Oblivion

Eight months of training was not in vain.

The teacher proved to be an excellent specialist in lightsaber combat and power abilities. I was a little nervous, but the Jedi's techniques were very difficult to use.

After living in the forest for almost a year, I had already begun to forget human speech, but from the first weeks of my stay I got my teacher to teach me the Togrut language. The skill could be useful in life, and in addition to basic and Thudarian, I needed to speak something.

In my case, I chose a language that no human could master-the Togrutians made many sounds and tones in their communication that a human throat would not be able to make. But I did not cry on my vest, but began a new wave of experiments with medical techniques, the purpose of which was to modify my vocal cords. Quite difficult, but very interesting task - treatment of injuries and most diseases I had already mastered and proceeded to the medicine of body modifications, which was perceived by Toshi not so enthusiastically. I had to reassure the teacher that I would not do anything untested on guinea pigs, i.e. timiaras.

After she began to take me with her on hunting trips, we practiced more and more in Togrut because it was the fastest way, and my malleable mind allowed me to learn it faster than ordinary people.

I didn't tell Togruta that I wasn't really human; she certainly didn't need to know.

Hunting also varied the techniques-I first used stun, but then, realizing that the goal was not the number of pelts, I began to experiment with other forms of hunting.

When out on the case, it was possible both to practice abilities and their application - for example, to put one shark to sleep, and chase away the rest, then to slaughter the sleeping one and go to the camp with a clear conscience. In moments of boredom and irritation I allowed myself a good fight with them - against some I used trakata combined with ataru. I was able to almost double the speed of my previous movements, and at the same time I began to develop my own style, based on the juyo style which my teacher had begun to teach me after I had sufficiently mastered ataru. It was more complicated and I had a hard time at first, because I had to be in the right emotional frame of mind. The trouble is that soon after a dozen of general training sessions with the practice of the basic positions, tricks, maneuvers, we went directly to the fight. I had a problem right there, which made it impossible for me to continue my training. After the first sparring, I found it difficult to concentrate on the fight at all, let alone to make fine adjustments, getting the excitement and adrenaline.

It was a bummer with Juyo for one simple reason - as soon as I let go of my self-control, the teacher became a girl. A rather sexy girl that I just wanted to be creeped out! Thanks to the Force, I managed to hide this emotion from Tosya, otherwise it would have been a shame on my head, but she herself, having stopped sparring, thought something out and started reprimanding me:

- You are too inattentive, Henia, as soon as you stop control, you immediately lose concentration. I think you should prepare yourself first.

- Um... teacher..." I began without even blocking out the embarrassment, "there's a thing..." I knew that style was hardly the best thing she could teach me, but on the other hand admitting it to her... What am I, a snot-nosed teenager, though? On the one hand yes, but on the other, a boy of fifteen or sixteen in appearance, with a rather muscular body and definitely a serious look, so I often caught vulgar comments from Erdva about my sexual unrestraint. If I hadn't slept with Ali back then, there wouldn't have been a problem, but you can't go back... and we all have hindsight.

- Yeah?" The teacher looked suspiciously at my embarrassed look.

- You see, you and I have been sitting in the woods for almost a year now. I live in the woods, there's no one around...

- И? - She stretched out demandingly.

- My body has natural needs...

- You can go away," she nodded.

- You may step aside," she nodded. "No, I may not! Besides eating, shitting, and sleeping there are other natural needs," I said grudgingly.

- Come on, talk to me! - Could not stand the teacher. Judging by the emotional background, she could not even think of such a thing.

- In short, I need a woman! Do you understand? I haven't slept with anyone in a year! - I was indignant at such incomprehension.

- What?" The teacher took a step back and her eyes started popping out of her head.

- Um..." I smiled a little guiltily, "when I take off my self-control, which I keep intuitively, I immediately lose concentration. After all, there is a beautiful girl next to me, and I have hormones, no sex for a year and full stress due to life in the woods, and in your company ... now you understand what and who I want? - I smiled again, and the teacher blushed thickly after these words, so that the thin white lines on her face began to stand out.

- You're... I'm..." She seemed to get agitated, but then she calmed herself down to a little reddish, "I'm... ahem. I'm sorry, I didn't realize that people mature a little earlier than Togrut... I'm sorry.

- No, no problem, Master. Besides, I'm not human," I completely freaked her out.

- What?!? - she was even more surprised and even louder.

- Um..." I ruffled the hair on the back of my neck, "I'm half-Miraluks. Of course, the only thing that separates me from humans is my non-human psyche, but still... miraluks grow up even faster than humans.

- Yes..." she blurted out, "that's something... this is the first time I've ever seen a Padawan openly tell a teacher that he wants her..." she blushed again. - I hope you can control yourself? - she asked.

- Yes, of course I am. - I nodded. "Only when I've got my mind under control. When I loosen my grip, I just want to-" I glanced expressively at her breasts. Toshi, who knew what I meant, was as embarrassed as a schoolgirl again, and bit her lip. During our time in the forests of Shilie, she hadn't been visited by a herd of men, either, so she had a call of nature, too, but it was probably much weaker than mine.

- I... I don't even know how to solve this problem..." she grimaced. - You can't have a togrita... and I wouldn't agree on the Order's moral principles," she sighed heavily. - So you either have to be patient or find you a human woman.

- You can have a Miraluka or a Twi'lechka. I don't do well with human women. Psychologically, they're not really my thing...

- And you're a bit finicky. Oh, Portly, how will you learn now, Jouyot? - She raised her eyes to the sky in prayer. - It's not realistic when your saliva's flowing.

- Hey, hey!" I sulked. - I'm not a child! I can't help my psyche, nature made me like this.

- Yes, yes, I'm sorry, I understand that it's even harder for you..." she sighed heavily again.

I had to postpone my training in Juyo until I got back to the Order, though Toshi said it would be better to just pop into a brothel. The only problem was that the local brothel only had Togrutians, and if they catered to anyone other than locals, the brothel would be torn apart and driven off the planet. Although according to Tosi, there are Togrutians with the oldest profession in the galaxy. But at these words, she became agitated again. She could have removed her emotions, but she, unlike me, did not practice constant suppression of her own emotions and desires. The problem was that during the training I had grown a whole head of weight myself, and now I was up to Tosya's chin, and if you add to this impressive, muscularity, though not like a bodybuilder, but still noticeable, like an athlete, then... I understand why she blushed. It was easier when she thought of me as a child, and here it turns out a fully mature male specimen lives with her, and also with experience of sex, rather than an innocent boy-hormones.

I got over this conversation quickly, the next day I was already not paying attention, while for Tosya the problems began. Having strengthened my empathy, I could almost read all of her thoughts, and they were no different from my initial conclusions-she no longer looked at me as a child, but as a man. Despite some biological differences between humans and Togrutians, our races were quite clearly attracted to members of the opposite sex in both races. Humans had no compatibility problems, but for the Togrut, sex with a human-mino-planet was severely punished. As a result, the problems that I had started because of our conversation spilled over to Tosya, whom I increasingly caught stealing glances, or sometimes unconscious signs of attention, which she herself carefully avoided.

This depressed me even more. If there were no rule, and if the Jedi could lie, I would have suggested in good conscience that we go to the tent and save each other the trouble for the night, and then forget the whole thing. But that was impossible. Although...

There was one way, but the Master would never agree to it. Never. No, I said never!

In the evening, as dusk fell, Erdva, standing guard, noticed his master approaching him. I looked around cautiously and stood in front of the droid.

- Is something wrong, Captain? - he refused to call me by name, preferring my actual position on our ship. But these are peculiarities of the astrodroid's spacecraft program, superimposed on his personal preferences.

- Yes. There is one request. For starters, let's do an experiment - show me one of your instruments at random. Any instrument.

- Okay," a light cutter manipulator came out of the barrel of the hull.

- Good. Put it away, and then you can tell me if I said right or wrong.

- I don't understand anything, but okay," the droid said. I sat down in front of him in a seiza pose, falling into my own consciousness. My training at the Alderaan Academy had trained my own memory, and now I had to experiment with it. I searched for the memory I needed before it was stored in my long-term memory and carefully removed it from my mind, leaving a void inside. I just forgot, forced it out of my mind. When I emerged, I saw the droid looking at me with its sensors and continued the experiment:

- You showed me-" I wondered. And really, what did the droid show me? It felt like a presqueeze-the word was stuck on the tip of my tongue, as I bluntly couldn't say it. I couldn't remember it. Prescuu is the kind of state a person can have when they have forgotten a word, miffed in conversation. I understood that the droid had shown me some tool, I could even tell that he had used the first manipulator to do it, but... I couldn't remember, like a white stain on the fabric of my memory.

- I don't remember," I said. - Give me a hint.

- You made that tool yourself," the droid said. I only made the scanner and cutter myself. Scanner or cutter? I couldn't remember, even with the hint.

- What tool?

- The cutter," he said, "are you having trouble remembering? Broken cells? Maybe testing would help?

- No, Erdva," I said, smiling, "testing won't help here. I'm perfectly fine! All right, take your instructions. Stop watching Tosi's tent now, in the morning you'll tell us we had memories that we consensually disowned. Nothing more. You can also tell us that there shouldn't be a problem learning about Juyo now!

- Aye, Captain! - Erdva said, and redirected the sensor toward the forest.

Toshi was lying on her sleeping bag, getting ready for bed. I could not knock, for there was nowhere, so I asked loudly enough:

- Toshi! May I come in?

- Come in, Henia," the girl sighed from the other side. I was about to do the most incredible thing by Jedi standards...

- Master," I began, ducking down as I entered the tent. Toshi sat down on the sleeping bag, turning her attention to me," I don't even know where to begin.

- Do you want to talk about your problem? - Boredly she asked.

- About our problem," the teacher turned a little pink at these words, "and you're no longer a girl who blushes when someone says things like that, but..." I threw an expressive look at her powdered face.

- Is it that obvious? - she asked excitedly.

- Yes. I... I could offer you an option that you would probably refuse.

- Oh, you would? I wonder if you're up to something indecent. - she flashed her eyes at me. - Mind you, the laws...

- I know the laws. And the rules and the customs. The beauty of any law is that you can get around it.

- Oh, yeah? How?

- I'm pretty good with memory," I hinted thickly. - Enough to erase a memory without a trace.

- Me, too?

- Considering that working with your own consciousness isn't much different from working with someone else's..." I stretched out.

Toshi thought for a moment, and then blushed thickly. I sat opposite in the seizure pose and gathered my courage to continue:

- I think you know what I'm suggesting. It's a little strange, of course... especially against the rules of the Order, but... I don't see any other way out, unless I leave the planet.

- You could leave," she said. - There's enough money from selling the skins to...

- And you'll go to a brothel? - I asked her bluntly. Obviously, she was more than squeamish about the representatives of the oldest profession. - At least we are not strangers to each other...

The girl was in a state of affect, it is obvious, as the next phrase was devoid of logic and sense:

- But the rules of the Order forbid...

- The rules of the Order do not expressly forbid it. All the more so that an adult teacher would not seduce a young pupil, which is not our case. I... I do think," I threw a tentative fishing pole with my hand on her shoulder, which made Toshi flinch, "that it would be better this way. For both of us. Especially since you won't be able to remember anything, and you won't have to lie.

- Are you... are you sure about this? - Togruta had the most contradictory feelings. I realized that it was a yes, so I said yes, and immediately moved closer to her, removing all my mental restraints and taking her lips to my lips. A few seconds later she answered me, and a minute later we were pulling each other's clothes off.

It was unlike anything else, whether in this life or in the previous one-after I had removed the shields, I felt just an animal instinct that was beating and demanding a woman. When I saw Togruta's breasts and her sculpted but rather graceful abs, I completely lost control of myself, simply cutting the lacing on her pants with a small blade and pulling them down. Tosi helped me by lifting herself up. She wore no underwear, and it started very quickly. So sexy Toshi was finally mine.

That's when you especially feel like a man-it's after sex. One time was not enough for either her or me, and the first contact was followed by two more, then with a short break, during which she talked to me about something, we changed position, although it was not very comfortable on the hard sleeping bag.

We didn't feel completely exhausted and satisfied with each other until it was light out. Tosi, collapsing on top of me and breathing heavily, said as soon as she took a breath:

- It's a pity...

- What?

- I wish I'd remembered something," Toshi looked at me in a different way, and reached out and kissed me passionately. After we'd kissed for a while, I answered:

- "I'm sorry, too. But memories are not the main thing. The important thing is that now we can be ourselves, and not two sex-crazed men and women...

- That's right," the teacher said sadly. - How will you erase the memory?

- It would require that you trust me, teacher," I said, but got an unexpected answer:

- And this is coming from the man who is lying on top of me, what a world it is going to be.

- I mean total trust, Master.

- Yes I trust you, I trust you.

- In that case we'd better get dressed.

We got dressed rather quickly. Tosi was out of her mind:

- What have you done with my pants? - she was indignant. - How am I going to wear them now?

- I shrugged, though I was a little guilty-I'd jumped on her like a hungry animal on prey... maybe I'd done something else wrong.

The teacher went to wash off the traces, and then, dressed, returned to the tent.

- What should I do?

- Sit across from me," I said briefly, and so formally, as if we hadn't just given ourselves to each other many times.

She sat down, and I put my hand on her head and went into a trance. I could feel someone else's consciousness as well as my own, and I was sure it would work. I was able to connect with her mind by force... I couldn't resist looking at how it looked from her side... and almost flew out of my mind - such untainted emotions, and when we started the first time, the sensations were simply enchanting! I did not know that women are so, not for nothing Tosi woke up the whole neighborhood, if only someone had the idea to sleep near the camp in the woods! As soon as predators did not run to the noise ...

One by one the memories were blanketed in a white haze of oblivion-from the moment I knocked on the tent to the moment I put my hand on her temple. It was no use connecting to the Montarals-they had no midichlorians, no power. Almost none. After a moment's final tweaking, I put her to sleep, and Toshi fell asleep sitting up. Now it was my turn-it was much easier than with Toshi-I trusted myself completely. If Toshi had offered a little resistance, I would have been thrown out of my mind.

Strange... what was I doing in the teacher's tent? And why is she asleep, and sitting across from me? It gets weirder and weirder...

I laid the teacher on her bed, figuring we were just practicing meditation and fell asleep... or some power ability of the force caused temporary amnesia and sleep. But nothing could have happened, could it? My intuition was silent. And I wanted to sleep monstrously, so I put the girl, who never woke up, covered her with the blanket and went back to sleep. In the morning, a surprise message from Erdev awaited us. Toshi didn't know what it was about, and she scratched the tip of her lekku pens thoughtfully and decided that if it was so, then so be it... though she had vague doubts in her heart...