Epiphany

It seems I've been looking at things the wrong way.

I have been looking for a purpose, a grand one, he'll even a stupid one I could give my life for.

But that is not how one finds purpose, it is not how one lives.

No one should head down that stupid rabbit hole of endless searching for something that is not there.

I had another dream this one was an odd one but try to keep up.

I was walking for a long time seemingly just admiring the view. Eventually I met this old man at a bench when I sat next to him for a breather, made conversation with me. He was tall just one inch more than me peaking at 6'3". He had brown hair, curly at that. I called him old but he was middle aged at most.

We talked about the little things, the things we don't usually share with strangers like hobbies, types of girls we liked, and what type of candy we enjoyed. What type of games I enjoyed. What exercises we enjoyed the most. Dumb little topics to keep the conversation going.

"BeutIFuL day out, huh" the old man said

"Well yeah I would hope so the park would not be so entertaining while it is raining" I tried to be snarky

"Sure, sure. Now tell me what you are here for." The old man stated, like he knew I was here for some other reason.

"Not sure what you mean by that old man." I tried avoiding the topic

"Son by now you should know damn well why you are here."

"Well I guess so" I sighed and held the bull by its horns

"Tell me old man, how have you made it this far?"

"Well by walking of course."

"You know that was not what I meant."

"Sure I do boy, you asked me how I got here, I got here by walking."

"Ugh, sure enough old people got no tact."

"Son you need to stop talking and start thinking."

"If you say so"

"We got time."

"So you got this far in life by just 'walking'."

"Well of course not I got this far by walking, breathing, eating, and shitting."

"Now you are just being smart with me old man you of course have to do those things to live but what is the meaning of doing those if you got no reason to?"

"D you seem to mistake the way things go, a person usually feels depressed by big reasons, a family member dying, debts, burdens, things that can cripple a man, so in the off chance you need a good reason to live, it don't need to be grand dreams for greatness where you conquer the world it can be in small ladder goals like enjoying a walk, liking the sweets you got from the corner store, to even the games you enjoyed playing."

"'The devil is in the details kid' and that saying goes both ways. Focusing on things too much or too little can duck up a situation or a plan or something. It is up to you how you see things really."

As I thoughtfully processed those "wise" words I felt the old man standing up getting ready to leave. I turned to him.

"Where ya going now?"-D

"Where the wind takes me kid" he looked over his shoulder and with a smiled a tad too wide he talked to me for the last time.

"Try to keep up kid, time waits for no one."-R

Then I woke.

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So I guess that tells me the guideline.

I asked and the universe answered.

Now how to enjoy the small things…..

(Sorry you have to deal with this if you read it)