Chapter 2

THE scene was like knives being stabbed in my chest multiple times. It killed me. Big time. I felt my tears slowly falling down my cheeks nonstop at what I am watching right now. They made all the way to the long couch without breaking the kiss. He laid the unfamiliar girl on the couch as his hands roamed all over the girl’s body while the girl’s hand was clinging unto his nape.

I wanted to get out where I was hiding and slap their faces but it feels like my feet were being glued on the floor. I couldn’t move. I was too shocked to even react at the moment.

“Anniversary, huh?” I heard the girl speak. I guess she saw the decorations I made on the wall.

“Don’t mind it. Let’s just continue,” my boyfriend said.

Why? Why did you do this, Felix? I thought… I couldn’t accept it. It broke my heart into a million pieces when I heard the girl call my boyfriends name in a soft moan. It hurts like hell.

“Where is your girlfriend?” the slut asked like she didn’t just moan my boyfriend’s name.

“Stop asking about her.” Damn it hurts.

I wanted to laugh at him. I am here you jerk! But I couldn’t even open my mouth to speak. It feels like my tongue was being cut so I couldn’t talk, so I couldn’t stop them from doing what they are doing.

“Why? You love her, right?”

“But I love you most,” he replied which made me cry more. My heart already broke into pieces but I felt like it broke more. He said it like he was just giving a piece of candy to a little girl.

“Fuck me!” the girl again let out a scream.

“I’m not yet done, babe,” I heard him say in a sweet voice. Shit! Why won’t you just kill me instead of seeing and hearing this?! My tears continue falling and wiping them is no use.

“Can you just tell her- ah!” the sudden girl screamed and won’t be able to continue what she was trying to say. I couldn’t see them now because I was so damn tired to even move. I couldn’t bear seeing them fucking inside our apartment. It was enough hearing them scream each other’s names while fucking.

I was so broken but still, a part of me was hoping that this was just a dream and I badly want to wake up because it really hurts like hell. I couldn’t take the pain anymore.

“Felix! You’re so good!” the girl moans again his name. And I was just there, hiding, and silently crying as I heard them scream each other’s names and let them silently shatter my heart into millions of pieces.

After of who knows how long when I heard Felix’s voice.

“Get your clothes and leave.”

“Wow. You seriously commanded me like we didn’t fuck,” the girl sarcastically said. I bet they’re done doing unnecessary things in my back. Tsk! Is this what they are doing when I’m not around? Is this it, Felix?

“Can’t you just lead me outside and help me get a taxi?”

“My girlfriend is coming. Now get your clothes and leave,” Felix said in an authoritative voice.

I wanted to go out and slap him but I was so broken. I was tired of crying but my tears continue to fall down my cheeks. I couldn’t stop it. I was so tired to move. I don’t want him to see me. I don’t want to let him know that I just heard them scream each other’s names. I was just… too tired.

I heard their footsteps and a door being closed. I bet the girl finally go home. After a couple of minutes, I heard again a door being open and closed. I guess Felix go to his room to change. I laughed in the back of my mind. Of course, he would take a bath and change so I wouldn’t notice that there is something wrong going on with him.

Sad to say, Felix. I’m wiser playing this game of yours.

I silently went out of where I am hiding and silently opened the door to get out of that damn apartment where my boyfriend just made out with the other girl. Really, Felix? In OUR apartment?

I turned off my phone. I’m sure Felix will call me or message me after he made himself happy. I greeted my teeth and called a taxi and tell the driver the address of my best friend. I don’t care if I’m in a mess right now. I just badly wanted to get out of that hell place. It was past 10 PM.

I was silently walking until I get to Bella’s condo. I could feel the people’s eyes looking at me because of my look. Yeah, I know I’m in a mess. But I don’t care. I was just tired from all the cries. Please, if this was just a dream, please wake me up right now. I reached Bella's floor and I was in front of her door. With all the strength that I still got, I knock.

After three knocks I heard the door being opened. I lift up my head and I could see how Bella’s eyes widened when she saw how I look like.

Her mouth parted with eyes wide. “What happened to you?!” I didn’t respond and just let her pull me to get inside.

She leads me inside and makes me sit on the couch in the living room.

“Care to tell me what actually happened and why your eyes were puffy from all the crying, Audrey?” I still didn’t open my mouth to speak.

And then, I remember it again. Their voice that’s screaming each other’s names echoed inside my head. The scenario I saw was how they tasted each other’s lips. And there it is, I feel again my eyes watered while the scenario replayed inside my head.

Bella who’s beside me hugs me tightly like she knows what happened.

“Hush. It’s okay. You will get through all of this,” she said and made looked at her, she wiped my tears. I am crying again. I thought that I have left no tears to cry but I guess I was wrong.

“I just love him but why does it seem that he was just playing?” I asked.

“That Felix really didn’t change after all,” she greeted her teeth. “We will make him pay!” she angrily said.

I faced her. “Can I stay here?”

“Of course! I told you that you are welcome here,” she stated and I smiled at her.

I’m glad that I have her. No matter how stupid I was in love, she’s still here, willing to protect me at all cost.

I stayed at Bella’s place. She let me use her unused pajamas. She also made me sleep in the room where it was supposed for me before until I moved in with Felix’s apartment. I bet Bella’s partly happy right now because I’m going to stay with her again. After all, she’s the one who wanted me to just stay with her place since it was big enough for us.

I find it hard for me to sleep because I couldn’t help myself but cry again. God, when will I stop crying? The scenario couldn’t stop playing inside my head. I could still remember what I saw, how Felix's lips tasted that girl’s lips, and how they screamed each other’s name in pleasure. Fuck it!

I grab my phone from the bedside table and turned it on. I choose nice background music and let it play until I fall into a deep sleep.

I wake up at 7 AM the morning. I walked inside the bathroom and was about to fix myself when I suddenly remembered that I came here with only just my phone, myself and my wallet. I brushed my teeth and comb my hair. I noticed that the toiletries were still complete when I’m still staying here before. I smiled.

I went to the kitchen, still in my pajamas, and saw my best friend occupied with what she’s doing.

“Morning,” I greeted.

She turned around and saw me sitting in one of the chairs. She looked at me intently.

“What? I don’t have clothes remember? It’s all in Felix’s apartment,” I answered.

Then I realized how well I’m gonna get my things in there. I know that he’s there and I couldn’t afford to see him after what he did.

“Right. Did he contact you?”

I shrugged. “Maybe. I turned off my phone and still didn’t bother to open it,” I explained.

I know he will call me and flood me with text messages that’s why I didn’t bother to turn my phone on. When I turned it on last night, I saw a lot of notifications but decided to ignore them. I can’t bear reading where it came from because I know I would just see Felix’s flooded my inbox.

Let see until when and where he could bear. He won't hide and seek? Then I’ll give it to him.

:)