Chapter 6

Rey POV

"I wish you could just stay and talk with me forever." I say sadly. 

"I'm a commander, Rey. I can't just be absent for our pleasure." I drop my gaze.

"I know." I say simply while turning around to fix my bed. It's something to do, I suppose. Any thing is better than sitting here doing nothing while feeling like prisoner.

"I want to spend time with you, believe me. But we can't have anyone finding out about this."

"What about those cameras?" I say glancing up.

"No one but me has access. Plus, I don't think Snoke cares enough to get a hold of the footage."

"You don't " I say smiling. I poke his chest and kiss him gently.

He kisses back and laughs into my lips.

"Now get out of here." I yell, jokingly.

"Okay, okay. I see my kissing abilities aren't up to par." He jokes putting on his helmet.

"You're quite the joker aren't you? You could strengthen your game a bit, I guess." I smirk at him, unable to see his face anymore.

"You seemed to love them this morning. I'd say I'm fine." His voice deepens because of the mask. It makes me uneasy. I feel as though he is trying to hide the beautiful person he is. I know he'd like to deny it but it's there. It's always been there.

I don't understand how he can be so loving with me after only knowing me for a short time but still be cruel and relentless in his work.

"I'll see you in a few hours. I'll figure something out for us. I promise." He turns on his heels and walks out, his dark essence following him. I thought he was changing but maybe I was wrong. Maybe this is just a relaxing distraction to him. -Kylo POV

I walk down the hall quickly, my footsteps getting louder and faster by the second. I need to get Rey out of my head. I told myself I wasn't going to let it get in the way of things but it will be much harder than I thought. Her presence is bliss. Her love is indescribable.

I shake off the thoughts, trying to be the me before she entered my life. Ever since the interrogation, I've been fascinated. The second I saw her, I felt something. It was hell. I couldn't take the actions necessary to keep the First Order moving smoothly. I haven't felt the hate and disconnection from my emotions since.

I turn the corner and almost run into General Hux. I stand coldly in front of him.

"Where have you been?" He asks looking slightly passed me, as if he's afraid.

"I advise you to not treat me like a child. We all know what happens when you test me." I snarl.

"There is work to be done. You weren't here." He says, his expression uncomfortable.

I push past him annoyed with the situation. If it wasn't for my anger issues reducing I would have spoken much harsher words.

"Snoke will want to know where you were." Hux yells to me. I turn my head slowly looking back at him.

"So be it. I have nothing to hide." I turn back and continue walking. Though I have to hide.-Rey POV

I should start thinking of a way to leave but because I know what his love feels like I'm scared scared what will happen if he leaves me as well. Leaving is my greatest weakness. I'm too hopeful of a person.

This has happened so quickly it's hard to realize what's going on. I'm not even sure who he is. One second he's intimidating and evil the next he's loving. He seems so dark and cruel but he seems to break in front of me. Like I'm a weakness to him. I'm afraid that he'll learn that what we are doing is unreasonable and he'll go back to doing what he has been. Killing. A word that hurts to say.

I'll definitely need to talk to him but I'm not sure I'll be able to keep my composure. Even just the thought of him gets my heart racing and blood pumping. That will destroy me. I want them desperately, all the time. Whether I'm second guessing myself or not. It's constant.

I don't want to dig myself deeper into this but I don't want to leave either. I'm confused. This is so unlike me. I hated this man and now he's making me want to be with him. I wanted him to for gods sake. And I wanted to be the one to kill him.

There's something so appealing about him- about his darkness. I absolutely hate it. I want nothing more than to leave but I can't.

I want to see Finn. How am I supposed to tell him this? That I forgave the man who has done unspeakable things. I know but Kylo did but Finn actually witnessed it. I can see how much hate he has for me already.

Maybe Finn isn't even alive.

How could I be so selfish as to not realize what could have been his fate?

My heart drops instantly.

I instantly start crying.

I need Kylo in here. Now. Maybe he'll know and be able to ease my worry. Or maybe he can prove that he's not able to be saved.