Fay's grooming (r18/READ THE AUTHOR NOTES)

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I laid down on the bed, pinned down to the coarse sheets by the strange hypocrisy of this reality. Because what else if not physical hypocrisy was the fact that I found Fay's weight to pin me down with an unstoppable and unbreakable force… while at the same time still considering it to be extremely soft, as if a warm cloud sat descended to cover my hips?

'Wait, what the hell is…'

Fay didn't give me a single chance, a lone opening to gather my thoughts. 

"Fay's grooming only begins!" she announced with something sparking in her eyes, only to bring her devastating mouth and glib tongue down to my face again. 

'Right, don't we call it grooming when animals lick their fur clean?' I realized just a little bit too late. Or maybe this was my desperate attempt to figure out what the hell was going on and thus give me something for my thoughts to focus on?

Well, whatever was the case, when Fay puffed her chest up and slightly bent her spine to the back to settle the bulges of her chest right below my chin, only to lean her head down and reach out with her tongue for my lips while her hands cradled the sides of my head…

I was stuck. 

Stuck between the softness of her chest, forced to feel the difference between where her Haori still kept her skin protected… and where its cloth already moved out of the way, directly exposing her neck to the softness of her bosom. Stuck with her hands that danced all around my ears, tapping, massaging and gently pulling on my ear. Stuck under the soft yet wet strokes of the tip of her tongue that she marked my face with. 

'Exhale, man, exhale!' An alarmed voice exploded in my mind when I felt a sudden tightness in my chest, only now realizing that I went through all of this on a batted breath. 

"Haaaa…." Unable to hold my breath any further, I quickly exhaled. 

Fay twitched, and pulled her lips off my face as she moved her head back a little…

"Fuuuu…" and softly blew her own breath directly into my nostrils. 

'Oh, shit…'

The world around me wavered. I lost all my strength, causing my neck to fail at supporting my head and thus sending it falling into the pillow while my eyes rolled up. 

But Fay didn't cease her attacks. Instead, she climbed up my body a little, reaching out with her sweet, full lips for my neck. There, she first rubbed her cheek against the bulge of my vein. And right when I felt the momentum of the situation carrying her to move on… She remained snuggled up to my neck as if finding it extremely comfortable… 

And giving me the time to realize that it wasn't only my head that was the subject of Fay's grooming. 

Her bare thighs her Haori was never meant to cover were tightly pressed to the sides of my hips, helping her to keep me rooted in place. But now that I thought about it… in order to straddle me like that… wasn't she spreading herself open a fair bit?

And the moment this realization came, I finally realized what was this weird, hypocritical feeling that I felt slowly spread up my spine from the most sensitive area of my flesh after my eyes. 

It was another anomaly, a different snicker of the world, where whatever my boner was pressing against managed to easily keep it in place no matter how much it wanted to stand at attention… While at the same time keeping this resistance strangely soft, warm… and inviting?

'This can't be hers…'

Sobered up by the grave realization, I wrestled control over my body from my instincts and looked up… 

Only to see Fay look down, straight into my face, with sparks of some distant, primal hunger dancing in her eyes. 

Her body was hot, hotter than I remember from when I hugged her to sleep back in the other world. Hotter than in the few moments I got to touch her bare skin before. 

Her face was filled with desperate longing, excitement, and even affection. 

Her body, the way it clung to me, the way she rubbed herself all over me, made it obvious how much she desired me. 

'Is she in heat now?' I thought, my heart threatening to stop. 

Because I was better than throwing away my entire future just to make use of this opportunity and get the achievement of wetting my dick the way my biology intended. 

Fay's entire body indicated just how much she was lusting after me at this precise moment. Even a dunce like me could easily notice it. And what would refusing Fay when she got so desperate to go to all these lengths be if not cowardice? 

Or so that would be the case, if not for her eyes. 

Her eyes filled with distant hunger… and a hint of hesitation. 

'Peter groomed Fay, so Fay will groom Peter.'

An unknown voice whispered into my mind as the world around me appeared to stop for just a single instant. 

'She's paying me back. She refused me before, but as I showered her with gifts and care…'

A cold sensation started to spread up my spine at a lightning-fast rate. It quickly reached my hips, freezing over all the lust that threatened to make my balls explode if I didn't make a move on Fay the next instant. It raced up to my chest, then my throat, then my brain… 

And with this sudden, freezing sensation dissipating all the heat away from my body, I finally managed to put the two and two together. 

'She's trying to pay me back, even going as far as to put herself in heat for my sake.'

Fay wasn't just beautiful. 

If her beauty was all there was to her, I would never go bonkers while falling for her so hard. No, her facial and body features were just the icing on the cake. 

What attracted me to her was her affection, the casual skin-ship she so readily offered… and her happy smile whenever I catered to her appetite or curiosity. 

'Did I really fall for the first girl that treated me with actual kindness?' I thought, the coldness in my body spreading now to my soul. 'Or rather, the first girl that treated me with both the kindness and the respect I'm owed as a damn human being?'

The chill finally reached my heart, freezing it over as the last part of the realization finally manifested, bursting out with a sense of self-loathing all over my mind. 

'And in exchange for all of that, I pushed her to do something she clearly didn't want to, as proved by her reaction before?'

The strange instant that I was stuck in collapsed all at once, forcing me back into the ongoing reality of Fay forcing herself to cling to me, and doing what she clearly wanted no part with just to pay me back. 

'She even went as far as to put herself in heat for me!' 

My entire body tensed up. My blood boiled in my veins, thawing my body from the coldness that took over. 

"Pete…"

Fay noticed the change and raised her face to look at me… only for her voice to cut when I used all my strength to move up. 

Now that I actually tried, freeing myself from under the girl proved to be surprisingly easy. 

"Wait, Peter, why?" Fay freaked out, hints of panic instantly appearing all over her face. 

It was a miracle that I could hold back my tears right now. I was literally freeing myself from the loving embrace of the girl of my dreams, all the while she was trying to pin me down to the bed once again!

The boiling of my blood thawed the freezing coldness in my groin, restarting the assault of my primal lust on my mind and decision-making center in my brain. 

But I wasn't going to let my desires get the better of me. Not if the cost of doing that would come at even a single hint of regret for Fay later on. 

"I'm sorry, but I think we wasted enough time. And I still have to go and deal with the last task for today," I spoke while squeezing myself out from underneath Fay and then quickly escaping from the bed. While on the go, I grabbed the gold coins and my new phone from the table before instantly heading for the doors. 

"Peter! Wait, please…!" Fay's voice now gained some tones of desperation, amidst the shock and disbelief I could already hear before. 

"I will be back shortly," I replied, before pulling the doors open and escaping outside. "And I'm sorry I pushed you into doing something like this," I whispered after closing the doors behind me, finally free to let the tear of emotional terror and self-loathing born from what I nearly made Fay do.