Stalking

Hi..

Tiningnan ko ang babaeng palaging kumakausap kay Light.

At ngayon, heto na naman ang nakakapanibagong pakiramdam at isip, im thinking of getting mad.

But how? Hindi naman nila ako nakikita.

It was just that kilala ko ang babae, sa taon ba naman na binabantayan ko si Light? So, I already stalk those people that surrounds him, and this Chinese girl was a business tycoons daughter her name was Shiela. She was actually rearranged to be married with the Korean-Chinese guy named Jung Suk, whom her parents partners in business son. Its there tradition and until now it was really active.

That is why im thinking of getting mad to this girl kasi gusto siya ni Light , mahal siya ni Light at kahit mahal niya rin si Light , masasaktan lang si Light kung hindi siya bibitiw sa relasyon nilang alam niyang walang patutunguhan. She knew she was arranged to somebody else yet she was very hard headed. Ayaw kong masaktan ang ilang taon ko ng binabantayan.

And Light, I know Shiela was not the right girl for him I can feel that. And about Jung Suk, he loves Shiela Kim and he was a very nice guy with unrequited love. He felt happy but somehow sad and lonely because it was just a one-sided love. He was actually at London this year, hoping he'll forget about Shiela who loves another man but he did not know he was actually be getting married to the girl of his life.

See? What a cliché life we had here humans! Its crazy, its not entertaining anymore like the first I time I came here.

And this girl who knows what will happen keeps falling to Light and isn't thinking 'bout the consequences. She's selfish, atleast she should have told Jung Suk about the marriage thing, but instead, she keeps it a secret because she's afraid that Jung Suk might not let go of her and destroy her relationship with Light. TSkk..

Ang nakakagalit pa ay, magkasintahan ang dalawa and it was 6 months from now. Esh!

Now people out there whom is reading this, paano ako magagalit? PAano?

And again, isn't it stupid, stupid love triangle Ha-ha-ha.

I hope I can laugh like the humans do, I bet I can laugh as harder than LOL.

Psh.

And again, their they go again, the lip-lip greeting. Nakakainis na talaga, I guess? I think if I had a heart , I am really frustrated right now and it was beating really really fast and was fuming mad. They were just going to hurt each other when the time comes. AISH!

They kissed for 30 seconds before somebody came inside the classroom.

Haist, I don't know anymore.

Everytime that Light is with Ms.Shiela, I cannot watch them so I always go somewhere.

Shiela and Light used to be friends and they are always together, I watched them sometimes but as they grow older, its hard. Its hard to watch their eyes full of love. I think I should be feeling sad right now because I really am.

I went to the hospital, and visit him again. I feel like crying but I cannot. He is Lights younger brother, his younger twin. His name is Knyt Syle, he was a black sheep in the family because he visits the hospital more than the school. He actually did not ever go to school or outside the hospital, and their house. He was vulnerable and a complete opposite of Light. Their mother always hated Syle because he expenses lot of money for his surgeries.

Syle, the boy I had ever touched during the accident. After Light was born, the nurses applied cesarean delivery despite of the tragic situation. When Syle was born, he had a fractured bone due to the accident and it was very hard for him to grow happy like any normal kids had.

Syle was a very optimistic person I had ever encounter, and I admire him for that. And being optimistic is his one way to survive for all the doubts, hatred and negativeness of all the people surrounding him. They were look alike with Light but completely opposite in terms of health and decisions or mind.

In such a young age, when his bones was strong enough for a bone marrow transplant and bone replacement in his lower limb, it was the painful moment I had encounter in this world. He almost die because of the surgery and daily check ups and operations. It was very painful that I didn't expect to hug him the night he almost die due to heart attack and compulsion side effects of the surgical operation that was performed to a little boy.

It was the time that I can't exactly remember if I had hug him with a hand or in a human form or in my current shape.

Since that day, his parents fight because of the expenses and lately they divorced. Light was taken by his mother and Syle stays with his father. Syle's father is very kind , has strong faith and hardworking. Despite of being a surgeon, Syle's father encounter bankruptcy due to all the surgeries that was needed by his boy, he was still a human who get sick and tired, then lately he develop a D.I.D, so Syle was taken by his grandparents, while his father was being handled in the psychiatric department. And as for Light, he tends to grew up in an abundant life where his mother took care of him. He received all the love and been happy.

Nandito na naman ako sa silid na'to, and as usual, no one is around.

"Syle?" , I whispered.

I smiled yet crying... Again, I cannot imagine myself expressing the stuff.

He opened his eyes like he heard me.

"Be strong", I whispered.

For his 19 years of existence, siguro naman ito na talaga ang last visit niya sa hospital.

The nurse came with his lola,..

"Syle, Apo. Makakauwi na tayo.", Umiiyak na saad ng Lola niya. I feel relieved as I heard it and smile.

"Sa-lamat po..", And Syle begun to cry with the joy brought by the good news.

And then the weird thing happen again, I feel like I just hold his hands. At kahit wala akong isang pirasong mata na nakatingin sa isang kamay which I believed to be mine holding Syles cold hand, nabigla ako.

Ano to?

I extend my arm, I felt my chest. And underneath was a beating sound, a life. I somewhat seen a reflection in the window. I am glowing as I used to be but...

I had a figure, a human figure that came to existence.

Is this me?

I float to the air , went outside and was amaze to the hands, the feet, the breast, the legs the hair and everyting that a female human has. Hindi ko napansin na nakaharap ako sa isang skyscraper, I float towards and the glass blocks replicated my true figure. It is really real.

I am real, this is real.

AAHHH!!! WHOOOO!!!

Lumipad ako pataas at hindi nagsinungaling ang mga salamin ng mataas na gusali na'to. It is I. This is I, I have a shape, a beautiful one. Pero bakit babae? Diba mas astig pag lalaki?

Tss..

"Oh, hihi", I covered my breast and down there with my hands like an idiot ng mapansin ko ang ilang empleyado ng gusali na nakatanaw sa kawalan na tila nakatingin sa akin kahit na alam kung hindi nila ako nakikita.

"Yikes", Bigla akong nahiya at naramdaman ang kumakabog na bagay sa loob ng aking dibdib. It is a heart?

Waaaahh!! This is such a miracle .

Pumasok ako sa isang Dress Boutique ng isang mall. Patago-tago akong lumakad. Nakakahiya ne telege, hihi. Baka makita nila ako.

May nakita akong shades at kukunin ko sana ang isa pero tumagos lang bagay.

"eeh",

It is really embarrassing to walk with the crowd with no clothes at all, despite the fact is that they don't see me AT ALL. So, I floated to the air naked and i cannot really touch anything.