Text [Kim Seokjin]

*These are inner monologues*

You: I thought it had already been a week. I was wrong. It's been a total of two days. Two days without texting him. Two days without seeing his name appear on my phone. Two days without the sound of his voice on the other side of my phone.

SeokJin: I suffered for two days without her. I didn't pick up my phone to call her. I didn't pick up my phone at all for that matter. My heart leaped every time a text message popped up on my phone. I thought it was her. I thought that I could apologize. But it never was.

You: Well, it's been a week now. No sight of him on my phone anymore. In fact, nothing from him anymore. Except for that stain, he left on my heart. That stupid mark. He got a knife and engraved his name so deep into my heart that it still hurt. After one stupid week, the knife was still plunged deep in.

SeokJin: I pick up my phone, but I don't have the courage to text her. I never do get the courage. I want to apologize. I want to talk to her. I want to hear her laugh across a phone call and she spam me with emojis on messages. I want everything to turn back to normal. I need to get the courage.

You: I'm over it. It's been too long now. The nightmares are bad. They're getting worst. Usually, he helps me with them but he's just not here anymore. I wake up crying in the middle night now. It's because of my nightmares, and it's because of the loss of him.

SeokJin: I wonder how she's coping with her nightmares. I want to text her in the middle of the night sometimes just to check up on her. I'm afraid of a non-response, though. I'm afraid she has replaced me with someone else who was better. Someone who treated her the way I should have.

You: Someone asked me out today. I told them yes. I don't know why. But I did. I might have said it to try and get rid of him from my mind. I tried. I failed. He's still in the mind, like a ghost. A hauntingly beautiful ghost.

SeokJin: I asked someone out today. She said yes to me. I wish she didn't though, but I'm glad she did. My mind is a horrible place. I'm dating one girl, but thinking about another.

You: We dated for two weeks. It was fine, I guess. I'm happy it's over though. My heart was never really in it. I'm just happy I didn't have to deceive him any longer. Sigh, a heartbreak hurts.

SeokJin: She broke up with me because she thought I was too heartless. Maybe I was. I don't know anymore. I don't know what to feel anymore. My heart is just empty right now.

You: I said fuck it. I'm going to text the person that I've loved my whole heart with and if the conversation doesn't work out, I will forget about everything. I'll drown myself in sad songs and books. I'll be okay if this convo doesn't work out.

SeokJin: I picked up my phone to text her, but I received a text from her first. A simple "hi." But it was that 'hi' that made everything better. It was that 'hi' that made my life turn around. It was that 'hi' that changed everything.

You: I smiled as a reply appeared on my phone next to his name. The heart was still there. "Hi." It was so simple. Yet I smiled. Widely. Truly smiled. For the first time in about forever, I felt happy.

SeokJin: I smiled at the lit phone in my hand as we exchanged text messages back and forth that night. It felt like everything was back to normal.

You: I smiled because, for once, everything seemed like it turned back to normal.

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Nothing's been proofread, sorry for the mistakes.