53-First kiss is Lost~

Me and Ahana took the bus to the university. We boarded the bus and soon spotted a double sit by the window empty at the back of the bus so conviniently for the two most introverted species in the world. Ahana run to win an imaginary race in her mind with me to capture the window sit.

I just laughed and walked behind her. She was like a small child having the best time playing around. We sat on the sit and noticed how calm she looked. She was calm for sure but it was not the deadly calmness a wild beast cast to be aware of any danger around, but this time her calmness was more of a soothing kind, the calmness of a child who is tired after playing the whole day but is fully content at the amount of fun she got from exhausting herself.

But surely Ahana was not tired even a bit as soon enough she shifted her gaze from the window beside her to the other side looking straight at my eyes. Her eyes were glowing with joy and happiness. Happiness that seemed to be a stranger to her or maybe a feeling she met again after being away from it for years. She started talking in a cheerfull voice. We were discussing about university and our regular lifestyle. It was fun to even discuss something so irrelivent and boring with her. It seemed like she was some kind of fairy that can just smile and make the worst the best.

But even among all these happy moments my mind kept drifting to find the reason as to why she suddenly had this change in her charecter, not that i was complaining but y mind was curious for the reason. I mentally scolded myself to be curious of weired things at the most inconvinient moment. I refused to ask her for the reason as I was scared that i might stir up something that might make her sad again. I was also curious becaue something told me that the reason of her change has something to do with me and oh boy, was I right at all my assumptions.

After almost five minutes of mentlly fighting with myself I gave up and let the wods slide through my lips.

"What made you change so much over a night, Ahana? I a honestly so happy to see this side of yours in action" I spit out the words with a soft smile to hide the nervousness and I saw all the brightness drain from her face leaving it a pale mess of nervousness with a pinch of sad eyes.

"Your KISS" she said lowering her gaze to avoid eye contact with me to hide the ovious embaressment of her words as I made the situation more awkward by chocking on thin air as soon as the words slipped out of her mouth immideatly regreting at my reaction to it.

"But even though you and your kiss broke me out of my gloomy shadow shell, I am really upset about loosing my first kiss just like that, in a heat of moment."

My heart ached a little, heack, it ached a lot hearing her say the true feelings she had in her heart. I was glead that she spoke herself finally but did not realized that it would come with such a heart reanching cost.

I hated to admit, but I did not do a very well disguise to hide the pain I was currently feeling. I guess she noticed how the choice of her words has affected me.

"Its not like I hated your kiss, it was pretty amazing for me." she said and i looked at her with a little glow returning in my eyes as I saw her cheeks getting all pink.

"I.....I just.... for me first kiss is a very special thing that I wanted to have in the most memorable way possible with the person I trust and I know completly. I do trust you more than anyone else but I dont know you"

Lisenting to her words made you realize that even you saved your first kiss for the love of your life if you ever had one so now even you were confused as to why exactly did you kissed her.

"Wanna get to know each other?"