Now I am in it...

Yeah, the masterplan started backfiring. To show myself to everyone and advertise something I held deep within, came to a part, where I became conscious about it. My opinion will change about myself too. Also, I have certain reactions, what can cause mass panic, since mostly I viewed the world from the point of a boy and now I am in a room, where most of the boys dreams would come true.

I had to change, I was both sweaty, both full of water. My hair, it grew, so it needs to get washed more frequently and this is a game I can not win. The smallest problem is the biggest, I gut guns and knifes all along my pack, I have get ready for all cases. For me, that means mayor, surreal problems, like kidnapping or whatever.

So I hid everything as I could, MPX sub-machine-gun and grenades intact. And started searching for new bra... Yeeeaaah. Sportsbra is the only option for me, since getting A is going too well for everythimg for me. I used the blue suit to dry most of the skin on my body. Though I did not calculate, that girls have habits, like helping each other. So they came to me with a towel with a smirk on their faces, that now you are the next, you have no chance to run. I was terrified and shocked, that 1 minute was blank for me.

After that, I started to enjoy these things like in camps. We played, it was raining, so inside, laughing and enjoying the time we had. I never had the opportunity for this, so I enjoyed it so much, tears came out. I hid them, but still. A good time, my plan is nearly done, no people laughing at me or have a bad thought, I came out, everyone was like, whaaat, then they just laughed, like it is not real. Yeah. It stayed a "secret".

After that, the obligatory secret drinking party came, we had a good time, thoooouuugh...

No people realize it, they laugh it off. I really was looking everywhere not to happen.

-Classmate: Hey, coming out girl, what, if I say, that I believe you, I understand it, for real. Though, then what should I adress you? Like if my friend wants to hit on you. But if you say you are a guy, it would be not the exact thing he would like. This inbetween state is just have to give time, let's just say, I will recognize it later. But! If he hits on you and you may like it, what would you say?

-Me: Yeah... Though question. I would be more than glad actually and I would say, that your friend would may not be rejected, but this friend is very lucky, to have a friend like you.

-Classmate: I need to go!

Oh come oooon. It is not just boys, but maaaan. This is seethrough stuff, but still, I want to so I do, I believe at least, that he said something honestly, maybe for an unexisting friend, but he got a star. I have to on guard or I may do something inconvinient rashly or even fall for someone...

Jeeeez... I am thinking from the other end... And I might will enjoy it. I have not any obligations to decide at this moment, but I am starting to get in something I learned not to be... It looks like I really was no special student after all... And I love it...