Class camp

Class camp is for the classes to know each other better. Team building if you want to call it that. The idea is to play games, what everyone participates and they start to know those, who they did not have opportunity to introduce themselves.

The idea is great, but in the first like 2 weeks clicks are built. Like the click of bookworms. The anime watchers. The partying ones. Aaand of course these clicks have 0 intention to even look to the others. So the idea falls here like monster under the bed, who thought, that it was a toe of a girl, but a guy is sleeping next to her.

Yeah, clothing is great, when you are looking like a fragile girl. The skirts has their own perks in the hot sun. That is great, but when a forecast is wrong, you, especially me goes into a tiny something and runs for the radiator. The blue thingy is great, but it does not cover everything. So at 10 celsius at least plus I was shivering.

A guy came to help, that he is always there for a girl in need and gave me a blanket. For sure, girls have their own perks. If they ask why does I have no make-up, I just speak about the pollution of earth. Am I a bad person? I thanked him by the name of Alex, he watched, froze for a minute, then realized. It was priceless. Though score. I thanked him and he went away in confusion, then the hormones worked it out, Alex is a girl, hooking up is an option, nothing happened. I mean I said score, but now I am confused.

Man can be so fast. I mean he adapted and overcame. He might enjoy it. Wtf I am not chickening out, but what if??? Did I just do something girly what made his brain turn???

I have thought about coming out, but what after??? What if someone starts liking me? What if I start liking someone???? Think! Nothing is worse than panicking! Think about things you good at! Guns!!! Guns!!! Those are fallic, males have that, men! Think about men!!! Whaaaat. Now I am... Oh no... So which gender I like? I mean I have both yes great, but the male part works only, puberty has only given the space, not a working one. Oh god Perks and not perks am I being self-concoius? Someone save me!!

Oh, I am over it, it is not like someone likes me or I have breasts or come on what am I thinking again, now I am just too much for myself... Or to, not for? I am forgetting my mother tongue or tounge or ah just get over it.

We packed into rooms. Girls. Everywhere. I have never been a class camp, that is one thing, but in a room with more than 1 girl, who stays more than like knocking and saying, wrong door.

Now there are 5 in this room including ME. Soooo ouch. What will I do?

My big moment, MY big moment has not even started and yet 4 girl will end it before. At least the guys would understand why am I going literally everywhere with a loaded pistol...