End Game

One year letter, New Jersey.

There are a lot of people walking on the center street of New Jersey. Monday morning always be a busy day everywhere. The wind of spring season's feel so warm, sign that summer will come soon. I walking faster, when I see a porsche stop in front of my office building. Oh no, the boss coming before I sit on my desk, that's mean I will get a new bad Monday. Yeah, I've got it some before.

Fyuh.

I sit on my desk after hearing my boss' speech for 25 minutes. She adds 5 minutes from her speech before. At the end I must write it on fault book and my fee will cutted. I'm okay with the book and fee, but hearing her speech make me so paralized. My boss must learn how to be to the point, beside her high respect for discipline. Now, I must stop the earthquake in my head. I surprised by pile of task which higher than my computer in my desk. Oh my, when is it come? I remember that my desk looks so clear, when i leave it in the friday night. Ok let's start working, Kay.

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I moved to New Jersey after my relationship with Namjoon end. I live with my mom who lives there after divorced with my dad. Luckily I have a parents who live in different country, so I did not confuse where I should running away. Haha.

I heard that BTS have a many schedule in the United States. And now, they coming to New Jersey. I have read Namjoon tweets, with the caption NJ come to NJ. Be honest, I naturally smiling, feel that he come here to meet me. What a delucional.

The concert will be held in MetLife stadium, as a former staff from bighit I decide to come to their concert. I must see how good that company take care of BTS after I left. And this such a public lying. Haha. Ok, I just wanna to see them. Them? Really him? Oh, maybe I must call him old friend.

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The concert was so amazing, they are really born to be an idol. I'm so touched, when all of the member find me and waving their hand to me. That's make a loud scream from hundred girls inside the stadium. One of the guard call me and tell me to follow him. That boys really unpredictable, I think that after the concert I can coming home peacely.

BTS dressing room, there's a sign "staff only" in front of the door. The door open, there are a lot of my old friends, big hit is not really easy to change their staff. I greet all of them, and hug some of them who I really know. I hug Haesoo Unni too and some of BTS members, my big baby boy Jungkook and Hoseok.

"Jeon, you looks more gorgeous than last time I see you." I say it after hug Jungkook.

"That's noona disadvantage, so you can not see how I grow gorgeously day by day."

"Wah, this baby was so arrogant." I reply while rubbing his hair, and he shows me his rabbit smile.

And now, my eyes meet with Namjoom eyes. He gives me a code to follow him. And as he wishes, I can not stop my step to go following his step. We arrive in the balcon of this room, this place feels better than inside.

"Long time no see, how are you?" He says first.

"Good, and you?"

"Pretty good."

"Yeah, I can see it."  I reply him and we smiling each other.

"How about Haesoo Unni. I think both of you must be have a relationship."

Namjoon tries to smile and changes his view to the front.

"Why do you keep asking about it? Are you jealous?"

I silence and got shocked for a moment.

"N-no." I answer with a doubt. "Okay, my fault. I must be careless about your relationship.

"Kay." He call my name softly. I put my full attention to see his eyes.

"After we broke up. I know that relationship does not match in my lifestyle."

I can not say anything again. I stuck in his eyes and even when the night wind through me hardly.

"As you say, I have find my world. I'm too busy to take care about love. Even I don't know about my feeling. I decide to stop thinking about love. It will hurt someone again, like you got. I still feel sorry about us, Kay. I can't hold you and my feeling. I'm sorry."

Good, Joon! You successly make me cry again. I say it inside of my heart.

This is an end game for us Joon. You've let me go, like I do before. But in my side, after let you go, it does not mean that I let this feeling go. I need more time than you do. Cause you have let me go and your feeling.

"It's okay, Joon. You can stop your apology. Thank you for let me be your girl and feel your love for a moment a go."