chapter 9: HOW?

I was crushed, I could barely walk, I was like a machine with no purpose, I felt like the darkness started surrounding me eating me slowly

-"oh look at that little boy he failed, oh what a poor guy do you need help oh yes that's right you don't need us, I knew you were a failure, we've always told you that you would fail."the voices that I once thought disappeared came back laughing hysterically at me like I was just a piece of crap, I felt alone, no one was there to help me and the memories repeated

-" how do I prove that it's true love."I asked myself but no answer was found I kept myself inside my apartment for 3 weeks, my friends called multiple times but not once have I picked up

One day I heard a knocking on the door, I opened the doors and my friends were standing there

-"wow you look awful, said Marcus, this is the first time seeing you like this. as he laughed

I let them inside

-" honey we've been worried about you what happened, Madeline spoke as she tapped my knee calming me

-"you want to know what happened, what happened is my dream girl doesn't believe that I really love her, she thinks what's making me attracted to her is lust and not real love."I screamed as I stood, I didn't know what I felt that time was it anger or sadness or depression

-" calm down I know there must be a way we can solve this, said Sherill

-"how tell me how, if you tell me how, I would go right outside that door and do it,"I responded

-"there's one thing I learned from my relationships and that's lies cause it to end, I say tell her the truth. Marcus spoke, it was unexpected for that to come from Marcus he was always a guy that never learned from his mistakes but still gave me the advice, at that moment I knew he was not just a friend he was my best friend but nothing changed, I still was lost, the question wasn't answered

-"how?"

I felt like I was put on check I didn't find a way out from this and I said words that I never thought I would say:

-"that's it guys I give up I just don't know what to do anymore.

I laid on the bed, sleep was the only escape in my mind from this miserable life

-"no you can't give up she's your true love you can't just let it go don't you remember all what you did for he." said Madeline

at that moment my mind and heart worked together, I said:

-"guys I finally found the answer to the question"HOW?".