Chapter 29 Questions

The rest of the day went basically the same, students staring at me, whispering things about me. I wonder how many rumors there are about me already. And it's only the first day. I didn't see Matt or Stacy which I still don't know why but the day is over now and I'm at home again. Everyone's here and talking about their days. I don't wanna talk about how crap my day was. I'm exhausted and just wanna sleep. I walk to my room change clothes and go to sleep.

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Amy's POV

Scarlett came in with Avery and went straight to bed.

"Looks like she had a rough day"

"Yeah I talked to Luna and she said the kids at your school were already spreading rumors"

"Damn" Jamie said

"Kids are assholes" I said

"Language please, and can you go check on her, make sure shes ok and just stay in there for awhile"

"Ok"

I got up and walked into our room where I saw Scarlett laying on the floor staring at the ceiling.

"Hey"

"Hey"

"I heard school was rough, you wanna talk about it?"

"No"

"Come on, we haven't had any deep sisterly conversations in forever"

"Thats because of what happened at our foster home"

"But that was so long ago, can't we move past it already?"

"Fine, but on one condition"

"Sure what is it?"

She sat up and looked at me. "You have to answer all my questions truthfully"

Well I wasn't expecting her to say that. "Ok...what questions do you have?"

"A lot actually, so get comfortable"

I sat down on the floor and she began.

"Well my first question is why are- were you addicted to sex? You always seemed so happy and hopeful about everything"

I looked down at my hands thinking about what to say. "I- I guess I just wanted to feel wanted, I liked how the things those boys did to me felt and it gave me calmness and clarity. They made me feel wanted in a way you nor Avery could"

"Oh."

She looked calm, it was almost unsettling. "So my next question is, why did you have mom's funeral without me? I know that she hated me and I hated her but, she's still our mom. I wanted a chance to say goodbye and to let go of her but now I'll never get the chance. So, why do you guys do that?"

I felt my heart break when I looked at her. She looked so sad and hopeless. I feel so guilty about going through with the funeral without Scarlett. She deserved to say goodbye just as much as me and Avery. And we denied her if that. Why did I do that?

Just then Avery walked in and said dinner was ready. Scarlett laid back down in the floor and said she wasn't hungry. I looked at Avery and she looked frustrated with Scar. I can't stop thinking about what we did. It just wasn't right.

"Scarlett did you even eat lunch today?" Avery said

"Luna tried to make me but school lunch is disgusting"

"So you haven't eaten all day"

"Nope"

She looked a little more angry this time. Maybe it was because of Scarlett's nonchalantness or maybe she was just mad at the kids that were picking on her or maybe she was mad at herself. Whatever the reason she snapped at Scarlett.

"Would you just fucking eat!! God dammit Scarlett your going to end up dead if you continue like this. Now get off your ass, get in this kitchen and eat something!!"

I could tell the regret she had immediately. Her face went white and she realized what she said and how she said it. We both looked at Scarlett who was now sitting up facing away from us.

"Scarlett I'm sorry I yelled at you, but would you please just eat something"

She sat there for a minute not saying anything. We were both scared she'd have a bad reaction, and she did, just not one we were expecting.

"I wonder what mom would do to me for being so defiant"

We both stared at her in shock. I teared up remembering the types of punishments Scarlett would get. We both had it bad but she had it a hell of a lot worse.

"Scar-

"She'd probably beat the shit out of me" She laughed as if that were funny. She turned to face us and thats when we saw the sadness in her face.

"Scarlett I'm sorry" Avery said

"You wanna take a hit? I can probably take it seeing as how you have noodle arms, plus I'm already in pain from all these healing cuts"

"I'm not gonna hit you" She said

"Why not? I bet it'd make you feel better, get all that pent up anger out"

She stood up and walked over to her. Avery was standing in the door frame and Scarlett was right in front of her.

"Scarlett"

She punched the wall right next to Avery once before smiling at her. Her fist was bloody and bruised.

"So, what'd you make for dinner?" She said as if nothing just happened. She walked around Avery and went to the kitchen. I stood up and we both looked at each other confused and concerned.

"Crap! Scarlett your bleeding!" We heard Jamie say as we walked to the kitchen to see him take it out the first aid kit and wrapping her hand up.

"Scarlett I'm gonna call Ms. Diane"

She looked at her confused. "How come?"

Was she seriously gonna pretend that didn't just happen?

"You need to talk to someone"

"I am very mad at you right now" she said without a trace of anger in her voice.

We all looked at her. "Im mad at both of you"

"Scarlett I'm sorry" Avery said

"Me too" I joined in

"Jeez you guys, no need to be so formal. But, I don't accept your apologies"

"I didn't mean to yell at you"

"Well I know that silly" she got up and stood directly in front of Avery and me. She grabbed us both and whispered.

"As of right now, you both are dead to me"

We looked at her, what the fuck? She smiled and walked off to our room. "Goodnight!"

Me and Avery looked at each other, we were both holding back tears. Jamie looked at us just as confused as we were. He hugged both of us and we stood there for awhile.

"I shouldn't have pushed her" Avery said

"It's not your fault, she's not mad at you for that"

"Then what's she mad about?"

"She's mad that we had moms funeral without her"

Avery looked shocked. "That was months ago though, why now?"

"I don't know, maybe she's stressed out, with school starting and all. And she's has been saying what she's thinking out loud a lot. She only does that when she's stressed out"

"What do we do?"

We all stood their for a minute then Jamie said he had an idea.

"We could take her to your moms grave. If she needs closure that might give her some"

"That could actually work"

Just then we heard a loud bang come from me and Scarlett's room. We all ran in there to see her writing something. "What are you writing? And what was that noise?" I said but she didn't answer me, she just kept writing.

"Scarlett what are you writing?" Jamie asked

She turned around and looked at him with a smile. "Are you sure you wanna know?"

So I guess she's not speaking to us. "Yes" he said.

"It's a revised suicide note"

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Well someones gone off the deep end. Hope you guys enjoyed this and I'll see you on the next chapter😅.