My first loss!

My dear diary, this year was my worst in both life's.

My mother passed away. She died. She left me.

I took her for granted and now she is gone. Did she knew I loved her? That she was my most important person? That she was my real mother? The only one that I really knew? Did I show her enough love, affection and care?

When she got ill I tried my best to cure her but even with all knowledge I couldn't beat cancer.

That was better than my fucking's father and his fucking's frauds who only kept prescribing some bullshit herbs and a shitty rest.

She's really resting now, you fucking pieces of shits.

That same fucking father who kept working even when his wife's was on her death bed and was away from home spouting to me bullshit like 'having a duty'.

Your fucking duty is take fucking care of your family first you fucking barbarian.

Was it also his fucking duty to plan to remarry with our fucking's maid not long after the funeral?

Why did he even want to remarry? You fucking piece of shit rarely lay your hands on your wife. Do you need a new fucking cover for your fucking 'work'?

Came clean and get out of the closet , you will still be the same fucking barbarian afterwards. Stop believing in those fucking barbarian idioties and try to fucking admit it if you're into men if you really are and maybe you'll earn a little of my respect.

And of course our maid who is even worse than whores for noble's pet, they do exist, accepted.

You fucking servile woman, you're a fucking disgrace to your gender.

I had a huge argument with my father about it, I left the house to live in my mansion and threw at his face 1 million DSC, multiple times of what he gave me in my entire life.

Even Ye Zong visited me trying to reason with me. I replied that : '' You can start giving parental advices after trying to stop letting your daughter being left alone and be bullied by her half-siblings. ''

This made him so mad that he kept yelling some nonsense about not knowing what a father is and forbid me from ever setting a foot again in his mansion.

Fuck him and his stupid mansion, a mansion so big that he must be using it as a way to compensate for his little penis.

I'm gonna built the greatest ever fucking sex palace because I am rich bitch.

It only got worse as 2 days later Ye Ziyun visited me and berated me for what I said to her fathet claiming that I couldn't picture the greater good and the sacrifice that must be done for the city.

So the tiny dick is a little snitch. What a great fucking man.

I took her berating silently, I had gone a little too far to be honest but they shouldn't have brought up the fucking remarriage shit when I was still fucking mourning my loss.

She was panting when she finished, and it was not in the circumstances I wanted to see when panting .

She concluded nonetheless by a thank you, a kiss on the cheek and a goodbye.

Guess I blew up my chances with her. I don't remember her prioritizing something more than the safety of the city's or the importance of her father's work even at her own's sacrifice.

I don't want to think about it. I'm still only 9 so I can always fall back on my feet.

Wang Wei, 2nd of August, 715 SGC.