THE MEMORY

Dwayne pov

I stood in a crowded room, drink in my hand and kerry in my head , every now and then Jordan will refill my drinks , Talking about some girl he fucked , not exactly my cup of eat.

What did you two talk about when I left you earlier?, " nosey Jordan asked referring to when we met kerry before she run off to God knowns where ….

She.. she kiss me and " I pause as I chuckled with the last words she said before running off

"Fuck you Dwayne Emanuel Alexander" , she curse and God dammit those words came out of her mouth looking hot and fucking sexy but on serious note what the fuck happen? ,.what the fuck does she mean? and where the fuck did she go ?

She what ? , " Jordan asked

She …"

Hey fuck-up , dip-shit , " a female voice interrupted me and I look in the direction where the voice came from and saw Michelle, who was looking angry, she was about 7 feet away , oh am safe ..

Who is she talking, " I question Jordan who was grinning as he look at her .

Most likely "you" ..

No way , that was too rude , " I said and look in her direction again she was coming more close , and things no longer looks safe , not like I am afraid of a girl but if she only wanna fight am gonna have to bear it all , she looks like she knows karate, and I can't hit a girl , plus it can't be me she is talking to, " is she" ?

Are you talking to him ? , " I question as play boy Jordan probably makes the girl angry, am pretty sure he didn't satisfy her , well poor thing..

No am talking to you. Ass-wash , " she said again as she takes another step , now we are standing just a feet away from each other ,

I nodded my head showing i understand but really i don't , have I offended her in the past .. I don't recall anything though.

I think you should have this , tho i don't think you deserve it , " she said while rolling her eyes as she held a notebook infront of my face ..

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Kim pov

We reach mom. Kevin, Ava, kimmie her babe Terry , kesha and Amanda , who was laughing at something Kimmie was saying.

I introduce Deepak to mom and my other siblings and i was thanking god so much that Dad wasn't here today.., I remember how much Jamol went through Dad hands every time , jim came to visit me , which was like every day …"

Everything was awkward, well for me only , first of all , i didn't find a name for Deepak and I relationship, as most of my siblings who was grinning at me , knew about Deepak , mom was also smiling like it was the most happiest thing that happen today for her …"

Deepak it's a pleasure meeting " she said as she smile , Deepak and her shake hands smiling at each other pleasantly

The pleasure is mine ma'm " He said kissing her hands , which was at his lips and I roll my eyes , he can be such a gentleman but can also be very annoying , however now i understand why…"

He shake hands with each one of them, he and mom talks like old friends, well they kinda are , mom and Deepak use to chat , as she check up on me from him , I know it's weird concerning I was 6 feet away from here. She could have come to me But it was because i didn't talk much , I got frustrated quickly and stay in my room most of the times.

Soon after , Kevin, kimmie and Ava left .

Leaving me with mom, Amanda and Deepak.

Are you sure your okay my child? ," mom questioned him

Am fine mother , " Deepak said as I frown.

Okay but if there is anything, you can—"

Mom , kim broke up with me , can you believe it !! , " Deepak said as he lowered his head dramatically like a girl would do when her boyfriend broke up with her , I wanted to laugh but at the same time I was annoyed.

There is no way I believe such things, son are you sure , we are talking about the same kim ?" mom questioned, aboslutely loving how dramatic Deepak could be , she loves dramatic and Deepak known it as sometimes I talk about my family but it's a secret, all those times I spent in my room wishing to hate them I missed them and talking about them made me happy though I didn't show it …

Mom , son 'the words sink in as I frown .

You know my daughter isn't the only option there–there are many other girls out there , " mom said as of it was intentional to hurt me , which doesn't .

But I only want her !! , " Deepak said

Oh , how cute , but really that means he won't give Deepika a chance , this guy !!

I clear my throat to get there attention but no one looks at me .

Ohk, "I said wispher to myself , walking pass mom , Deepak held my hands without looking at me giving mom his full attention.

They talks as if am not here , Deepak complain about how I block him from socialmedia and his number on my phone, mom scold me, Deepak define me and told mom , she doesn't have to scold me.

No need mom , kim and I already made up in fact , I was planning on taking her with me , for Rohan wedding in Mumbai, " Deepak said and I frown when did I agree to it …

Mom look at us surprised as Deepak smile devilishly as he look at me to hide it from mom.

Did she agree?, " mom asked surprised in her voice as in her face.

"No" he answered before I could answer.

I don't think Dad would allow me to leave and I think mom should do the same , " I said in Low voice as I look at Deepak.

Mom I would love you to rethink your decision," he requested.

Am yet to met the groom" I said to distract them, hoping mom won't think about agreeing to sent me with him, not that she would but I can't trust that , mom trust Deepak too much.."

Hmm , yeah , let us go. " he said as he kiss mom hands again to leave.

I see you later mom , " he said in a soft voice and mom nod.

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What were you doing back there? , " I question unable to hide my annoyance

Asking permission to take you with me, " he replied casually.

There is no way I would leave with you , " I said .

Deepak look at me but then turn away silence great us he took me to met his elder brother and his mom .

His mom didn't smile or acknowledge my present but Rohan was friendly.

Nice to met you .

Same , congrats on the wedding, " I said as we shake hands but didn't lose it , now that we are close , i have to admite he looks so much handsome like Deepak .

The next moment my hands were yank back to some where else as Rohan hands slipped out of mine .

What? , " I asked as I turn to look at Deepak, he was holding my hands as he glare at Rohan. I turn to look at Rohan , he had both if his hands up .

He just got married, " Deepak wispher in my ears. However i don't get it .

Author pov .

Jealousy lingers in Deepak heart as he pull kim hands away from his brother.

Though kim was younger, he always sees kim as his , if things did turn out the way it was planned in 4 years she would have been his wife at the age of 16 the would have got engaged and at 18 the would have gotten married.

Deepak was rich and had everything he wanted and at a young age , he knew what he wanted , there are many other girls out there who would do anything to make him their's.

But he chose kim as she was different, however too different that she didn't even love him or his wealth and it kinda make him piss off , however as a good friend he is , he will stay friends with her. However that doesn't mean his feelings change or that he doesn't get jealous.

He wispher a reminder in her ears , that his brother is already married. However she doesn't understand.

Kim, i wanna invite you to my wedding in Mumbai, I hope you will be there, " Rohan said in a friendly manner.

I will have to asked my parents permission first , am not sure Dad will agree , " kim said to Rohan who was grinning at her .

Rohan wedding is to be hold in Mumbai in hindú, plus his other business associates in his company and other companies will be there too .

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Dwayne pov

Jordan asked Michelle for a dance and like other girls she fall into Jordan charm, which is something i can't understand. Am sure every girl in town he had probably been with , that dude can't keep his damm dick in his pants .

I look down at the notebook in my hands .

The first page i turn I saw

"KERRY ALEXANDER"

Seems like she really likes my title, as much as she likes me …"

I am not going to read it now …"

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6th September 2023.

Kim pov

It has been a sixteen days since the wedding. It's had been a week since i had last seen Deepak, after the wedding we met once at bartica, he was leaving that same day.

It's has been nineteen days since i had last seen Yang ..

Panting for breath , i stop running, I have been running for almost two hour now , every now and then I stop to take a break ,

Cover in sweat I turn to go to the seat and pick up my phone which is playing music, earpod in my ears as i listen to_-_ shaggy and Alkaline _-_that love.

Cold wind blows in the air , am on the ballfield , which is a 1 mile from our house , it's hard for anyone to see me here too as bush surroundedhe place ever since levon left, this place hasn't clean , alone I run for hours with no distraction.

The boys don't play cricket or football, like the use to as they are pretty busy ..

Mom and Dad suggested i go out of my room more often , so here i am , Amanda, Delissa and Elijah is at school , Amy is definitely making someone miserable, I also need fresh air and to run out of these thoughts about what Deepak said , yea i know , i need to move on. But i don't exactly needs friends, I love being alone and i think it is because i spent the last few years alone .

However being alone isn't bad as being in a crowded room with no one who cares about your existence. Am not talking about my family , am talking about my classmates.

I think about what he said but am not gonna do it and i think he knowns that pretty well.

Am not sure I would get to see yang again I miss him little stars please fullfeil his wishes even if he wish just to be loyal to her and love only her for they rest of his life please do as get wanted an keep him happy please.

i don't wanna keep thinking about him so , I start doing things to forget him , like dancing , exerciseing , watching k-drama more often ,write songs and draw thing , I secretly dance and only infornt the kids but only slowy dance , sometimes me and the little boys dance together, both of kevin sons like dancing but I still wanna do it in front of Yang and sing for him and all of those things..i want him to notice me .. I want him to like me.

( what the heck !! "NO" I DON'T !!!…"

I want him to see that I am not like her. I always tell myself I am not good enough, but I hope I am enough for him,

( whatever I don't care if i look like a monkey infront of him!!,

Today I wanted so badly to visit him but I gave up , I lay on my bed and think of how things could have been if he have like me too and i remember why i left they last time, why i even do things to distract myself and I decided to go out and here I am , running, running away from him the thoughts of what it would have been like , if only"

It's almost 5 now , am sure the kids is already home since 4 , am sure soon the would be here .

I sat under the tree that looks like a Christmas tree as the wind blows , i caught as mush air into my system and I started to run again…

I wore a black pants and a blue top that is designed with flowers , with a blue booths, my hair tied in one, with my bangles set at the conner of my face.

I ran and ran , wishing i could run and forget it all, the time i saw them together, the time lovie said goodbye , the time i saw my parents fight, there is alot more but most of all I wanna forget i saw yang together with another.

I run and ran for a few minutes, everytime my heart beats faster it reminds me of yang , and how hard it beat that my chest hurt alittle , how loud it was that i couldn't hear anything, how weak my knee turn , how sweaty my palms turn, how hard it was to stand one place.. how breathless i felt, how hard it was to caught my breath, how hot the temperature just developed, How lost i felt in that dark black eyes…"

After running I realized the kids didn't come ,so i decided to head home , i run again , right down the hill and stop to wash my face at the river, after washing up , I run up another hill and saw where Levon house was , at the back was a old jeep instead of going home I decided to watch the sun set up there , the jeep has been here ever since we first came to live here 7 years back.

I climbed up until i reached up top, I sat and look ahead , memories came creeping back to my head,

Kim , kim can you climbed up there, " Kendall asked .

Hmmm,

But i can't, " little Mary said.

It's okay , kim and I can help you up , " Kendall said as she was the eldest, she was older for me by one year and i was older for mary by 5 months.

We're little girls , we're inseparable, we share everything, we help each other and we hide things for each other .

Got ya, " I said as I held Mary hands as Kendall lift her up a bit from behind her.

We try and try until we got her up , we lay on the car top and sigh relief and then turn to each other and laugh ,

[Looking back we use to laugh at anything and everything]

Kim , do you have anyone you like ," Kendall asked .

[We use to laugh at anything and everything]

I.. ah .. I think .. I do .." I remember, i blush real hard, shy taken over me as i look away. .

Who is he ?? , " mary asked .

Do you have someone you like ? " i asked instead ignoring Mary question.

Yea , I do , he is really handsome but …"

But what , I asked as she made a sad face .

he is jamol james ? " mary said as she look at me to know my reaction.

My breath stuck in my throat, or whenever it was i didn't know. Shock has taken over me. .

Really , i asked.

Hmm , mary you like talk, by the way she likes him too. " Kendall said as she look at me without knowing she stabing me in my chest.

You too , " I asked as I look at both and the nod her head .

Apart of me fell apart , while another part relief, I don't have to chose , because there is only one available…" However, the last time Jamol left was romantic , he wispher lovely words to my ears., call out to me saying something I didn't hear , the next day i woke up late , he was already at the river in a boat as he look at me for a few moments…"

But he likes me , he told me so , " Kendall said and mary roll her eyes.."