Don't you worry, this ain't new!

That first date was only the beginning.

In the passing months, Y/n had graduated high school and starting attending college. Nami had decided she wanted to explore, becoming an international student studying abroad. Senju and Y/n decided to live on campus sharing a dorm, much to Sanzu's protest. He had pleaded with Y/n to move in with him instead. She wasn't having it.

"Your place is like a frat house, all those guys living there. I want the chance to be on campus and I'll be with Senju! I'm still in the city. It's not like I'm moving out of town or away forever."

Away forever. She said those words as a way to reassure me but now all I can think about is her moving on, and moving away...forever. That hurts so much. If I had my own place, would she move in with me? Should I start looking at apartments? She'll be around so many people. So many people I don't know. She'll make more friends. She'll meet a new guy. Would my sister even tell me if Y/n was cheating on me? Would Y/n tell me? Would Y/n do that? No she loves me. I promised her I'd give her the world, she'll give me the chance to do that right?

"What're you studying Y/n?" Mikey had asked over breakfast at the Bonten home one morning.

"Criminal justice." Y/n said with her head held high and a toothy smile on her face.

"Criminal justice huh?" Ran had asked with an eyebrow raised.

"Hell yeah, I'm going to be the best defense attorney Tokyo's ever seen."

"Well shit, I'll be sure to have your number on speed dial." Koko laughed.

She's so busy with school work. Is it really schoolwork or is she just sick of me? You've seen her grades, obviously she's doing her schoolwork. She's just distancing herself so leaving me will be easier. No, no, it's college I don't know the first thing about college. I'm sure she really is as busy as she says she is. I need a refill on this Xanax, maybe some more percs too. It's so hard to fall asleep without her here with me so yeah I'll grab some of those too. They're just to help me sleep. The Xanax calms my nerves. I need them because I don't have her here. If she was around more I wouldn't need them. Once she gets over this on-campus living bullshit I won't need them anymore.

For months Y/n balanced life, just as she always did. School, Senju, social events with the friends they made at school, mom, and Haru. Everything was perfect; it was difficult and she wanted to rip her hair out sometimes over deadlines for assignments. But she just worked through all of it, smile on her face because shit could be worse.

Unknown to her it was worse. Haruchiyo's admiration to pain killers and anti-anxiety medication had turned into addiction. He hid it well from her. She didn't notice when he'd sneak into the bathroom to snort another pill because he'd clean his nose out before getting back to her. Bonten was climbing in rank and growing in numbers so he never ran out of money, never stopped taking care of himself. His tolerance was high so he never really acted out of character. He was a functioning addict. Unless he started drinking, which he often did. He'd get sloppy and wake up the next morning not remembering the night before. Y/n often had to tell him the trouble he had started, the embarrassment he caused, the things he said.

He always had the same excuses, "I just over did it." "I don't know my limit sometimes." "I shouldn't have mixed liquors." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "It won't happen again."

If we were at home, YES HOME, that wouldn't have happened Y/n. If we had just stayed in my room on my bed all weekend I wouldn't have had the chance to embarrass you in front of your "friends". They aren't your friends, you know that right? What did I do with that pill bottle? They don't have your best interest in mind. I do. I love you so much and I just want to protect you from the world. I see the worst of it, the worst kinds of people doing the most unimaginable shit so just let me protect you from it. I swear I left it right here. But you'd rather be with them all those fake friends at those stupid fucking bars. Or "studying" whatever the fuck you're actually doing I have no clue. You're really picking them over me? When we agreed we're soulmates? WHERE THE FUCK ARE MY MEDS?! Empty. Empty. Empty. I really need to reup already? I'm going to be fucking sick.

Y/n spent that weekend taking care of Haruchiyo. He had a fever and cold sweats. He looked so pale, dark bags under his eyes. He was vomiting and having trouble staying asleep. I think he has the flu. Please don't let me get sick, I have that lecture on Tuesday I can't miss. I hope he feels better soon, I don't want to leave him like this.

"I need some fresh air Y/n. I'll be right back, just stay right here." Haru went out to the drive way to grab a new bag of Percocet and Xanax. Y/n just thought it was a 24 hour bug; Haru was back on his feet in no time.

"You wanna stay with me for the week dollface?"

"I wish I could Haru but I have a really busy week. I gotta help Senju study and I just focus better in my dorm."

"When can we have a vacation?" Sanzu fell on top of Y/n on his bed in a dramatic act. Smile on his face because he finally had those drugs in his blood stream again.

"I just need you to be patient, okay? I'm going to be really busy the next couple of months. Not just regular assignments, I have exams coming up. We can do something when I get my semester break, I promise."

I am so fucking sick of her excuses. They're not excuses she's busy. Yeah well she can be busy here.

"I gotta drop you back off at your dorm now."

"Already?"

"Yeah. Mikey's got a job for me to do. You're not the only one who's busy around here." he teased, telling only half the truth.