Chapter 14

I noticed hot drops of tears from my eyes. I didn't see his question as worthy of a response because he's already pierced into me and still asked me whether I'm a virgin. The pain I felt inside of me couldn't even allow me to focus my thinking on one niche.

The tears continued to roll down profusely. As I lifted my head to look at him, Eric, I saw him folding his two hands. Then the manhood which was standing and breathing as though it would never fall had shrunk and became smaller, though it was still having my blood on it.

Just like a flash, I recalled all my mother's advice and warnings. Already I've done the worst. She was preventing me not to even dating Damian, but I already had sex with Eric. Come to think of it, that was my first time spending a lonely time with Eric, and he drove to that spot while I've been staying with Damian, and he has not yet touched my pant, though he's attempted for such. I didn't know when I started subbing. Hence, supporting the tears that started rolling down earlier. I managed to bring my legs together while sitting innocently on the couch. In all I was doing, Eric was standing as a spectator, quietly observing all I was doing.

Then I knew not the exact thing to do. All I remember was that I held my head with both hands and started crying. That drew Eric's attention to me as he walked closer, trying to hold my hand. Since I was already bittered, I slipped my hand away from his. I can't imagine if I should apportion all the blames on him for causing what happened, but while checking the whole scenario, he didn't force me to do anything. But still, I had to blame him because it wasn't in my mind that such would happen when I get to his house.

He came and sat closer to me while holding my shoulder and started caressing my body out of remorse. While sitting right behind me, I didn't know what just took my eyes to the little creature in between his thighs, and it was already as small as something that never grew bigger.

Eric, you've done the worst. You caused all this!

He couldn't even let me finish my exclamation before he responded…

I know, I caused it, Rose. I'm immensely sorry.

While still subbing, I muttered…

"I knew that's what you would say. What else?"

I demonstrated the question while opening my both hands.

"Rose is now a whore. I'm no longer a virgin." I continued

The virtue of eighteen, almost nineteen years lost in a jiffy. Eric, this is the worst that can ever happen to me…

As I was uttering those words, hot tears were still rolling down my chin. Eric started cleaning my tears with his bare hands. Then I started feeling ashamed of myself while realizing that I was naked. I grabbed my skirt and used it to cover my body. Many things started running through my mind. What would be my mother's reaction if she ever hears of what happened? Something whispered the following words to my head.

"It was even unprotected sex!"

"Eric, did you put on any protection?"

I screamed aloud with a broken voice while opening my eyes broadly with a hopeless look on my face.

"No! It escaped my mind". He replied.

So, this is how you've planned to ruin my life and my destiny? Eric, you're a beast!…

Calm down, Rose. I meant no harm. I'm sorry.

He replied while looking into my eyes pitifully.

Are you telling me that I should calm down after doing all this to me? Lord, I'm gone!

I continued yelling.

Babe, it's not like I planned what happened. But we can still fix things up.

Fix things up? How…? I intruded while he was still trying to calm me down.

Well, let's freshen up first. Then we would know the next move to take. He said, then picked up his pant where he threw them.

"Just like play, I've done all my mum has been canvas sung against. I've disappointed this woman! I mumbled to myself.

Rose, please come and take your bath so that we would try to fix things up before it's too late…

I overheard Eric saying while he was at a distance.

I stood up to walk toward his bathroom, but the pain couldn't allow me to maintain my usual steps.

Please help me, Eric. I can't walk freely.

I pleaded for help, since I found lifting my legs a heavy task. Just like he's been waiting for me to make the request, he rushed and supported me as I staggered into the bathroom, then he left me in there. I managed to make sure that water touched my body. But surely, I knew my hand didn't go around my body, though I tried to wash my private part thoroughly. After cleaning my body with a towel I found in the bathroom, I tied it on my body, then I lurched out of the bathroom just to see him already dressed innocently in jean trousers and a t-shirt. Just thought nothing happened. I looked to see that he has already arranged my clothes for me. I already saw the clothes as dirty since recalling all that happened. But because that was my only cloth within, I still wore it, and he sprayed his perfume on me.

As we got to the pharmacy store in their estate, he went closer to the person in charge, and they discussed with a lower voice. All I heard was when the young man told me to have a seat, which I did without hesitation since I was feeling pain. The young man brought some drugged in a tray made me understand that Eric has told him what happened. He also notified me that the drugs I was about to take would stop the pain and stop anything like pregnancy from taking place. Already I was left at the mercy of my strangers. I had to believe whatever they said. Then I collected the drugs and took them according to his prescription.

I rested in the store for some minutes and told Eric to take me home. He drives me to homework in his brother's car. Though I didn't allow him to take me to our compound. I didn't want anyone to question or suspect me. We alighted just at the entrance of our street. Then he walked me home. He watched me enter our house, then bid me goodbye and went his own way.

While sitting on the bed, I began to think of how the whole scenario got started.

"Was I so loose that I couldn't resist even a single step he made?" I questioned myself.

Rose, you're more stupid than words can explain… I mumbled to myself.

Then I started to regret even knowing Eric for the first time. That was a day I can never forget in my entire life. The day the trauma hits differently. Both physically and emotionally. I got depressed. Even thinking of what would be my mother's reaction made the pain to be more severe. I cried until I lay on the bed and fell asleep.