{Monologues part 1}

[AN: This is part one of a two-part story. This chapters is about giving you guys what kind of main characters are there in this fanfic. Here, you will be able to see their thoughts and motivations about why do they do the things they do. Also, I'm going in a somewhat different direction compared to their source material of some characters. I will still keep their main personality but their stories and background will be different, please keep that in mind when reading this.]

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(Adam's monologue )

I live my entire life living alone in the red room. If you observe my current self you would believe that I lived in an ordinary home, experience the love and affection of an ordinary family, and live a comfortable life.

But in reality, it's nothing but a lie, I'm just a good actor. Good at portraying what it feels like to be an ordinary student. A student that thinks he belongs in a group, but in reality, inside, he feels isolated, disconnected from reality.

It's quite a dark thought, or teenagers called these days, "Edgy". But it's all true.

But that all change when I have experienced staying for a week in Advance Nurturing High School.

I'm glad to think that going to this school would make me feel something. And it did, my first day is already something I would call an 'out of this world experience', it was the feeling of excitement.

I was excited, super excited in fact, that I even forgot to ask the old man what class I would attend.

Can you blame? Because finally in this lifetime I could make my own decisions, and not only that, but my environment is not a blank room anymore.

I could finally see the outside world, The sun, the sky, the trees, the stars, the moon, and the different kinds of animals.

I feel like I was a child again.

Although that excitement cools down a bit, it's still there. I was excited that finally, something in this life, I could look forward to something.

Maybe in this life, I could finally experience what it feels like to be alive, what it feels like to be happy and genuinely smile.

And lastly, I want to experience of falling in love with someone.

Looking at them right now, the shocked faces they're making. Maybe they can help me experience all of that.

What it feels to be human again.

With that, for the first time in my life, I genuinely smile.

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(Honami's monologue )

I wouldn't consider myself a good person or a bad person.

I wouldn't even consider myself kind or cheerful or optimistic. But I like to think of myself as someone honest, just like my mother wanted me to become.

I had a fun, comfortable life in both elementary and middle school. I had plenty of friends of both genders and they were all nice to me.

By the time I was 3rd year in middle school, I even became the student council President. Just like I dream off.

But all of that change when I made a mistake. A mistake that would change my life.

I did something that could never be forgiven. A mistake that I should never have made.

The angry face and tears that my mother, who had collapsed from illness, made at that moment.

The bitter face my little sister made after being hurt and left as nothing more than an empty shell of herself.

Because of that experience, I wasted half of my 3rd year of middle school and ended up becoming a shut-in.

But on a certain day, that ended. When I learned about this school, I felt I needed to put an end to that.

I want to return to my old self where my mother and my little sister can depend on me. I want to make them smile again.

On my first day of school in Advanced Nurturing High School, I saw someone that intrigues me. He is the most handsome boy I saw in my entire life.

But that isn't what caught my attention. What caught my attention is the lack of aura around him. Ever since I was young, I can easily judge people. I can see the aura around them and judge them if they are a 'good' person or a 'bad' person.

But he, he doesn't have any. Perhaps he can help me become a better person. I want to know if he can help me, change me.

And maybe he can even change my life for the better.

Taking a deep breath and putting a smile on my face. I took my first step towards a new brighter future.

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( Utaha's monologue )

Ever since I was a child, I was always been told to be a good girl and behave like a lady. My parents were quite rich, so, if I did something that would make them proud they always gave me what I wanted.

No matter what it is, they would provide them for me. The thing that I always asked them is books, or to be more precise, novels.

Especially novel's about a prince saving the princess from the castle. It's an old type of fairy tale but I always imagine myself as that princess. It was a bit childish.

But this love for reading is what makes me smart and gifted when it comes to academics, that's why ever since I was in elementary to middle school, I was always at the top of the class. Combine with my good looks, I become somewhat of a celebrity.

And being a celebrity. People begin to flock around me, like bees around a flower.

They all gather around me, wanting my validation. But being the good girl my mother wanted me to become, I personally gave them the attention they want.

But it was exhausting. All the people I have to entertain, from my classmates to the teachers, even my neighbors. I always wear a smile like I was told to do.

But one day, I had enough.

That day, like always, they surround me. they keep on talking and talking without even bothering if I'm even listening to what are they saying.

The amount of stress that I suppress for so long finally get to me, With that, I snap, I smash my table, and begin to fire at them with harsh cold words that a middle schooler would even dare to say.

That day to me is especial since that was the day, that I, Utaha Kasumigaoka, was liberated.

However, when my parents heard what I did. They become furious and they lock me in my room for weeks.

This circumstance made me even love books and novels.

With a similar case to a princess lock in a castle. I began to daydream, imagining myself like the princess in the novels, waiting for my prince to save me.

However, the situation got worse for me when I overheard my parents that they will arrange a marriage for me to some unknown guy I never know.

This made me realized how cruel this world is, that there are no Princes or Princesses.

I began to accept reality for what it is,

but that all changed when I learned about Advanced Nurturing High School.

In this school, I want to escape from my past and my parents and start a new.

Maybe here, just maybe, I can even see my prince...

I hope this school can provide me the hope I need to face my future.

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