54-Regrets~

We kind of planed a date? Yes, we did. Well it was me who asked her out and yes it is the most unbelivable thing I ever did well not really considering my dreaded past biut never in a million years did I thought that I would ask Ahana out on a date but now here we are, both waiting for the day to get over so that we can finally do the unthikable date we both agreed on. She was a bit nervous before entering the university as she was scared that she might get lost into the ocean of her old self once she is around toxic people, but nontheless me being by her side provided with the strength she needed and I promised myself not to let her old self engulf her.

The first class was psycology class and something inside me alerted me to skip the class as I was figuring out through my gut feeling that maybe Mrs.Smith was gonna be upto no good today and my feet fought against me to go far away from the class. Ahana surly noticed my delema.

"Are you okay, Namchan?" her soft voice rang in my ear soothing me a little bit. I nodded in agreement letting her know that i was alright. Nonetheless she did not belive me. She knew me well enough by now to figure out that I was lying.

"Mrs.Smith is some kind of risk to you right?" she asked with such a confidence that even made me snap to look at her with shock.

"Its alright take your time explaining your part of life,.." she said probably reading the mental trauma I was going though, "For the time being we can study in the library till the next period"she offered with a knowing grin and I could not ask for anything better. So we turned on our heels and headed towards the library.

I was currently on a rant about the supposedly 'accident' of Yewean and Haneul to Ahana making her known to the current part of life and how important it is to me. We were about to enter the library when my phone rang suddenly. I got a little frustrated at the fact that the call distracted our conversation.

I picked up the call, it was from Yewean huyng. I was confused as he never called me while I am at university as he knows I am supposed to be in the class. I answered the call anyways and immidiately regreted everything I did since the morning. I never regreted more in my whole life probably. I did not know what made me regret more was it the crying mess Yewean or the news I got from him.

Streams of tears rolled down my eyes without me even realizing which made Ahana anxious seeing her only support to fall apart like that. She hold my hand tight and just kept an understanding look in her eyes she knew that those are the two most important thing I needed, support and understanding.

"Haneul had an accident and is in the hospital, he has not gained consiousness for almost two hours....." my voice cracked and tears knew no bound now but i just felt empty, probably the hand holding me was the last thing keeping me sane.

The next thing she did was really I was thankfull for as I was not in a state to do what I was supposed to do. Heck, I cant even keep myself sane without her being the one holding me right let alone think reasonably.

"Name of the hospital?" Ahana asked in a desperate voice and I noticed and I noticed that we were currently sitting in a taxi.

"Asan Medical Center - 388-1, Poongnap-dong, Songpa-gu, Seoul" I said with the list amount of life left in me.

It was a thirty minutes ride there, but it felt like we were waiting forever. As soon as we reached the hospital I jumped out the taxi and ran towards the hospital building. Ahana came behind me. We reached in front of the door of Haneul's room and suddenly I stoped in my track being way o scared to see one of my guid and mentor lying lifeless on the bed and the other gurdian sitting beside him like a crying mess.

Ahana hold my hand and pulled me inside providing every kind of support I needed at the moment. As soon as I enter the room i saw what I feared the most. The most happiest person on this earth who was my only mentor and guide was lifeless on the bed with red blood staining everything around him and the ever so strong Yewean sitting beside him holding his hand in both of his and broken into fragments.

"I regret everything, Namchan" Yewean said as soon as he felt my presence in the room.