than ever.

"Agust D huh?" I caught her hand and held it tight. I don't know why, but her bringing up Yoongi hyung didn't settle well with me. "I'm the one you're with Eunjung. Not him."

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I wonder why his mood suddenly changed. We were simply having a great time. I just referenced Yoongi sunbae and he turned sour.

"What do you mean sunbae?" This time I'm really scared. He looks quite serious. Like he didn't like hearing Yoongi's name.

"You were just with him, right?" Why is he suddenly being short with me?

"Yes. I was. And now, I'm here."

"So why are we talking about him?" What?! Is he even hearing what he's saying?

"I don't think we were talking about Yoongi sunbae."

"I remember you specifically saying his name."

"That wasn't even talking about him. I just remembered him because he likes teasing me."

"Comparing me from him then."

"It wasn't... well, sort of. But I didn't mean it in a bad way."

"Why did you need to compare?"

"What?"

"Why did you compare me from hyung, Eunjung?"

"It wasn't like that."

"Then what?"

"Why are we even arguing about this?! What are we, kids?! I just wanted a lesson that's all. If you didn't wanna give it, all you needed to do was say no!"

Why am I even getting worked up like this? I shouldn't even be this affected. This is so childish!

He did not let my hand go all this time and I can feel that he's clearly upset. With what, I have no fucking idea. I don't know if he has realized it yet, but being mates, we are able to transfer our emotions to our partner. I'm quite sure he has observed something but hasn't really put a thought to it.

I don't want to be in situations like this. I'm bad with emotions. I'm terrible at relationships. God knows how long it took for my members to even get me to open up to them and now, I would have to adjust to not just one but two mates.

I start to feel my chest constrict. This is all too much for me right now. Can't they just give me a break?

My next instinct was to try to remove myself in this situation. I took my hand away from his and stood up as fast as I can but before I could even take a step he grabbed my wrist.

"Eunjung..." he stopped midsentence most likely trying to compose himself.

"I can't do this right now sunbae. I'm sorry. I need some air."

"But..." I just don't have the patience right now.

"I know, okay?! We haven't charged. Just please let me get some air and clear my head. I'll be back."

He finally let me go with that. I can feel the warm, heavy air hanging around us. I wish this didn't happen. All of this is making it all the more difficult for me to accept that I am now bonded. One of the last things I wanted to be.