Episode 5.

'Why not the future? 

'Because marriage and love are not my thing'.

Why?

I see marriage as a big time commitment that requires a lot of energy and love. It's not just my thing.

After giving these reasons for a not promising future,Fame became confused and decided on digging more into my reasons.Scared and uncomfortable with my reasons he asked.. 

Has anyone gotten your heart broken before? 

'No'.It's just something I feel it's not so real we just force it and act on our psychologically written script on how it should look like.Some end up in an abusive marriage with the excuse of I still love him or her irrespective of what I'm going through.My question has always been if truly love don't die then why has God not forgiven Lucifer and love him again?You see love dies at some point.

Fame was shocked at my statement about love.

Sighing! He said softly" I hope with time you change your mentality on that cause I wouldn't want to lose you".

'I hope so'. 

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We started on our relationship journey while his divorce was still in process.

Fame was all every woman would desire. I just don't know why his wife is blind to see it. We had our fights as normal humans we are.We became fond of each but deep down I still had my doubts on the possibilities of this working out. I had my fears. Are his children ever going to accept me as their mom?We already talked about this, with Fame trying every conviction method he can to make me stay. On the other hand, will my family accept our marriage intention?

My mom is aging and I doubt her acceptance.Truly I've grown to respect this man and develop likeness, but was that enough to stay in marriage ? 

Fame always says "if you truly love me you will help me convince your family".

That my first marriage didn't work out doesn't mean my second won't and you can't punish me because I was once married.

Do you expect me to still stay in my marriage after all attempts to make it work yet it fell through all because my said wife isn't ready to make it work.Look! I've been trying my best to keep my marriage but each day I get home she just makes things worse.

 After the divorce do you expect me to just leave you alone all just because of your family opinion?.

I'm so done convincing and pleading for you to stay.

I know he lost his temper this time and I really do feel for him. Dealing with a failed marriage and the already working relationship about to fail because of his failed marriage and it's starting to look like nature bamboozled him in his world of love.