Chapter 5

Kylo POVRey is so beautiful when she sleeps. I don't mean that in a creepy way at all, she just seems peaceful. 

This chair on the other side of the room isn't comfortable but I'll willing to put up with it for Rey. I couldn't sleep at all so I wandered here. I hope Rey won't be startled by my presence, I didn't know else where to go. It's a good place to think, I suppose. I realize I can't let this get the best of me. I have to continue doing what I have been.

I have had so many years of training with Snoke and I won't let this annoyance get in the way. That's why Rey needs to leave. Soon. Every second I spend with her I grow more fond and I'm afraid I'll care too much to let her go.

I look up to hear blankets shifting on Rey's bed. She sits up at looks at me tiredly.

"I hope I'm not being invasive." I say quietly.

She shakes her head slowly, her face plastered with cautiousness.

"Rey, I would hope you know I'm not going to hurt you." She gestures for me to sit on the bed and I do.

"Is it morning?" She asks her voice cracking.

"No. Late at night. I couldn't sleep." I pause, biting my lip before speaking again. "I met with Snoke earlier tonight. He can sense something between us but not all of it. You're safe for now but if he does find out, he'll kill you. Even though you are valuable to him as a member he won't let me have any distractions."

"I hope you don't see me as just a distraction." She mumbles looking my way.

"Of course not." But I'm not sure exactly she is to me.

"What are we supposed to do, Kylo? You're  going to have leave if you want to be with me and see your mother."

"I can't leave. My whole life is here." I pause. "Snoke is my master. He raised me. I'm not sure I can betray him." I wait for her to say something about me betraying my father but she doesn't. She looks understanding and kind.

"I know." She says simply, moving closer to me. She leans on me, her head on my arm.

Feeling another persons touch is strange and foreign.

"I will wait for you. You know what you have to do." She says looking forward.

"How are you so sure, Rey? How are you so brave? You carry an aura of hope with you everywhere." She shrugs lightly and glances up at me.

"Ever since my parents-" She looks down, tears on the brim of her eyes. "Ever since my parents left I've had hope that they would come back. I guess it stuck." She closes her eyes, sending tears down her face. I wipe them off with myglove and lean against her.

"I'm never going to see them again am I?" Her lips quiver as she begins crying.

"I've waited so many years for them and they aren't even coming back." My heart breaks. Seeing her cry is the worst feeling imaginable.

She starts to cry out and breathe heavily as the tears plummet. I pull her into me and hug her tightly. She cries loudly into my chest. I embrace her and rock back and forth slowing. This is such an odd feeling. I feel like I'm tapping into a completely different side of myself. My actions seem involuntary but natural.

"I miss them so much." I can barely understand her.

"I know." I place a kiss on her head. "We'll get through all of this ." Though I know we can't be together.

It's isn't good for either of us.-Rey POV

I wake up feeling arms around me. I look up to see Kylo next to me, having me in his embrace. Normally, I would pull away but now I feel safe. I feel loved. I move closer to him and close my eyes, smiling lightly.

His warm touch is soothing and soft. I lay here for what seems like an eternity, loving every second of it. I never want him to leave.

He moves slightly, putting his head closer to mine. I run a finger across his cheek, admiring him. He wakes up and offers an empty smile. This is still a very strange feeling.

"Good morning." I whisper.

"Did you sleep well?" He asks. I nod.

"Did you? You said something about not being able to sleep."

"Actually, I slept very well."He says lightly while sitting up as well. I move closely to him and tangle my legs around him. I stare into his dark brown eyes. They seem calm and quiet, not violent. He's changing.

"I don't want to worry about anything right now. I just want to be with you, who you are." I whisper into his ear.

He nods slowly and softly presses his lips into mine. I kiss back softly, wrapping my arms around his neck. His presence is like a drug and I'm more than addicted.

I look into his eyes, biting my lip hesitantly. I quickly push my lips into his. I kiss him roughly. He puts his hand on the back on my head, the other on my cheek. I desperately keep my lips on his, afraid I won't feel them ever again. I run my fingers through his hair gently.

We finally break apart and we gasp for air. I rest my head on his and smile down on the sheets. -Kylo POV (same time but leading into kylo's point of view)

"Rey, I can't describe what I feel for you. I feel like we are two of the same person. I'm never going to let anyone hurt you." I pause remembering I'm going to be the one that hurts her. I'm going to have to leave and I can't imagine how bad it's going to hurt both of us. "I'll protect you for as long as I can. I want to care for you now and not worry about what happens next." She raises her head and nods.

I pull her into me and ignore the guilt eating away at me. It's going to destroy us when we part ways. She doesn't even know yet but I want to feel her love. I want to feel ______________________________