Mixed Emotions

I didn't move, I just waited for him to come to me. We're still looking at each other standing with a few meters apart. The lights are reflecting on our faces but that doesn't make us stop what we are doing.

My ears clearly hear the beat of the music as I look at him. It feels more intense now that his eyes deeply locked on mine. I can't see his face clearly because we're in a dark place, I can only see his presence and feel his sight of me.

He starts to walk and in his every step, I feel my heart beats in a fast pace. My hands feel sweat and I've got it from my anxiety, but that doesn't mean that it's kind of bad. It was an anxiety for a person who make me feel uneasy.

Calm down heart..

Okay.. I breathe heavily, swallowing all my energy like It will melt my nervousness. I hate being like a stupid high school girl getting anxious in front of her crush!

His eyes looks dashing as always, and now that he's right here in front of me the feeling has doubled. I feel like I lose my breath for a while.

Despite this dying feeling, it still lead me to face him. I look up and try my best not to untie my eyes on him.

Noah is a six footer tall so I'm really having a hard time facing him everytime we talk. His apperance was beyond perfect. No words can't judge this handsome man in front of me.

I can now see his face, not clearly but he still looks amazing though. From what I am saying a while ago, his eyes looks dashing but right now.

It looks intoxicated, I don't know if he's drunk or what. But the fact that he's looking at me like this, it gives me an idea that he chose to drink with Dana.

Being mad isn't necessary right now, he won't even care..

He just do what he wants, and being with Dana was his fvcking choice.. How many times will he tries to torture me like this?

Everything that he said, the words that made me blush and happy. All the mixed feeling he has made me think that he's starting to like me fades..

It suddenly blew at this rate..

Now that I interupted his sweet moments with Dana, I'm expecting him to shout at me and be mad at me. But thanks to the loud music, I wouldn't be able to hear it clearly.

From his expression earlier, I also expect him to explain everything to me, like how did Dana and him ends up being together when we just bid our goodbyes earlier. Did Dana came right after I left? Or he just invited her to go clubbing and spend time together?

Actually, there's a lot of questions on my mind right now. It's bothering me a lot and I want to ask him one by one until I find the answer that I've been waiting.

But right now, being disappointed is unavoidable. He's just looking at me lazily with those intoxicated eyes, he's not speaking nor moving.

Is he really are mad?

I just did what my mind speak to me. Seeing Dana hurts my eyes, that's why I texted Jess to call a guard and send Dana home and I also ask her a favor to accompany her in her place just for safety purposes. Even though I hate her, I still can't go on thinking of her safety. It might ruin my conscience and Noah won't be able to like me back.

I can't contain the silence anymore. It pisses me off having no idea what he's thinking! If he's mad then he should be yell at me and tell me to mind my own business.

Not this kind of treatment, it's making my head burst in confusion.

I gather up all my strength to start a conversation by interrogating him. "I-if you're m-mad, I'm n-not gonna s-say sor--,"

"Thank God you called the guards," He cut my words, releasing a relief breath.

His face looks relieved as he smile in front of me. I was left out of words, my mind suddenly stops from constructing excuses. I can't say anything, his words won't sink in. I feel betrayed.

Super betrayed..

"What?!" My brows collided. Is he really serious? The way he looks at me with those serious eyes earlier, I thought he's really mad at me!

He patted my head wearing his smile, "I was praying that someone will save me and take Dana away from me earlier.. And then you came,"

"You don't seem like you're in a hell state a while ago. You even speak in her ears and let her sleep in your lap," I can't hide my sarcasm.

"I was asking her to let me go earlier but she said that she will sleep with a stranger if I leave her here.."

"Then why don't you let her do whatever she wants?"

"She's drunk, Raine. She doesn't know what she's doing.." He explained and my mind says no. I can't accept his reasoning. If she really do it, then it's her fault. Noah doesn't have to do with that. No one says that she has to get drunk and sleep with the other guys.

"You're also a woman, you should understand," My eyes widen to what he says. I don't understand her and I will never understand her! What she's doing is actually crazy for me.

"I've never did this before, I know my limitations and getting drunk without someone whose willing to take care of me is impossible. I won't let myself being like that. She's carefree, while I care for myself." I hated when somebody was telling me that I shoud understand a certain situation because they think that we have similarities. And now, Noah was one of them.

"I can take care of you." He answered. He looks at me with those dashing eyes and I was left hanging by his stare.

He moved closer with his usual expression, blank face. I bite my lips when I think about what he said again. Aside from my mother, no one has ever tried to take care of me. I don't know if he's serious about that or not.

Taking care of me means falling for him more and that's the crucial part. Of course, my feelings would get deeper as he continue to show me his care.

I must contain every emotions that needs to get out of this body. He hasn't show me his feelings yet. All I see was the three emotions from him.

He's serious often specially when Dana was around. Sometimes he's jolly, he's making fun of me and it's kind of annoying but somehow I find it cute.. And most of the time he looks sad and I know the reason was.. geez..

"What is it, Raine? I know you wanna say something. Tell me," his voice was sexy. I look around try'na divert my attention to the people who's dancing right now.

This feeling was insane, but this is what I want. I went here to get him so I should stick to what I've decided.

Jess probably won't come back. She's a quick-witted, I'm certain that she thinks that me and Noah should have a quality time together.

I hope this night wouldn't last as bad as I think.

Noah was near, and I don't know where to pick some confidence to face him.

"I said, I can take care of you. You're not believing it?" His voice was sweet. "Hmm?"

How can I believe you when you don't mean what you're saying to me?

You always give me a false hope by your sinful words.

I hate being toyed, but it feels more worst when I try to ignore you.

I avoided his gaze and walk around, trying to find a couch to sit. My legs feel weak and I need to sit down to give it a rest.

"Where are you going?" He shouts and I can feel his presence behind me.

I saw a couch at the side area, on the last part section. That's the last part that was not occupied so I immediate go there and sit.

When I turn on my right side, everyone on my side was making out and it gives me an awkward situation specially that Noah was here beside me. I feel his arms wrapt around my back and it gives me a shiver down to my spine.

Hearing the loud music was added to my shaking nerves inside my body.

"Why are you here, by the way?" He asks and I mustered up my courage to look at him.

I force a smile, "Jess's invited me, so I thought clubbing was..fine," I lied.

"I thought you don't like to be in a crowded place?" He suddenly asks and I was shocked to what he asked.

How did he know that I hate crowded places?

I'm certain that I didn't mention it to him.

"How did you know?" I can't help to ask. I'm curious.

He smirked and waved his hand on the waiter. I can see his lips twitching like he's thinking of something unpredictable.

The waiter quickly went to his side and bow down to hear what he's saying. "Give some water to this beautiful lady.." He looks at me and the waiter nods and left.

Seriously? Water? Do look like I need some water?

He laughs as my eyes widen at him. This freak!

Is he teasing me again?

So did he already wake up?

I thought he's drunk! Maybe he's now sober.

"I'm not drunk, Raine. I didn't even drink, If it bothers you," his hands strails down on his lap. "Dana forcefully lied in this lap so I couldn't stop her immediately."

My brows furrowed. Why is he saying this?

"I didn't say you have to explain," I look away. I was actually waiting for him to explain.

"And about why I'm here with her.." He paused. I know he's looking at me and I can't make myself turn to face him.

I can feel him getting frustrated as he patted his head on my peripheral vision. "She said you're here with her.."

My ears suddenly hear him clear, his words were process on my head quickly so I turn my head to face him.

"What?"

He nods and embarassment filled his face, "At first, I don't believe her actually..but, she said that some guys were sticking around you and flirting with you. I didn't get to think straight so I quickly closed my shop and went here without thinking of calling you first for confirmation.." His voice cracks and I don't what to feel and what to react.

I felt annoyed about Dana lying about me just to get him, but somehow I feel happy for knowing that he can't allow other guys to flirt with me.

And now, I just don't know why I want to laugh!

Maybe because of his reason and his expression while explaining the whole story.

To be continued..