Chapter 57: Confusion

Memories of what happened swarmed my mind and I felt completely embarrassed. He was carrying me. Why was he carrying me? Why did he carry me? The way that Jey held me. The way everything went so fast. It made me feel terrified as I have never seen what he actually is. I didn't understand any of this. What had happened? What is going on? What is he? Is he a demon? Is he some kind of fallen angel? No that couldn't be he'd still need feathers right? So what is he a demon? What type of demon is he? I have never seen this before. I can't believe this. I remembered the wings. Big long black wings.

'It is alright... I won't hurt you!' The way he tried to tell me but I just didn't didn't listen to him and just struggled a bit more. I looked at Luke as he slowly opened his eyes and saw me awake. He had a gentle smile on his face and it made me smile gently at him in return. But I can feel the tears start to glide down my cheeks as I didn't know what to do. I didn't understand what had happened. Why am I shaking so much? I felt completely and utterly confused after all this time.

"Are you alright my love?" Luke asked

I glanced and so I spoke gently "J-Je-Jey is-is... Was that real?"

"Yes... You fainted after seeing what he is..." Luke said gently as he leans in slowly

"What is he? What was he?" I asked with a bit of panic

"Once Scarlet awakens he'll tell you both... It is not my place to say" Luke says as he stands up slowly

"A-Alright... Understandable... I need to process everything first..." I tell him as I just looked at my hands

I need a hug but I don't even now how to ask for it "Are you hungry my love?"

I looked up to him and I smiled gently as I wiped my tears away "Y-Yeah..."

Luke smiles and stands up gently as he walks to the floor. I just looked at him walk away but I felt completely curious. His tattoo on his back. Last time I wanted to ask him about getting a couples tattoo but I never had the chance to even ask him. I saw his hand touched the door handle and I just stayed there paralyzed. Deep in my heart I felt the sudden fear of being left alone. I didn't want to be left alone. I don't want to be left alone. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't tell him that. Any of that. I need to keep everything to myself. I need to slowly return to normal and just keep certain things under control.

I hear the door open and I glanced to the door. My mind tricked me for a moment as I saw nobody standing there. But I blinked and saw Luke smiling back at me. I smiled back at him and he leaves the door. He did leave the door open I felt completely free for some reason. Being able to see who walks by felt relaxing. In his journal it did show his bedroom is sound proof. So maybe a way for me to call for him if I need him.

It made my heart brighten up in a way. Sometimes he just now's how I am feeling but doesn't now how to handle it. I looked to the side and noticed my phone. I smiled gently and I just grabbed it. I had one song in pause and so I hit play. It was Machine Gun Kelly featuring Halsey. I was listening to Machine Gun Kelly? When? Was this Kassandra? Oliver? I only know two people who have access to my phone. Wait no. Three. I can't discount Scarlet. She knows my passwords.

-Machine Gun Kelly featuring Halsey Lyrics:

You want me to forget you?

Okay, forget me, too

You tell me you hate me, baby

Yeah, I bet you do

Damn, I saw you walk in the room, and I tried my best

Not to panic while I'm lookin' for the back door

I smell the perfume, and it's obvious

I'm gonna stay and put my key in the bag more

I can't, I can't, I can't pretend to forget you

The reason I punched a hole in the wall back home

And then, and then

And then a couple hours later, we're in room 29 at The Chateau

I left before you woke up

I don't feel right (seeing you sober)

You want me to forget you?

Okay, forget me, too

You tell me you hate me, baby

Yeah, I bet you do

I'm keepin' you waiting

But I won't wait on you

Want me to forget you?

Okay, forget me, too

I've wasted so much time

Waitin' around for your phone calls every night

My bad dreams are silk screens

'Cause I taste blood when you bleed

It's eating me alive

We'd both be better off alone

Still think I'd get you on the phone

With one last breath in me

I'd die before I let you leave

You left before I woke up

Why don't I ever see you sober?

You want me to forget you?

Okay, forget me, too

You tell me you hate me, baby

Yeah, I bet you do

I'm keepin' you waiting

But I won't wait on you

You want me to forget you?

Okay, forget me, too

Hey, you

Tell me why you do the things that make me (hate you)

It's an emotional kaleidoscope when I (face you)

Permanent calligraphy, I just (tattooed)

Your name on me forever

You want me to forget you?

Okay, forget me, too

You tell me you hate me, baby

Yeah, I bet you do

I'm keepin' you waiting

But I won't wait on you

You want me to forget you?

Okay, forget me, too

I hummed a bit as I felt completely fascinated with this song. I didn't expect this song to attract my attention. I stand up as I placed paused on the next song. Yunblud is the artist on the other one. Don't know him either. I walked to the door and noticed one door open so I walked gently but I remembered Scarlet so I just walked to the elevator. I am just happy I know I have the same clothes as yesterday. I felt completely calm and I just wanted to relax a bit but I want to make sure Scarlet is alright.

The elevator door opened and I saw Sarah. A gentle smile on her face when she saw me and I felt completely happy as well. I wanted to run to her but my leg is still healing. I am happy I was given the green light to walk but to have limits when walking. I entered the elevator and Sarah holds the door gently so it wouldn't close. I looked at her with curious eyes. Is she staying at this floor?

"Is something wrong?" I asked her worriedly

"No... I just need to get a few papers from Luke's office... Oliver needs them to make a few calls" Sarah answers me gently

I nod at her and so I asked once again "Where is Scarlet though?"

"Oh she is in the main floor... She is still out though... I just can't believe she ran outside" Sarah says as she shakes her head

"She is stubborn... Just like me" I say with a gentle chuckle

"Yeah that's true... You will find her laying on the couch... We didn't want to move her to a location where she might wake up in panic and just hurt herself or someone..." Sarah explains to me gently

I nod and she walks out the elevator I just waved at her and she had a big smile. Something seems off in her smile and I felt completely attentive to her. Is something wrong? What is going on? The elevator doors closed and the song automatically played for some reason. I looked down and noticed Kassandra as she started jumping up and down to Yungblud. Seems like she was having fun with it. But how did she appear out of nowhere. I just stared at her dancing and smiling. It just made me really happy seeing her like that.

In some way I felt like a mother watching her dancing showing of her talents. It is a beautiful thing. A beautiful sensation. I felt my stomach stir and I knew it is because I am hungry but I got to make sure Scarlet is alright. Whatever Jey is he will let us now but I think Scarlet will be more panicked than any of us. She may be strong but when reality comes to show she has a weak mind and heart. She acts strong but she is gentle and afraid. She is more afraid than me. She has been damaged but her family and old friends. She has suffered a lot and right now.

I don't even know how she will handle all of this. This world and it's creatures.