Momentary madness

I have never felt such intense anger before. I have felt fear, betrayal, heartbreaks, and everything in between, even annoyance and anger, but none of my emotions have ever been this intolerable. I can feel it consuming every last bit of sanity. I can't control my tears. I can't stop my body from shaking. I can't remember where I was, or what was I doing, or even point out what made me this angry. 

It's just a lot of jumbled, confusing, overwhelming feelings I can't put into words. 

My room and everything around me should give me comfort. They have managed to decorate the room very similarly to my old bedroom. It should feel like home, but it doesn't. At one point, I kneel on the floor and start sobbing. Everything inside me melts and flows like a wild river. My chest feels tight, so tight that I cannot breathe.