OUR FIRST DANCE

Do not remind me about her, " Dwayne said as he poured his lips out .

My adorable brother , what happen between you and kerry ? , " I question .

She ….Long Pause as he zoom out ,he is here infront of me but his mind was somewhere else .

Out of nowhere a hard voice came and interrupted what –Dwayne was still in his head so , I guess it wasn't actually interruption

Would you like to dance ? ," Deepak asked out of nowhere I turn around to look at him surprised,as I didn't think he would come up with something like this , was he even thinking, God did you give him such a big head with no brains or did Satan stold it .

What ? , " I asked not that I didn't heard him ,

I told my brother I would dance at his wedding.

Well yea you did but what that gotta do with me .

But you just finished dancing, " I said

Kim 'a special dance with a special person would makes it better for a special person "he said till now I notice the spot light was on us

Oh , God I have another question for you , were you so focused on yang that you forgot about Deepak?, did you forget he needed a brain? .

He put out his hands and I turn to look at Dwayne begging him with my eyes , begging him to help me , but he just look away .

Brother and I…" I was just about to use Dwayne as a excuse but he interrupted.

You should go , " he said and I frown as Deepak chuckled a little and said thanks , probably to Dwayne as I still haven't took his hands .

Dwayne walk away as Jordan came and give me a sheepish smile and left with Dwayne.

I frowned then turn to look at Deepak who was grinning sheepishly too , making me frown more .

I never dance in front of people except my siblings and they all know I am bad at it ,

Deepak took a step closer to me not too close however close enough that I could smell the perfume he was using, however it didn't matter .

Princess .. do you enjoy breaking my heart ? , " Deepak asked as if he was hurt and it made me felt guilty, Deepak smile and said it was okay as he was about to pull his hands away I snatched it ..

Just one dance , " I said to myself out loud.

But just to be sure you know am not good at slow dance right , " I question to make sure he knows what he is doing . Maybe then he will give up too.

Just followed my lead cutie pie , ' he said as I frown. Unfortunately he knows pretty well what he was doing .. and that cutie pie , l..

Don't call me that , ' I said as I don't like when he calls me names,

What do you want me to call you then ?

I have a name , " I said

I am pretty sure you know it too , ' I added and Deepak grinned again.

Okay kim ,now focused on me , " he said as he lead me , we are on the dance floor now , I dare not to look at the crowd place , there was no one else on the dance floor besides Deepak and I, well he said it was a special dance for a special person , I will pretend he said only those ..

I get really nervous infront of many people and Deepak knowns that pretty well..

Kim look at me , " he said as he rise my head to look at him as our eyes met , his hazel brown eyes stare at me , soon =Lady in red _-_chris deburg _begun to play .

"I never seens you looking so lovely as you did tonight never seen you shine so bright" , we started to sway away as Deepak took the lead as our eyes met , as I wore a high-heel , Deepak is about 2 feet taller then me .

Lady in red is danceing with me , there is no body here just you and me , "there is beautiful by my side , i will never forget the way you look tonight "

Staring into Deepak eyes , I don't feel lost at all , Deepak is mysterious too but unlike yang they are different,

Deepak, mysterious makes me break up with him , while Yang makes me wanna know more about him ..."

suddenly all I see is a familiar black bright eyes , that sometimes looks like it has Dimonds in it, sometimes looks like full moon with darkness around it but sometimes stars that shine around , I smile or more like blush and am sure I'm red right now , he always made my heart beat faster , sometime makes it skip a beat …"

Yang, he was here , he was dancing with me but I don't feel him , I touched him , he is touching me but I don't feel him , however lost in his eyes , I don't care about anything else, my heart beat faster, he looks so dreamy , like he does in my every dreams with him .

And when you smile you took my breath away , " Deepak wispher , singing in my ears pulling me back to him . Selfish bastard won't let me enjoy my time with Yang, I shake my head , I don't wanna think about yang in fact I don't wanna think about anyone .

Yang is probably with his girlfriend by the way, like it or not my blood boiled with the thoughts of it , helpless i sigh ,

Kim your going in your head again , " Deepak said softly as he kiss my forehead, on the God damm dance floor. I look around and felt like to run and hide in a whold where no one could find me , I came face to face with no other then his mother , oh crap ,however Deepak asked something that left me in a daze .

Is there someone you can't stop thinking about ? ," he asked and I felt his lips touching my forhead as he speaks.

I use " No "

Denial as it's what I want ,not to think about him a stranger.

Are you sure ? , " he asked again and I shake my head lightly not wanting to lie to him but also not wanting to tell him .

Kim , your lying skills has developed, he said as he chuckle lightly .

Are you going to tell me about him , " Deepak asked as I look in his eyes , he seems sincere, calm too calm .

Do I have to tell my ex-boyfriend about a guy I'm interesting, " I question him and Deepak shook his head .

No but answered two questions, " he said and I nodded , what worst can happen, his question would be more like , how old is him , what is his name or something.

Do you like him that much , " Deepak asked taken me by surprise.

What? " I exclaimed.

Do you like him that much .. like do you love him ? " Deepak question with a straight face ,

Do I like him that much ?

Do I love him ? , I am not sure but am not in love right , what can a 14 year old have to do with love , all kids have is childhood sweetheart, crushes and so on but not love , love is a little word with so much meaning. Feelings .but why am i so unsure .

Deepak do you really like when I hurt you , " I teased instead of answering.how can he asked his ex girlfriend about a guy she likes and be comfortable about it , not that we are like that kind of ex's but still , we both know he still have feelings for me..

Kim , you know you can talk to me , " he said and I nodded as I saw sincere in his Amber eyes that stare at me .

Deepak care for me so much but in the end I couldn't return the favor…

Is he taking good care of you? " Deepak asked , I look up at him , first word comes to my mouth was "no" I shake my head lightly.

What , that jerk , did he mistreated you ? , " Deepak asked but I stay quiet not knowing what to say .

Kim , did he say or do something to you , " He asked as tears silently dwell in my eyes as he take my face in his hands to lift my head and our eyes met again .

What did he say ? , " he questioned.

Nothing…"

Kim don't lie to me"

He said nothing okay , he … he .. he …"

He what ? ,kim , " Deepak asked softly but there is a lot under that softness and I felt it when his grips on my wrist tighten .

He is a stranger, he doesn't say anything at all to hurt me and that is what hurt me but how am I to explain that to Deepak…

Have you ever , felt like you wanted someone in your life but still not wanting them at some point again even before having them.." I question instead of answering…

Yes , It's pretty messy but what this gotta do with what I ask you , " he questioned.

I felt like I want him in my life but then seeing him with her i realized i don't want him , " I said and Deepak smile a little it was a sad one

He pull me into a hug as we still sway away on the dance floor in front of a hundred people but it didn't matter .

Continue, " he whisper softy and I open up , with him I can speak freely, he had been with me for 9 months but it felt like he had known me my whole life , I trust him to tell him anything and everything and he won't judge me, he will understand me and support me , at first I use to force myself to tell him things but now , I could tell him whatever I want ,

I take photos of them , I said in a low voice and Deepak chuckled.

I take it because I felt like I needed it ,somehow it felt useful , I stay awake one night and look at it. I don't know why but I felt like If it hurt, maybe then after learning my lesson. I will have a reason why he should not be in my life ..

Did it work? , " he questioned and I shook my head .

No it didn't , I still want to go back there to see him , I still want to know him , I still want to be at less friends with him , " I said honestly as he spin me out then pulled me back into his arms .

I never wanted anyone other than her , not Elwyn not jamol until I met him, " I said as somehow tears ended up in my eyes again .

But what if he will leave too soon , after all everyone leaves what if he leaves when I need him , what if he become a habit , one that i can't live without, a habit that lives in my heart , what if he becomes the oxygen i needed to breath– no way he can become that in fact he took all the oxygen from in the room whenever he is around . " I didn't say it out loud .

Kim is this about lovie , " Deepak asked and I took a few seconds to nodded my head.

People suddenly started to clap and snack us back to the present where our song is finished.

We bow and then walk off the stage as another song starts but Deepaks drags me away from there .."