Meaningful Smile

My back starting to get hurt from sitting the whole time thinking about the last words Noah said. Like how am I suppose to react in his last sentence.

It's creeping me out to the thought of falling in love with him more. He doesn't feel anything and the hell he's giving me signs to prove I'm wrong.

What should I do now?

It's not like I have the courage to ask him what's his last words mean?

"Raine!" Gia and Jess voice appeared as they run towards me.

"What are you doing here?"

"Your boss called us, do you have a plan to stay here until midnight?" Gia rolled her eyes.

"It's already past seven and you're still here sitting pretty, your boss ask us to drag you out of here 'coz he's busy to go out of his office and tell you to go home," Jess explained.

"Ah," I nod lazily and when I snap back to reality my eyes widen. I look at them and smash the table as I stand up. "It's past seven already?!"

"Geez, our deer friend is out her mind right now.." Jess teased.

I put my palm on my head and stare at the table, "I can't believed I stayed up for hours pre-occupied,"

I didn't even noticed the time, I have my watch on my wrist but I've never got to see the time, damn it.

"Are you even conscious right now, sissy?" Jess walks and get my bag on the table.

"I don't know.. I'm just thinking of something, I'm so sorry," I put my hands on the air. I can't even look at them straightly right now, I might spill them everything that's on my mind.

Noah was a strange man, no one can define who he is. Sometimes he's serious and most of the times he's mysterious. He seems to have a lot of secrets, no one can't predict what's running through his mind. Even me, I wouldn't get devastated like this If I definitely understand him.

He's hard to read, specially when he shows everyone how he feels. It makes me think if it's true or not.

Just like what he did awhile ago, I don't know if he's serious there and what does his last words supposed to be mean..

Oh God, he's really unpredictable..

"Let's go?" They held both of my arms and ready to pull me when I suddenly thought about telling Noah that I'm going.

"You go first, I'll just talk to Noah," I was pertaining them to go to the convenient store first.

"Okay, we'll wait for you there. Don't be late, huh?" And they both exit the shop.

I let out a relief breath when they left. I thought I will get caught by my actions.

I know my friends, they're like a lie detector they can easily decode me, I'm trying my best to hide it from them and I hope it was somehow effective.

"Can't leave me, huh?" A voice from behind sounds cold, obviously he saw me from his wall glass and came out to see me.

I suddenly feel nervous! I feel like my heart just came out of my chest!

I thought he's busy?

I turned to face him, "I just wanna say goodbye," I point the door like a fool.

"I'm here,"

I manage to smile,"Right! I'm glad, I wouldn't have to go inside your office!" I tried my best to sound natural, actually I wasn't looking at him. I was too tense to look at him.

"You could've just go home, Raine. Why bother saying goodbye to me?" He asked.

"I just thought that maybe I should say goodbye to you. I hope you wouldn't think of it as a bad idea.." I bit my lips. This is a freakin' embarrassing!

I know, it's not my obligations to remind him everything that I'll do. But I somewhat find it very rude going home from work without saying goodbye to your boss was inappropriate.

"I'm not, don't worry. You're so cute," He smiles and patted my head. Oh God, I'm afraid that he would hear my heart beating at a fast pace!

I stepped backward and tried my best to look at him, "I'm going,"

"Hmm." He nods and smile again. That made me blush! "Take care."

I thought he was going to mention about what he said earlier. I'm still dumbfounded about it, I don't even know how to act in front of him. He seems to be comfortable, while I'm suffering from having no idea.

I turned my back and start to walk towards the door, my heart sank when I pulled the door knob, I feel nervous as I feel his eyes on my back.

"Don't forget what I've said to you earlier, okay?" And that made me stop.

Is he talking about what he said earlier? So he's serious about it? I'm not ready for this. This isn't something that he can just kid around!

Should I turn around or not?

I need an answer!

But damn it! I feel like I was biting my tongue, preventing it to utter something!

I suddenly felt his hands on my shoulder pushing me off the door, "It's late, you should go home," He says, a half laugh was mixed in his voice.

He doesn't have an idea that I'm still hanging out with my friends. "Have a good night, Raine." He winks at me while standing on the door.

"Yeah. Good night." I prevent myself from smiling widely by just biting my lips again. Geez, my poor lips. How many times I've bite it?

Seriously, this is just a short time of talking to him, but it means a lot to me. Just by standing in front of him makes my heart jump in happiness. Some people says before flirting, you both need some label in your relationship to make it more exciting.

But right now, I'm contented to how things going on around us.

I smiled before I turn away. I don't even know where to go, my head filled with a lot of thoughts and it's definitely Noah.

My friends would kill me if I came late, so I immediately shook my head and turn to my normal state. I was on a pedestrian late right now, and it's late so I run fast to make it to the opposite lane. My eyes wonder where the route from the convenient store was.

I smiled when I saw a shortcut from there, Jess and Gia probably inside the store and buying some foods right now. I should be there before they exit the store, or else. I'll be killed.

I gathered up all my strength to run as fast as I can since I'm an athlete during my school days. When I reached the store, they're already preparing to exit the door.

I smirked when Jess looked at me.

"You're just right on time, sissy!" She hugs me.

"Of course, I'm the prettiest among us,"

"What's the connection in there?" Gia interjects.

My eyes widen."Nothing!" And we both laugh.

We started to sit on the four chair table. Jess puts the three hotdogs and three cup noodles on the table, while Gia puts three coffees. My nose filled with the aroma of latte, my mouth waters on its smell.

"You're obviously a coffee addict, Raine." I bet she saw my reaction. I really love coffee.

"Coffee is my life. I wouldn't survive without it."

"I'm not buying it," Jess grinned.

"What?"

"You're now obviously addicted to someone else's attention."

I think I get what she's trying to say now. She's pertaining it to Noah. I guess I'm that easy to guess.

My cheeks bubbled to what she said. I lost my words. I don't know why I can't deny it.

"Let's just eat! It'll all gets cold, especially the coffee!" Gia shouts as she arrange our foods one by one. I think she's serious.

She really doesn't like Noah.

"Why do we always eat here?" I suddenly thought that it maybe bad for our health to eat some ready made foods.

They both looked at me while their both eyebrows were raised.

"Obviously, because none of us can cook!" Jess burst in laugh.

"And one of us is lazy!" Gia points at me and laugh.

So laughing at me is the answer?

My friends are talkshit sometimes, so I need to hold back myself not to smack them. I swear, they are more like that when we have our day offs and it's making me stressed all throughout days!

"You can cook, Jess! Don't be a talkshit!" I twitch my upper lip. She's the one who cooks for us specially when she has a free time. Her cooking skills aren't that bad, she can basically live with those hands.

"And Gia was the worst! She can't even do the laundry!" I looked at Gia and her reaction was epic! Embarrassment was written all over her face and I just can't help but to laugh also.

Honestly, she really can't do the laundry, everytime I attempt to invite her so we can just do the laundry together, she immediately refusing. I don't know if she's just lazy or she's not just used to do it on their house.

"But you're the laziest, Rain. You can also cook if you want, but you always choose not to. How can you feed Noah once he visit our apartment again?" Jess half laughs as she said it. My eyes widen in realization!

She's correct! Noah barged in my place once and it's not impossible to happen again!

"Now you realize. You need to start working on it. Future girlfriend," Jess winks meaningfully.

I am now in a realization that I should be good at everything and maybe Noah will appreciate it. All I want is to please him, nothing was surely important to me but him. Only him.

To be continued..