28. Rather feel loved ir sacrificed?

"Now sleep beauty." That's all I remember, then I woke up with a terrible headache. I looked around I was in some kind of bedroom.

I remembered that Hannel took me with him. The door was opened, expected Hannel to come in , but instead was a woman probably my age . She smiled as if she knew me with a green cup on her hands.

"Drink this it will help you with the headache." She smiled sweetly at me.

I refused to take it from her hand.

"Who are you?"

"Çeçilia. Hannel said you don't remember us."

"Are you one of them? You are helping Hannel." I tried to fight back my headache .

"Of course I'm helping him. You asked me to. Drink this it's medicine for your headache."

"I asked you to take care of him? Why would I do that?"

I took the cup from her hands and smelled it. It smelled horrible.

"Because you care about him. Or you cared when you were Iden. You knew that he was able to burn the world down for you, that's how much he loved you. "

"It doesn't seem that way to me now. Did he say he tried to turn me into a lab rat, and maybe did that before too?"

"Trust me dear Tara, that is your name now right? He would never hurt you. You were his first and only love. It's true he has done a lot of bad things to the others, he may be a monster with overyone except you. And you cared about him too, that's why you asked me to take care of him while you were gone." She spoke calmly smiling at me, so sure of what she was saying . I took a sip of the medicine, it was sour.

"I don't believe you. Then why does everyone else says that I loved Gideon? That I brought him back from death?"

"Because you loved him. You still love him. In every life you'll end up loving him. He is your soulmate. You are made for each other. "

"You are confusing me. In which side are you?"

"In yours Tara. I am your childhood friend. But I'm also Hannel's best friend. We grew up together. I am the witness of Hannel's love for you , and your love for Gideon. "

"I am confused. Now what? " I sighed. I didn't remember a thing. I was sad , confused, scared. And I longed for Gideon's presence.

The girl, Çeçilia showed me around the place. It was a white building with a huge garden around the building. There were huge trees and people sitting on them. Young people playing around and running like it was paradise.

Something didn't feel right. It was like all of us were trapped inside that garden , forgetting what we were supposed to do.

I tried to remind myself various times that I had to leave from there, but something took my attention every time.

"Are you enjoying gorgeous?" Hannel whispered near my ear.

"I want to leave." I protested in a calm voice.

"Have you tried the apples of these trees? Are so tasty, yammy. " He ignored what I said earlier with a wide smile on his face.

"I'm not snow white, stop giving me apples. I want to leave Hannel, right now!" I raised my voice, thing that didn't affect him.

"Okey then, but you have to pay some price to get out of here. " He raised his left brow smirking.

"I don't have any money with me."

"I didn't say money my sweet Tara." He had a devilish grin on his face.

"Then what?" I asked irritated .

"I've missed the taste of your lips. You have to kiss me to get out of here." He licked his lips looking at me with lust in his eyes.

"No! I don't want to. You're disgusting, how can you ask me that?"

"Oh come on! It's not like we haven't kissed before. After all I was your first kiss when you were Iden." He shrugged like it was not big deal.

"I don't believe you." I crossed my arms.

"Well when you kiss me, maybe you'll remember me." He walked towards me as I stumbled backwards.

Not understanding how, it was fast, in the flesh of a second his lips were on mine. I didn't feel butterflies in my stomach or tingles or goosebumps on my skin. But it didn't feel disgusting as well. It was like I knew this guy, like I cared for him. I was afraid of hurting him.

That kiss made me feel like I was being desired, loved. Like I was the centre of the world . I was left speechless.

After we broke out from the kiss he whispered in a husky voice : " Would you rather be with someone who would burn the world just to have you or with someone who would sacrifice you to save the world?"

"Huh?" That was all I could say, repeating his question in my head.

" You understand whom I refer to. Would you rather choose to feel loved or to be sacrificed ?"