MY YANG
This story is about the Alexander's siblings. Dwayne Alexander's POV Can you just give us another chance please " I pleaded no!' you don't love me enough " she sobs kerry , I do love you " I said in a trembling voice ,how can she thinks I don't. no!' you don't as everytime something comes up you always give up on us " kerry sobs it's true, I hate to admit, I did give up everytime but I wanna make it work now. and I do anything to make her forgive me ... ______ As the night falls and the rain begins to fall Just like the first time they met, in Kim's heart it was romantic. But in her mind it was tragic as whatever falls gets broken. A young man who is in his early twenties and a young lady who is in her teens , stood face to face in the rain looking at each other silently–suddenly, someone broke the silence Yang, i have nothing to say to you .. goodnight and goodbye, " said the young lady in a tired and hurt voice as she called the guy by the nickname she gave him before she even knew his real name, Then she walked away ,but the young man held her hands and pulled her back and said while looking at her eyes . No, we are not done talking, and you're not allowed to walk away without answering me !! , " He said, then add . And I'll ask you again ?”..Why did you go when I asked you to stay ?” .Why do you always run away from me ?” What is wrong, Kim ?”, " the young man asks, annoyed She young lady look look at him with a pain expression on her face even tho her lips had a smile on it and even tho the rain was falling on could still see her eyes were looking as if it would soon begin to flow like the rain She then said with a smirked Do you really not know?” ,Did you ever not know ?? the young man nodded his head The young lady finally had enough as it had been 8 months and decided to confess. Yang , I love you, ever since i first saw you and i can't–do this anymore I have been doing it long before..hoping you would be mine one day, but it never works out Pretending to be your friend it's not easy but I try and I try to forget my feelings and live with you but I guess maybe I should have learned to live without you.” She said then sighed inwardly knowing that it was a bad idea to tell him I did live without you for those few months but then there you go again .. you made things a lot harder when you came back and we became friends and now you're going again Yang, I had enough. You can't keep going and coming out of my life like that. The young man was shocked by the sudden confessions and said nothing like he was in another world . Kimanda looked at him for a while , and when he didn't say anything, she asked , " Can i atless kiss you ?? , without waiting for his reply, she walk up to him with all the courage she had and their lips met It was so sudden that even before Yang could come out of his shock ,then comes another one Kimanda suck and nibbled his lower lips as she had always wanted too as she knew this might be the first and the last time she ever got the chance to , so she took her time even though she wanted more she let go of his lips and looked into his shocked eyes. ----- VOl1 = That stranger that became my everything from nothing, Kim Alexander is a young girl who lost her sister , her best friend,her comfort zone , her idol , her advisor, her protector. Lost in grief, she lost hope , she had lost her world., dream and hopes when lovie lost her life , her friends betrayed her. In two years nothing but fear grows in her heart , she gets distant to her family and everyone she once loved. She don't wanna have that pain of losing someone else and she realizes that everyone who comes will leave eventually. At the age of 13 she falls in love with a stranger who is much older than her , fear crumpled in her heart but still it beats for him. Despite the fear , she went ahead and loved him wholeheartedly . She did secretly for months until she told him but he left anyways
LIFE IS UNFAIR & SO IS LOVE
But he likes me , he told me so , " Kendall said and mary roll her eyes .
I bit my lips so it won't tremble,
What about your's , what is his name?, Kendell asked.
Is it Elwyn Evens ? " mary asked as if she knew everyone , who has a crush on each other , I hope that she didn't tell me she liked him too .
I turn my face emberessed and disappointed, sad and disbelief.
Looks she is definitely shy , " Kendall said to mary
Kim , why are you always shy when we asked about that , " mary asked reminding me about the time i jump through their window to get away when the asked that infont of jamol .
She is not use to it , mary , " Kendall said as she smile slys
So is he Elwyn?, your best friend?, isn't he a year younger then you? , is he that handsome?, does he likes you too ?, " Kendall asked in one breath .
Slow down ken, kim isn't going anywhere again and she is definitely answering. , " mary said .
Yeah , he is Elwyn, he is my bestfriend, he is indeed a year younger , he is cute , but I–i don't know if he likes me , " i answered .
You never told him , you like him ? " Kendall asked and mary shake her head.
She is too shy to say it but she hopes he stay single until she can confess , " mary said as a 9 year old she already had a guy that she likes infact she already had her first kiss , well it was a simple peck on her lips ..
Which is still kiss to me considering that i never had it …"
[ No , i was too shy to say but i hope he did stay ] however he didn't .
Kim , if you don't confess, someone else will snatched that cute little guy , " Kendall said and mary frown for some reason but i smile anyways , that was the first time I talk about my feels with anyone ,
Unknown to me that one month later i could caught the new girl in school on my bestfriend, my crush.. I never thought this would happen…"
"Kendall " those words still fall out of my mouth with pain , hate , and envy..
[Despite everything 'i miss them, and everything]
We're little girls and we were inseparable.
We had no idea we could turn out this way , mary is in town región 3 and Kendall is in región 5 and i am in región 10 , despite the distance, we had our phone number but when they try to reach out to me , I barely said one word or two and ignore the rest.
After a while the stop trying to reach out to me and it was okay…"
Elwyn , Kendall and Mary betrayal hurt more , when they pretend nothing happens, when the hide the truth , pretend to care about me , pretend, pretend and then talks about how I can't fit in there group , talks about how navie i am. Talks about what a fool I am , and how i can't get a boyfriend because of god knows what ,they even said things infront of jamol when i was around , I wonder what they tell Elwyn when i wasn't there .."
Tears roll down my cheeks as I watch the sun set , i cry alot , before the pain was bearable because I use to feel like crying but i didn't let it happened. I laughed and talk with them , hoping they open up , I even asked about there first kiss but they all call names i didn't know …"
Now years after, memories flow and I cry , after crying for lovie any little thing could make me cry , and that betrayal wasn't a little thing ..
Too many things happen in those years , i have had betrayals after betrayals, I have lost someone important to me , I have lost my bestfriend selena because of distance, i have lost most of my friends because of it , many people didn't like me , some didn't appreciate me , some thinks i didn't fit in , some find all my flaws and use it against me , I learn that mom and Dad still fights , i learn that Ava and kevin relationships isn't simple as it seems , I learn that levon wife is a cheater , and I learn that Amanda have a crush on Elwyn …and i learn that i can't trust anyone , I learn that
"promise are just a comfort to a fool" which i believe, she promise but she couldn't keep it , so God decides to take her …"
I heard that people leaves as they came , which is not true , they came as a stranger but left as a part of you …"
I learn that growing isn't easy and am not ready to face it at all …"
Life is unfair and so is love…"
I know what Deepak said makes sense but i don't want anyone else in my life , life goes on , whether we are alone or not , i don't need anyone but my family. I can watch yang from afar after all , am only obsessed with his beauty right . We may never see eyes to eyes again but that is alright …"
I sat up and look around , no one knowns am here , this is what I like about being home on this Island, it's silence, the nature is beautiful, the tress, brids and all other animals, many would say this place is boring or too silent but honestly this is exactly what i need , time alone…"
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I went home , straight at the beach ' I don't want anyone to see my face as i cry alot and i'm aware of what it looks like …"
Amanda and Amy came , the suggest we play a game , we play catcha on the beach, running round and round , Amy is catching us , laughers fill the air with happiness…
Later that evening, we were tired, we lay on the beach the sun was already down , the place was already dark ,
We take photos, then we saw Dwayne, on the bridge, he was talking on his phone while Aaron sat across him with a devilishly smile.
I turn and look at him when something click in my mind.
Wayne ! , can you take out photos with us, I asked Dwayne nod then put his phone down as we walk to them , we took a few photos .
Cheese!!!, " we all said together as we smile , then i took out a few with Dwayne alone , then Dwayne took one with me and Aaron , Aaron lift me off the ground in his hands .
Watch the babe get the mother like she is the babe !! " Amanda said and we laugh as those memories came back in the past , Aaron and i was so close and we use to play babe and mama, I use to have to feed him like he was the babe , while he try hooking me up with Jamol saying he needs a dad ….
Hehe, we laugh , Dwayne took the photos , while he play a music…
Na leave ma , na leave ma gave me another chance,
Babe ,babe, babe , see how far we come from..
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The boys are doing push up , I try too , I have been there, done that but couldn't get it right … i always fall flat on my stomach after two ..
They say the are working on there apps, they said girls like that and the show me theirs , but really I found nothing special about that , does that mean am not a girl?...
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.13 the September 2023 ]
Dear- Diary
I missed him a lot. I hope somewhere in his heart he feels the same way..
[16 th September 2023]
Dear- as i spend this lonely night without you, i just want you to know i miss you !!
[18 th September]
It has been a month i miss you !!
(kimanda wrote with tears in her eyes )
[20 TH SEPTEMBER 2023]
My dear it has been a month and a few days i miss you
since i have stop looking for you on the road,
in the store ,
in my dreams in my heart
i hope you live well
our relationship end before it even started
.사랑 해요 YANG .
>21st September 2023]
Dear = Yang
I miss you, but i won't look for you. i will just be here writing you, isn't it love, or i was just blind by your beauty or your mysterious ways you look at me …
23rd September 2023
I miss you, i went to visit you but i search an search for you but i never found you ,it seem that you have been replaced in the store , where are you?.
Are you ok?.
are you coming back or you have gone home for good?. is this the end or just there they cut until we met again like every movie we have watch.... i am sad , i stay up late thinking about you wondering when am i going to meet you again and how I am going to meet you again and where?. i couldn't stop thinking !.
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Dwayne pov
God dam woman!!. you in hear what i said ??, " Dad said irritated as he follow mom to the kitchen leaving us in the living room..
Taste it !, " mom said.
Hm, good but if you put more spices and this, like this…long pause …taste now , " Dad said again.
It's good ,." Mom said in aww
Not the answer i deserve , " Dad said in a flirting tone.
It's delicious, okay now , " mom said
More like it , " Dad said .
Today Dad made a special order of what he wants to eat for dinner as usual.
Mom is a great cook but with dad around she always makes some mistakes, i think she just wants dad in the kitchen with her , Dad and mom had been together for more then twenty years , Dad knew mom all her life, and mom just loves it when dad cooks no judgment we all do but truly if you have to cook for someone everyday for twenty years , won't you know what the person like . However I admire their relationship and I always wanted one like that , trust me , mom and Dad can bark at each other like cat and dog but by the end of the day , dad would come and flirt with mom and then apology.
How is things going with the work? " i asked kevin , as it's been a while since i have been to work .
Good , we are now working on the roof , " kevin said .
Oh , " I said when i left they were working on the house fram.
After we are done there, we are going to work on a building in SOFIA POINT.
What kind of building?
Well they want us to build a pravit school." kevin said and i nod
Are you going to be available to work with us ? " he asked and I nodded again , sofia point is just a few miles away from us , on the same island as it is a very big island , the are only one house there on Sofia point and it's a very big green house with flowers infront, tress surrounded it making it looks more natural , like it belongs there , God it's beautiful.
But was it more beautiful then
Kerry ?
Hell no !
However this is what I need more time working , life goes on doesn't it ?.
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Tonight i read a familiar letter from kerry. It was at the back of her notebook, I never found the courage to open her book but then that letter falls out and the little courage i had have drained out completely.
Dear-waynee
I couldn't sleep last night knowing that we are over .
I cry the enter night until 3 am thinking about it.
I mean everything was good , so fucking good that not even God was enough to break it but "fuck" you made a whore broke it , broke everything we had.
I never thought this day would come , when i would wake up one morning and instead of receiving message saying "good morning beautiful,
I woke up and I pick up my phone and there was message from rohan asking
-what the hell were you thinking when you agree to the engagement"
I stumbled apone the memories of what happen yesterday and tears took over my face.
Betrayal shattered my heart and i felt like I was trained and i completely lost control of everything.