Emphaty and Apathy [3/3]

"No matter the time line, the season or the place. I will always love you".

-Steins;Gate

(P.O.V THIRD PERSON)

In the dark room with only the figure of the young white-haired man sitting on his bed and we can see that he is modifying a device that looks like a gauntlet.

Sounds of clicks are heard in the closed room.

Meanwhile a shadow appears in the window.

The shadow slowly starts crawling towards Kaneki.

When it gets close enough the shadow then attacks him wrapping in the darkness.

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(P.O.V Himiko Toga)

"Heeey Darling <3" Jumping on the back of the beloved I play.

"I see Toga has arrived"

He stops his hand for a moment to answer before returning.

Passing my arms around his waist in a hug and supporting my chin on his shoulder I look at what he is doing.

"Urgh how cold, Ne~Ne what are you doing?" I ask a curious question about this gauntlet-like thing.

"It's to calibrate how much strength I let go" he answers my question

"How so?"

"I don't want explosions every time I do techniques and that's what this gauntlet is for."

A light bulb lights up in my head when ideas pass.

"Explosions? How Does All Might?" I wonder when I remember that hero who blows up air with just punches.

"Precisely, I don't have the proper handling to control it, so for now it will take care of this area" he answers confirming my thoughts.

"Hum interesting".

After a few minutes just seeing him messing with this thing I start to get bored.

"Ne~ Darling? Are you thirsty?" I ask as I squeeze my hug and bring my lips closer to his ear expelling warm air.

His hands stop moving and watching his silent behavior makes me pull towards the bed.

Now mounted on your stomach and looking into your silver eyes like the full moon that only stand out with the dim light makes me smile and approach your face.

"You don't have to repress yourself".

My words seem to activate his instinct when he opens his mouth revealing his white teeth.

As he sinks his teeth into the flesh of my shoulder, I feel his jaw squeeze.

Reversing the positions he is now on top of my body as he continues to feed as I pass my arms through his never pulling him closer.

Electric waves run through my body making him bow.

These few moments are special.

In those moments we are connected, just the two of us.

Me and him.

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(P.O.V THIRD PERSON)

(Moments later)

What is love?

According to studies it has to do with Neuroscience, evolution and culture.

Ancient Greece had several words with different meanings.

"Eros" "Philia" "Agape" "Pragma" "Mania" "Filautia" "Storge" "Xenia" "Ludus"

It is a feeling that leads the person to desire what is loved that attracts him/her? or a Tendency or instinct that results in physical and natural attraction.

Something that manifests in the form of physical attraction and is not necessarily reciprocal, an attraction based on sexual desire?

For some it is a social construction, some kind of learning.

For the most nilist it is simply an illusion, only their brain releasing pheromones ago more evolutionary, a biological mechanism.

Or is it something more metaphysical? Something that you only understand when you feel.

A qualia.

There are several questions that circulate around.

Why does the pain hurt? Why are the smells, why are the colors colored? Why do we feel love?

But why do all these questions matter? Why ask yourself, question yourself and try to understand something so abstract.

Why not just love, live, feel, delight yourself in that feeling.

All of Toga's life has been pretended, wearing a mask to hide.

Until the moment she couldn't stand it anymore and simply exploded, releasing everything that was stored.

She had to admit that it was more or less liberating.

The moment she felt the blood for the first time it was as if her world had opened.

Escaping from everything that was holding her, she lived a free life without worries.

That was until that day, the day she met the one she considered most important.

The day she met him she could feel all that hatred and thirst for blood coming out of him.

It was so strong that even something like her who was already accustomed with blood and everything couldn't stop shaking.

She felt like he was a beast, a bloodthirsty beast.

But even with all this he was fighting against it.

As if he was fighting with himself.

Himiko could feel it, that hatred will go like him but at the same time it won't.

Something very strange, that certainly attracted his attention.

This curiosity led her to approach him.

It ended up leading her to something else that she certainly wasn't expecting.

It caught her unprepared that even she herself was surprised.

She fell in love with him the very one she was curious about ended up becoming her passion.

A surprise really, she didn't even expect this coming.

With this and that she ended up staying together with him, in his presence she always felt good and calm.

She ended up perceiving changes in herself, and there was only one explanation for all this.

Her love, love was changing her and she was simply being forced to accept it.

And she was going to use that love to bring love to the one who is loved.

She will fill this 'abyss' of yours with love.

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(P.O.V Himiko Toga)

I catch myself looking at his naked back after our 'love session'. [A/N: No misunderstandings, nothing happened beyond what was mentioned]

After he satisfied his hunger he went to take a bath and came back dressed only with a shorts and started his attention to the gauntlet.

Getting up and putting me in a sitting position I start to trace my fingers between his scars scattered over his body.

I know his ability to regenerate and how ridiculous he is and it makes me doubt how he can have such scars.

From the way they are scattered and how they are it feels as if they were simply deliberately made, something like torture.

Taking my hands in front of him I gently rub his dark red stone that lies in the middle of his chest.

Looking at his face for a moment I ask him a question.

"Do you know what love is? I ask him and watch him stop for a moment while he takes a second to think.

"I have information about" He answers

"Do you feel something with me?" I correct my question to what I expected

"No" he answers in a simple way

Your answer didn't hurt me, I expected something like this.

But just because he denied it is no reason to back down, I just have to make him feel the same.

I move to sit on his legs and look with passion in his silver eyes.

Caressing his cheek with a loving hand I begin to talk to him.

"But I love you, that's a truth".

After finishing my words and without waiting for an answer I take your lips.

I begin to feel as if thousands of fireworks explode at the same time, I feel light while I feel an euphoria.

There is no way to find a term that explains what I'm feeling, something like I'm being embraced by the whole world.

Which makes it true, with it being my world.

Unfortunately I had to end this moment but I felt happy with what I saw.

In his face an expression of surprise is demonstrated.

His gaze changes for an instant while he watches me but immediately disappears when a light red tone takes over his silver iris making him go back to his usual lifeless look.

This alone makes all the hard work worthwhile and I will have to pass.

Resting my head on my chest and looking at the stone in his chest that gained a deeper glow of red.

Tracing my fingers through it I begin to feel my eyes close.

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