Chapter 15 - Questioning Himself
Chapter 15
Not long after Miyuki go out shopping grocery Alex start to wake up. He slowly open her eye and sat up. Stretching his hand up he groan, feeling little uncomfortable all of sudden, he turn to his side to see that the woman that was sleeping together with him yesterday already missing.
He suddenly didn't like this feeling, he felt something was missing inside of him when she was not near the woman. He don't know why he felt this way, never in his entire life feel something missing inside of him when he didn't see anyone particular before, only feeling scared that he will be abandon again.
But now its different, he felt as if part of him missing, he frown deeply at that. He was determent to change for, to never be fool again, but if he feel this way to a woman he barely knew how come he live forward when even she start to abandon him someday?
He decide to shook that thought off, whether or not that happen he just decide to figure out why he seem so connect with her. There must a meaning to all of this.
(Alex pov)
Feeling the need to freshen up myself I got down from the bed to search for the bathroom. Not even taking a couple step far from the bed I start to feel a burning sensation within me.
At first its just a uncomfortable feeling like some ant crawling or something. But now it's different, my inside start to feel warmer, and it's start to burn.
I fell on my knees, my hand start clenching my heart and stomach where it hurt the most. The pain is unbearable, it was like my soul was burning itself with the hottest flame it can ever find.
It's hurt
My soul is burning
On instinct I don't know that even I had, my hand touch the ground, and then I feel it some sort of energy start gathering in palm and by instinct I control the energy into some sort of pattern as if to create something to life.
Suddenly a colourful blue indigo flower with six petal on it emerge from the ground. If it's not because of the unbearable pain I'm feeling right now, I might be enchant by it's beauty.
Slowly lifting up my hand from the ground, I wave my hand, and following my movement the flower that was just spouting from the ground start to change, 4 out of 6 petal was turn into shredded, 1 of the petal start to wrap around the shredded petal while the last petal harden itself and make a W shape with the first end before rolling it self with the rest of it.
And under my painful gaze the beautiful flower just now turn a brown cigarette with a filter. And like I have done million time before, put the cigarette on my mouth and lit it by break the steam of the leftover flower just now into two. And unscientifically produce a small burst of flame when break it.
And just like that I took a puff
Huff
Haaa
Huff
Haaa
The burning sensation that was burning inside me start to calm down, the pain I just felt a moment ago was now slowly disappearing.
I slowly start to relax, don't know wether it's from the roll or from the subsiding pain. I lean my head on leg of the bed.
"What in fudge happen just now?" I question myself. All of that just come to sudden, the pain, the energy, the process of control, the taste of the cigarette and the smell of it. All of it seems familiar at the same time not.
What type of flower is that? What kind of energy am I manipulating? How can I control it just by instinct? All of this question plague my mind. And...
I'm scare…
For the first time in my 3 life... I am scare of something other than being abandon
I'm scare of what more change is happening inside of me right now. From how suddenly I view the world differently, how I'm suddenly felt a connection to the woman the I barely know her name, the pain, the power, and everything.
I'm scare of ….. losing myself
Am I still the same me?
Am I still Michael?
Am I still Roland?
And who is Alex? Why did I introduce myself by that name?
But deep inside I know, that Alex is my real name, the name that I don't know why but hold an important meaning to me.
Huff
Taking a deep puff of smoke I start to calm down, whoever am I, whatever my name, I still know that I'm still me.
Haaa
Release the smoke that was holding inside me I get up from the floor and walking outside in search for bathroom. Walking at the hallway I look around, the design of this house is fairly simple, no overdecorated furniture, just plain colour and no painting. Founding the bathroom at the end of the hallway I enter it, the bathroom was clean. As if never been use before, either way I don't care much, after taking a shower did I notice I didn't bring any towel when coming here, well it's not like I know where it is.
Passing by a mirror inside I glance at myself, 1.5 meter, black hair reaching my neck and my deep violet blue eye. My body seem to have some muscle in it.
Shrugging it off I made my way back to the room with my wet body. If I remember correctly when I come here I didn't wear any clothe, just borrowing Miyuki jacket at that time. I need to questions her later how long am I asleep, because my body is bigger than the last time I remember.
Since I don't have any clothe on, might as well borrow her clothe. Opening her wardrobe I search for a wearable clothe. I just pick up a plain grey hoodie and a short pant's.
Well it's oversized for me but not that I'm complaining she's a tall woman after all, maybe around 1.8 meter.
Reaching downstair I look around, it has a living room, kitchen and a room the was labeled 'Sacred room'. Seeing that Myuki is not at home I sat in the living room, there no tv so I just make a another cigarette and enjoy the view outside from the window.
After spending 30 minute just siting there doing nothing, curiosity got better of me and start to make my way to the 'sacred room'. Opening the door I was welcome with a room fill with poster of woman with cat ear, a magical girl and books rack of book with interesting title in it.
"Hmmmm.. I guess I can spend my time reading some book" Picking up the nearest 'book' I go back to the living room to read it. Hmm interesting, the book is in English and the title was ' My daily life with yandere Sister with brother complex. Although I don't know what yandere means I guess it will be fun. Flipping to the first page I was quite surprise.
"Ouh is this a comic book? The last comic book I read was from a dude name stan lee. I wonder how he's doing right now" then I start reading with focus.
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