Chapter 7

Rey POVI pace around the room, my heart beating quickly. The thought of Finn hasn't left my mind and it's been hours. The question: , has been replaying in my mind constantly.

His body could still be laying there.

The thought makes me sick to my stomach.

I pass a mirror in the room and run a finger along the skin under my eye. It's puffy and my eyes themselves are red. Tear stains streak down my face and my hair is unkempt. I look like an absolute wreck.

But could you blame me?

I hear the door open and Kylo walks in, slowly. He turns his head to look at me and quickly takes his mask off.

"Rey, are you okay?" He asks, walking to me quickly. Concern is plastered over his face. He gently tilts my chin up to his face. He looks down on me. I close my eyes tightly, not wanting to look at him. Looking in his eyes will only make me weak.

"Rey?" He repeats, his voice desperate.

"Finn." Is all I manage to say. The lump in my throat doesn't allow for anymore words to come out.

Kylo drops his hand and turns around. He runs his hands through his hair and begins to pull on it roughly. He breathes heavily.

"I should have seen this coming. I knew there was something between you and FN-2187." He pauses. "Do you love him?" His voice cracks.

"No. That's not what I meant."

"Traitor." He mutters quickly staring down at the floor.

"No, listen to me." Tears threaten to fall down my face.

"I can't believe this." Kylo stares angrily at me.

"Listen to me!" I yell. He looks at me, surprised by my sudden outburst.

"Finn. Did you kill him?" I turn away from Kylo, afraid of the answer. I bite my lip and close my eyes tightly.

"What?" An obvious pang of confusion flashes over his face.

"I didn't think the question was that difficult to answer. Did you kill Finn?" I snarl.

"No. I mean- when I carried you past him he was still breathing but I didn't really pay attention. I was focused on you. Although I saw the Millennium Falcon rise up near the cliff." His voice is laced with confusion.

I sigh in relief.

"I don't mean to overstep but why do you care so much?" I can feel him closely behind me.

"Did it ever occur to you that I had a life before all of whatever this is? Finn was there when all you were focused on was murdering." I turn around to see Kylo much closer than I thought he was. Our faces are inches apart. Any other time, I'd be lunging for his lips but I'm extremely upset and most definitely not in the mood.

"I-" He pauses, his eyes saddened. "You know it isn't like that. I'm afraid I'll lose you. You are the good thing in my life."

"Maybe I should be taken out of your life so then you can return to your evil work without being distracted." I mumble, looking at his feet.

"Rey, don't say that." His voice sounds hurt.

"I can't love you if you won't leave! You know what you're doing is wrong!" My thoughts suddenly burst, against my will.

"We've talked about this!" He sits on my bed, with his head in his hands.

"I refuse to stay here like a prisoner, waiting for you to come back. I want you all the time and I can't have you. It isn't good for me to depend on you for this-" I look for my words carefully. "this passion and be deprived of it. I don't want to off of it."

"Neither do I! We didn't want this!" He yells. "I'm so caught up in you I seem to forget why I'm part of the dark side. It's because I didn't fit in. I was an outsider all of my childhood. My family knew it. I thought there was something wrong with me. They looked at me like some kind of psycho about to snap in two, like they were of setting me off. I turned to the one person that couldn't tell me I was different. My grandfather." A tear slides down his face.

"You fit in with I can tell you're not different because it's true. You don't understand what you're capable of." I say softly.

"I know exactly what I'm capable of." He says, not allowing me to speak anymore.

He gets up to leave and I suddenly want him to stay. Even though I know he should leave, I want him here.

"Please don't leave." I whisper. He leans on door, his head pressed up against it.

"I'm so confused." He mumbles.

"I know. I am too." I have no other words.

"The darkness is always going to be a part of me, no matter what happens. I can't run away from it. I've done too much running. Can't we just be happy for as long as we can?"

"It won't last forever. We both know that." I sigh.

The room goes silent.

"Do you think my mother would forgive me?"

"Of course. She loves you and that is proof in itself." I wrap my arms around his waist, from behind him.

He turns and looks at me. His dark and beautiful eyes are staring into mine.

We stand there for a long time just listening for each other's breaths.

"I want to spend time with you. I want to be So I can get to know you, Rey."

"How?"

"I don't know." He sighs.

"Come with me. Let's Let's get a fresh start." I say quietly.

"The thing is, I'm considering it. Which is something I'd do before you."

"We are both doing things that we wouldn't have done." I lean my head into his back.

He sighs loudly.

"What do you say?" I ask, hugging him tighter.

"I'll need time but what I'm saying is-" He pauses. "Yes? God, this is all so foreign. We can plan it later. I don't feel right." He pulls away from me and lays down on my bed. He looks up at the ceiling.

I say down next to him but far enough away so I'm not touching him.

"What are you thinking about?" I ask quietly.

"My future." He closes his eyes and his expression softens.

I turn over away from him and fall into a deep sleep.