Life was asking a cost from him to fall in love with another boy and that boy also falling for him too. Yes, he got to know in that kiss that his Xian ge was also in love with him just like he was in love with him but life never said it is easy and since their parting, he decided to live it hard. To live it with his conditions but he was merely ten years old child who had to stick to his parents till he gets stable to go back to his Xian ge.
Which his own mother asked him to do when they were about to leave China and he tried really hard to stop there only but nothing worked. Thinking about past events he felt more agony igniting in his heart again. It was even making his breathing difficult but still, he looked into his mother's eyes again who was his support system, to tell his heart out. Those words hurt her more than anything else in this world but she stood strong.