Free falling

I have always fallen from bad to worse from one world that's filled with filth, murder and rape to another

I remember 15 years ago when I was the head of the most powerful gang everyone was even afraid to say my name.

at that time I was getting worse psychologically and morally. I looked human on the outside But everyone knows that I was a monster on the inside.

I still remember the eyes of the girl that I was raping right before I died it was so beautiful, it looked like a priceless diamond.

I think it's now dark and full of despair

I didn't do anything wrong I just did what I wanted to do, she the one who couldn't protect herself she is the one who's weak, not me.

I remember I heard the voice of her mother she was weeping, Why was she crying when she killed me? Was she crying about me?!

Did anyone shed a tear because I died

At the time I didn't know why was she crying is it because she killed me or was she crying because of her daughter.

But I get it now she was free-falling too

now I am still falling, but unlike the mom, I'm falling in the full sense of the word I'm falling from a high mountain to the ground I'm about to die again

Is it all over now did I wast my second chance

Falling is a strange and beautiful feeling you feel that your body is free No one controlling you But as always Every beautiful thing has to come to it' end

(Boom)

Collision with the ugly reality There is no escaping it.

This bitch is why I'm falling now. I don't know why she did it, I guess it makes no difference now.

I'm going to die again

I always had bad memories of falling.

When I fell for the first time in my real world while I was playing and injured my hand

I have not yet turned into this monster that you see now.

My mother saw me crying she looked at me with a smile, that was the first time I saw my mother smile from the day I was born.

She carried me into the kitchen

She ignited the oven And put a knife on the fire.

She said to me with a smile

[I do want to hear your screams] she said this as she was Putin the hot knife on my hand.

The more I screamed the more I was tortured, so I didn't open my damn mouth, I didn't want to be tortured anymore.

So I hated falling since that day but it is a nice feeling.

This a strange world, despite the repetition of its stories ..... everyone still keeps doing the same mistakes, Repeats the same events ... feeling the same pain over and over again.

Everything that is in the center of human life is two words hope and pain.

Two letters the same curse.

the worst thing that could destroy the life of any person you give him hope and then take that hope away and give him pain in instead.

So I learned my lesson

You can't trust anyone, you can't love anyone. No one is good so you do your best to Worst

I'm Freeeeeeee

Free falling

Hahahahahhahahahahahaha

What's New?

since the day I was born and I'm falling.

Everything that I have been taught ... everything that I have ever loved ... everything every fucking thing my moral and my dreams, It was gradually decreasing until the last collision

death!

So I asked myself an important question.

Do I want to fly?

Do I want to feel like a bird without any restrictions or laws? Or do I want this dark end?

She is still standing there looking at me damned bitch, I don't want that end.

Not in front of her ...

All that I was looking for was that feeling of free-falling and freedom, I was looking for an end to my pain ...

I felt everything .....

At that moment before I fell to my death I remembered her words it was right before my head touches the ground

"Control your manna and transform it"

and so I did, I controlled my Manna with all my strength, with all my inner energy

I turned it into an inner shape, a certain shape, I always loved

learned transformations skill

I opened the skills and went to the specialty of the transformer and opened the first skill, I raised its level to the fourth level.

I closed my eyes and whispered

Transform