Chapter 28 School

Scarlett's POV

Schools starting tomorrow. Amy is super hype and I feel dreadful. "I already know I'm gonna get picked on and bullied and tormented. I already know that I'm gonna be skipping lunches and secretly cutting in the bathrooms" And that of course, saying what I'm thinking out loud.

"Scar, if you don't wanna go you don't have to" Avery said to me

"No, it's fine. I wanna be with my friends. That's the only enjoyable part of school"

"Ok then. You guys need to get to bed early tonight because we're waking up early, I'll be taking you Monday Wednesday and Friday. Jamie will do Tuesdays and Thursdays"

"Sounds good to me" Amy said

I sighed. School makes me sad. It makes it so easy to loose track of the days and your life slowly starts to seem like one long day.

I went to sleep anxious for what I knew was coming.

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The Next Day

"Wake up you two, school starts today"

Amy got up all peppy while I slugged out of bed.

"I'm so excited!"

We got dressed and went to the kitchen for breakfast. Amy made oatmeal while Avery and Jamie had bacon and waffles.

"I'm not hungry" I said as I laid down on the couch.

"You need to eat something Scar" Amy said

"How can you be excited about going to such a tortuous place"

"I don't know, I've just always enjoyed school"

"Ugh fuuuuuck me"

"Stop complaining and come eat something" Avery said

"You said it yourself, you do want to go" Jamie said

"Only for my friends"

"Then think about that when your walking in" He said.

"How am I supposed to think about them when I'm getting punched in the face?"

"Scarlett, no ones gonna punch you in the face"

Avery said

"Now come eat"

Do I really wanna start my day with food? Short answer is hell no. But my sisters are relentless and will keep asking me to, I'll be able to puke it once I get to school so it shouldn't be a big deal.

"Oh yeah I forgot to tell you Scarlett, Luna will be going to school with you"

Avery said

I sat up from the couch and looked at her. "What?"

"Like she'll be going to classes with you and like keeping an eye you throughout the day. So there's no chance you'll be getting bullied Scar"

Seriously. How can I be so unlucky.

"Why does she have to be there??"

"Scarlett" Avery said to me with a calm slightly annoyed tone.

"You've been in a mental hospital, you've tried to commit suicide multiple times, your still struggling with an eating disorder, you have a tendency to run away, and you have a history of self harm. There's no way I'm letting you go alone. Plus as you've said, people bully you. And with Luna around you won't need to worry about that. Also I don't need two sisters having sex at such a young age"

Amy turned bright red, I would be laughing right now except the brunt of the rant was low key dissing me. I started scratching my back because it's easier to do than cutting and it's more discrete.

"Scarlett I'm sorry but I just want you to be safe"

"How come Amy doesn't have someone following around her? After all she is..you know...addicted to sex in all"

Amy looked at me like I had just slapped her in the face.

"I'm gonna kill you" she said in the calmest voice imaginable and she started running towards me and tackled me.

"Stop get off me!!"

"Take it back!!"

"It's the truth!!!"

Avery ran over and pulled Amy off of me. I wasn't trying to make her mad but it's not fair that I'm getting all these repercussions while she doesn't have any.

"Would you two quit it, we need to go, your gonna be late"

We get into the car and start heading to school. Amy's still looking at me angrily but it's whatever.

"For your information Scarlett, I haven't slept with anyone in over 3 months" Amy said

"Good for you"

"Would you two just be nice to each other for once?"

"She started it" Amy said

"I only said the truth"

"Well no one asked you to"

"Oh fuck you Amy"

I could see Amy had her fists balled.

"Whatcha gonna do? Hit me??"

"Stop!! Both of you" Avery said

We both sighed and I stared out the window for the rest of the drive.

"We're here"

"Great." I said

We got out the car and I saw Luna waiting by the front door. She saw us and walked over.

"Hey Luna" Avery said

"Hi Avery"

"So can you take it from here?"

"Yep"

"Ok, do you guys have everything?"

We both nodded and Avery was off to work. We all walked in and Amy split off from me and Luna.

The second I got into the school I could feel all the students and staffs stares. My heart was practically beating out my chest. I could hear their whispers and the gossip.

"Hey, come on we need to stop by the guidance counselors office before you go to class"

"Ok"

We started walking to the guidance counselors office. I haven't seen Matt or Stacy yet which is pretty weird considering our school isn't that big. I'm bound to run into them eventually.

While we were walking to the office I saw James by my old locker. He gave me a smug smile, winked, and blew a kiss at me. Luna saw it but we kept walking.

"I hate that son of a bitch" I said under my breath.

"Yeah, he seems like a pretty creppy guy"

We made it to the office and when I walked in it was a different new counselor in the old ones office.

"Hi Scarlett, please take a seat"

"Scarlett I'll be just outside" Luna said as she walked out the door.

I sat down and studied her new face.

"My names Ms. Soyer. I've heard a lot about you Scarlett"

"Why'd you call me in here? It's the first day"

"I wanted to get to know you of course" She stood up and walked over to where I was sitting. She came up behind me and massaged my shoulders.

"Can you tell me a little bit about yourself?"

What a creep. "What do you wanna know"

"How old are you Scarlett?"

"I'm 13"

"Scarlett, that's a nice name"

The bell rung meaning I was officially late to class. I stood up and headed out the door. "I look forward to getting to know you Scarlett"

I walked out and continued out of the office, Luna right behind me. I headed to my first class which was algebra 1.

The second I walked in the class fell silent. People started whispering to each other and the teacher just looked at me.

"Isn't that the girl who tried to kill herself?"

"I thought she was dead"

"Doesn't she cut herself?"

"Who's that with her?"

"I think it's her therapist"

"I heard she's a prostitute"

"I heard she did it for attention"

"What an attention whore"

That last one put me back to that walk me and Avery went on. They all know about everything.

I slowly walk to my seat and Luna walks to the back of the classroom. The teacher resumes but I can't help but notice everyone staring at me. The guy next to me passes me a note and I reluctantly read it.

Meet me behind the school, I want a piece of that ass.

I balled it up and shoved it in my desk. This is gonna be a rough year. I put my hands in my desk and felt around for my pencil bag, more specifically my pencil sharpener. Then I remember Avery wouldn't let me get one cause she was scared I'd use it to hurt myself.

I look behind me and see Luna sitting there looking at the teacher and every so often at me. I raise my hand and asked to use the bathroom and the teacher said yes. On my way out someone in the back of the class said-

"Bitch!"

I heard the class erupt into laughter. I kept walking and didn't look back. I don't know how people can be so disgusting. I walk into the bathroom and luckily no ones in there. I sit in the floor and start crying and scratching my bandages. Luna was right there and grabbed my hands.

"I'm so sorry Scarlett, those kids in there are horrible"

"Let go of me"

She let go and I immediately started scratching my arms again. I want pain, I wanna just forget about all those nasty kids. I hate school. Luna grabbed my hands again.

"Scarlett, breathe"

I take a deep breath and try an calm myself down but it's not really working. "Please just go away"

"You know I can't do that. Scarlett I know this is bad but just brave through today, maybe you can switch schools?"

"We don't have the money for me to switch schools right now, now please let go of me"

"Are you gonna keep scratching at your arms?"

"Yes now let go" I yank my hands away and try to start scratching again but Luna grabs me.

"It gonna be ok Scarlett. Breathe"

"You say that like it's easy"

"I know its hard. But please relax ok, you don't have to go back in there"

That calmed me down quite a bit. I wish people would just forget about all the shit I did and let me go back to being a nobody. I think Luna could see I was calmer because she let go of my hands and we sat there until the bell rung.

Afterwards we headed back into the class so that I could pick up my stuff and the we headed to my next class, social studies.

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